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2012-01-27T00:12:00.001+08:00

Words from my war torn soldier...

2011-09-01T02:22:00.000+08:00

2011-06-19T14:37:00.002+08:00

2010-06-09T18:51:00.006+08:00

2010-06-02T01:49:00.000+08:00

Wow I haven't been blogging much have I? Well obviously, I'm too caught up with work. Working shifts is the last thing I ever imagined I would do after graduation. Looking at my family, only me and my dad is the ones who seem to be working our ass of at night. Been thinking of quiting, but every single moment I felt like it, money stop me. I kept think, my increment was heaven, my allowance was heaven, the welfare is heaven, why quit?! Worst still, they are going to ammend sergeants pay with effect of July to 2.1k and above. 3 month bonus?! Furthermore, I'm getting along well with the girls in the locker. So why leave?! Sighhhh.

Boyfie is joining aetos and we both will work shifts, sighh I kindda am happy for him but at the same time afraid of what may come.

I kindda hate thinking about careers. Sometimes, life is much simpler when u study and take exams. I think it'd be much better to study and get paid at the same time.

Anyway I love it when I have my boy arm to sleep on, because everything just goes away, and life is much peaceful that way. I just want it to remain that way can?!

2010-04-25T16:26:00.010+08:00

2010-04-07T05:14:00.001+08:00

i told love

"syg its so sad to see people coming back from work and WE are just gg to work"
"we are special, be proud that u are serving the goverment"

-____-

and i just turned down CNB's offer

- Posted using my iPhone

2010-03-18T01:42:00.002+08:00

2010-03-17T21:16:00.001+08:00

2010-03-16T01:23:00.006+08:00

selling this in BLACK

selling this in BLACK

size 37 (im normally size 36 tho but it fits well)
at $70
Very Brand New

iPhone

2010-01-25T10:50:00.001+08:00

I got an iPhone for myself and i'm glad I can post entries anytime I want to.

- Posted using my iPhone

2010-01-20T23:26:00.003+08:00

i got plans for babys mom on cny. she has been really nice to me. giving her stuffs in which she don't wear anymore. and the fact that i always crash at baby's home, she's been planning to have one of the room for me and him. thinking of buying a bed and stuffs. hahaha. she's so funny and supportive at the same time.

and i look forward for shopping on feb with baby.
ive got plans with baby for our anny.
my family got plans for a getaway this april, and tat includes my bf too.

and i can't wait!!

TP is coming so soon. and i bet i'd fail the first try.

but i pray for the best of course.

after getting the license.

im gonna get my bike license too.

hahaha. im lucky enough that after much disagreement of bf not letting me ride a bike,

he finally came to a decision that his letting me get a bike license.

Im young, and i wanna get all this experience.

2010-01-14T00:03:00.006+08:00

today i realized something about my family.

i realized that the only person who's there willingly to help me thru my helpless times is my sister and my parents.

Today, i also realised that, theres just this one person, who just suck. He suck. He thinks he's all that. and that is, my brother. Yes, my brother. Who might be reading this. yes you. because this is the only means to reach you. you know, i just don't care anymore. i reached that point of time in my life, that i give up on you. Eat your heart out, yes, i don't care. I'll never look back upon this and apologise, i swear. because, YOU OWE ME AN APOLOGY BIG TIME.

You put people in pain, and you don't even realise. because why? you're egoistic.

I take this words that you told me "Kau ingat eh minah, bila aku susah, tak pernah aku nak carik kau!"

my say, you said it because, you got that money and of cuz being you you think you're all that. LOOK, I asked you to buy that camera because i know you're interested in buying a new one too. NOT BECAUSE I NEEDED HELP. if you hadnt buy that camera, i still would'nt struggle, im still doing good. KAU PIKIR EH, probably this is the first time i ever asked you for money, and YOU ALREADY DA START UNGKIT2. eh, da brape banyak kali aku pinjam kakak duit when I REALLY NEED HELP, and pls, never once she ungkit about the money she helped me with.

Think about it, I NEVER SAY I WOULD'NT KEEP TO MY PROMISE. But from what i see, that camera has been in your hands and out with you for so many times. MORE than i ever get to bring it out. and in that fight, you already brought up about the car! about not letting me using it.

take this analogy, your damn car is still under installment, You're only giving it to me because you know that im gonna continue the installment for you and used that car more than you do.

same goes for my camera. Im still under installment by you. But, say if you hve been using my camera more than i do, Then for what i wanna continue the installment.

BETUL TAK?!

one things for sure, you're clever. Youre clever at manipulating people. I wanted the camera as my birthday present, and i was so happy the day i saw it, and asked if it was my birthday present. BUT WAT DID YOU SAY? "Tak de ah! nanti aku beli flash, itu mak and kakak share belikan" Its obvious isnt it?! You wanted the flash and the camera for ur friends wedding photo. and u wanted to pay for that flash so that you'd only pay little and i have to pay the rest?

Doesnt that just shows how kental you are?

I've always wondered why we drifted that far. that far, that i feel so awkward sometimes being with you.

maybe that shows, you're never like a brother to me.

and i have always wished we were close like little times.

its funny,

"at least i wanted to BUY and PAY for your car... "

i really hope the best for ur future.

You already need help about your life.

but you know what? remember this words "Kau ingat eh minah, bila aku susah, tak pernah aku nak carik kau!"

trust me, you're slowly losing your family too. because why, our existense, means nothing to you.

you're just SELFISH about EVERYTHING. from your life to your car...

i paid the full amount today, and i dun care if im broke or anything because of you.

because why? youre not worth my time. you take, and you dun touch my camera like how you don't let my own sister touch your car. that's how imma play it. i play your game. because in the end, i have my sister and my mom whos nothing like you at all. who pinjam sekali je da ungkit.

YOU ARE NEVER GOING TO MAKE IT.

YOU'RE LOSING OUT.

YOU'RE A FAILURE.

2010-01-12T15:54:00.003+08:00

2010 is gonna be a great year.
2009 was bliss.

i started out with going jb with bf in the middle of the night. in which i never had done b4, on the bike.
i wanna do crazy things this year.

i wanna take gmax!!

And most importantly, i'm gonna drive and im gonna get my bros car!

2009-12-25T04:18:00.002+08:00

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2009-12-25T04:10:00.002+08:00

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2009-12-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

my plan was to go aussie this feb.

but its all burned!

due to getting high at dbl O, i did'nt pay much attention on my pursed.

and everything, just everything was gone!

ERGH!!!!!!!!!!!

cheeeeeeeeebs.

and now, i have to get everything back!

-_____________-

2009-12-10T03:19:00.001+08:00

a reunion with the girls was fun.
partying with the boyfriend and bestfriend was double the fun.

2009-12-07T19:12:00.001+08:00

2009-12-03T16:54:00.001+08:00

haha so cute.
love you boyfie!! mwah!

2009-12-01T03:16:00.001+08:00

Ive been pretty much happy since the day baby got back from aussie! Family surprised me with d90 for my birthday. which means, i’ve got 2 dslr now. -___- baby got me stuffs from aussie. he even wrote a diary for me to read on each day he spent away from me. and, eliane and loga are coming back on dec. dec is gonna be great!

i am darn tired

2009-11-02T22:22:00.001+08:00

Oh, and did i mention, i bought this pretty cake for eka’s 1st birthday party! together with a toddler’s car and a built in tunnel.
Preety ain’t it? She must be one happy girl!

2009-10-23T01:53:00.003+08:00

i love baby a lot.
i hate saying goodbyes to my love ones even tho i know they arent gone forever.
because i'll start pouring and i'll never seem to stop to know that they are so far away from me.
both my best friend and my love are in australia right now.
sighh.

anyway, i was supposed to save up for aust next year feb.
to be there with eliane to hang ard and to spent time together. To feel independent going there with her and to depart by myself.
the plan was to catch sounwave music fest. great lineups with bands such as all time low, paramore and many many more. But look where am i now, spending most of my hundreds and hundreds over dollars over clothes and more clothes.
I JUST CANT STOP

But i still can make it!
And i will make it!

2009-10-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

iris mini flutter sleeve smocked top
26 mailed

2009-10-04T15:17:00.004+08:00

im selling off my DSLR e-volt 500.
At 600$. Negotiable.
Condition: 7/10

Comes with 2 lens.
And an extra battery.

Wide angle lens/Macro lens will be sold separately.
=D

item sold!

lovey love

2009-09-25T14:32:00.001+08:00

I hate how people mistreat cleaners. I hate to see the sight of nenek’s working as a cleaner. Because it saddens me. It saddens me if i were to see my mom, working like them. Sighhh. I guess that’s how much i love my mom. I will always give her the best i can just so she could sit and rest at home.

a getaway

2009-09-07T20:33:00.001+08:00

i had fun this weekend.
I celebrated my boy's 21st.

A surprise in front of pacific plaza...

A surprise stay in a premiere room of Royal Scotts..
5 00 Petals of roses and candles...

A Surprise Cake sent on midnight...

A night out...

Dinner surprise with his mom and bro at breeks...

Complimentary breakfast at Carousel was DELICIOUS...

All and all, everything went smoothly and perfect.
I enjoyed the fact that he enjoyed the day.
he quoted "craziest and best bdae ever"
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY.
HAPPY ADVANCE 21ST BIRTHDAY!! MWAHHH!

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2009-09-07T18:22:00.001+08:00

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2009-09-04T00:41:00.002+08:00

IM JUST SO LAZY TO UPDATE.

I've got another blog.
I pretty much will update there.

Love's birthday coming up.
Been planning with his mom and bro.

will update here when i can.

Guettler’s coming to town AGAIN!!!!!

2009-08-13T22:44:00.001+08:00

LIKE OH MY GOD!!!

Again, my boy, RYAN GUETTLER, is coming to singapore for the Singapore Xtreme Championship 2009. Now i finally get the chance to meet him again. I was actually hoping that catfish’s coming too. Boohoo… Still remember how friendly they were that time. Its held at the new skatepark this time. And i heard that there’ll be a party straight after the competition at the skatepark itself. My, i can’t wait. And sadly, it falls at the same time as baybeats. But hellllllll i wanna meet my boy.

Hahahaha my boy nicholas will be darnnnnnnn jealous!!!!!!!!!!
NYAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA =P
I STILL LOVE YOU BABY. WITH ALL MY HEART. MWAH!

And oh, i work at a very creepy place.
I sleep in silence at night at my workplace.
And sometimes, i hear sounds.
Its everywhere.
CREEPY HUH?

CLEARANCE

2009-08-05T02:40:00.004+08:00

SELLING!!

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2009-07-06T00:09:00.001+08:00

KL TRIPPING

2009-07-04T04:54:00.001+08:00

KL TRIPPING WITH MY BOY.

I had fun last week with love making trips to KL with bro and Sara. Initial plan was to head there in the morning and be back by night. But we all ended up booking ourselves a room to stay there for a night. I stock up my wardrobe as usual. Bought a lot of tee’s and dress. And i finally got myself a clutch bag. Baby bought a lot of things too. Now, we finally got a pair of matching macbeth sneakers. heeeeee. i really enjoyed my trip. And it was just then, when my bf actually told me he wanted to go again.

Apart from the trip we made, Work has been tiring. That probably explains my absense. I held a gun last ;ast week. Went through my basic firearms course. And to my amusement, im A MARKSWOMAN OKAY!! hahaha. i really enjoyed my lesson with the trainee. Probably one of the most happening activities i had in training so far. Got my uniform now. Got my posting too.

That much to say, Im a very busy woman now.

An officer by the day,
A graphic designer by the night.

2009-06-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

I SWEAR YOU WON'T WANNA MISS THIS

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

2009-06-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

"Was like reading minah's blog. Yeapp, I really really have fun with you at F1 pit building, the FUEL event. It was really fun, especially only with the two of us, and we are having this much of fun already. LOL, I really gonna miss it. Really. Lol, my tears are like coming out now. ANyways, it's really addictive to club with minah. And it's really sad that I doubt we will have this kind of chance again. It's more saddening that we girls, minah, mira, nurul, loga all didn't have our own proper group of clubbing nite huh. Is like everytime, somebody sure cant make it and all. SO SADDD." - eliane

HAHAHA. YOU MAKING ME CRY AGAIN. IDIOT.
Me am gonna miss you too. A LOT. and don't worry, always, you're not forgotten.
My house is open for you anytime for sleepover. Only thing, i'll be working in the weekdays. And we'll hit the club soon again okay?! Before you leave. NO MONEYYY LAH NOW. sigh.

Take me away

2009-06-08T19:45:00.001+08:00

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2009-06-08T00:56:00.001+08:00

Assholes

Grrrrrrr. Some shitty assholes just had to steal my helmet. And made me took the bus home today. Really irritatng. I swear i’ll give him a punch if i know whoever that person is. Idiot. Strangely, he or she only took mine only. –__-

Gahhh… i need sleep now. I’ve got a lot of pictures i wish to upload. But i don’t have the time. WHY?!
WORK! sighhh. *yawns*

2009-06-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. geli btul!
jijik sekali hamba mendengar.

After knowing something that i should've known.
You're an addict, screwed and a screwer.

Visiting the lock-up was the only interesting part of work this week.
And the stories and stuffs heard too.
Now i kindda wish i am posted to tuas.

2009-05-31T23:51:00.002+08:00

I've been doing a lot of online shopping lately.
GRR.

And, so long my lovely streaks....
Im a normal black head now.
SIGHHHH.

Lots of trip this week for work.
Early sleep today.

NYAHAHAHHAHA. WATTTT SIAAAAA….

2009-05-28T16:22:00.001+08:00

NYAHAHAHHAHA. WATTTT SIAAAAAAA....

So im working tomorrow. WORK! LIKE WOAH! First time like that luh kan. Aminah’s working.
But i’ve got stages that i must go through in order to confirm that i’ll be working there.

1st that im currently worrying is my medical condition.
2nd my law examination
3rd my shooting examination

The great thing about training at home team academy is that, love’s camp is just around the corner. And he always park his bike at home team. So you knoe what that means? every fri and wed pick ups! nyahahhahaha.

2009-05-26T02:03:00.001+08:00

It feels kindda good

I had fun that sat night at the fuel party with elia. Initially, i thought that, mannn… partying just the two of us, was like like wth! But you know what? I had the greatest night with my best friend dancing at the dance floor together. just 4 cups of redbull vodka and a nick of tequila got us move on the dancefloor. And yeap another cup of drinks offered by some of the guys especially for eliane. nyahahaha. We got so high that we could’nt even stand straight.

If love did’nt picked me up that night, probably we both will still be dancing our ass away. I really had fun. BUT! I made love so pissed that he did’nt talk to me that whole journey back. I kindda broken his promises of being able to control myself.

But what i love about him is that, he takes time to understand my situation. He’s understanding. He knows how i felt about how sad i am for my dearest best friend is gonna leave singapore soon to pursue her degree in australia. So i kindda take this chance to spent time with her and have fun the whole night with her.

I really am gonna miss you eliane tan!
Love said im lesbian, because i cried for eliane. nyahahahha.
Face it, youre jealous.

Oh this was on my brothers bdae.

wake up aminah!

2009-05-18T01:41:00.003+08:00

A trip down to memory lane

That saturday, since me and love can’t make it to watch the exhibition with everyone else, we decided to travel back on my memory lane. We went to yishun. Where i was raised up till i was ten or eleven. I really miss this place. I told love that, if i was still living here, probably i’ll be like a minah. With a group of mats and minahs. AHahahha. seriously. When i was living here, in my primary school life, all the friends that i had was malays. And almost everyone now turned out to be like one. I still remember the times where we will always play blind mice with the boys and the girls. And the fights we’ve got into.

Anyways, That friday night, On my way to meet love under my blk, i decided to checked my mailbox. And i saw this.

I ran to love, and i told him, i got it i got it already. I was happy but at the same time scared about it. Love was excited and at the same time scared for me too. So i told him, no matter what happens at least i tried. And that maybe that’s why singapore customs came in as a 2nd choice.

And so i opened the letter…

NYAHAHAHHAHAHA. finally! Something is calling me. wake up aminah! Time to work now. Time to finally feed yourself and be independent. Time to repay everyone who has been feeding me. Im ready now. First interview, first job. Less bogging, more working.

And for the sake of wanting to pass my driving license, im going for a late night driving today, tmr and the day after tmr. –_____-

I told mommy just now, "Malas seh nak mandi"
Mommy said, "Masyallah! Mari kau aku berus ngan berus jamban!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

2009-05-12T23:54:00.005+08:00

"We have been through so much together. And despite how confused I've been or lost I might have gotten, there was always you. Finding me; and saving me. You deserve to be adored. So that's what we're gonna do. I am so terribly in love with you. And I always will be."

"i believe in true love. i believe in love at first sight. i believe love conquers all. that doesn't mean that there's not going be hard days or difficult things to deal with because there will be. but finding that person who does it for you and knowing that person loves you back just makes everything so much easier."

Im feeling really restless today. On a brighter note, i've got another interview to attend to. Singapore Customs. But i have yet to wait for ICA to respond. Baby is scared to see me work. Hhahaha. -_______- You know me, princess wat. sleep wake up late late. bbdc pract also late. haiyo. i see i also scared loh!

I was browsing thru facebook, and i came across one of my sec school friends. And i thought to myself, my, shes a strong babe. One who can really make me jealous. and hands down, i respect her for everything. I just wish i could be just as strong as her. But the thing is, i knew that i already could. But sadly, i know, im already not.

My best medicine

2009-05-11T03:21:00.007+08:00

Baby, you're my best medicine

Im down with a high fever yest. Rite after spending the time with baby at bedok, to vivo. to town and then to beach road. That baby said i looked like im dying. But honestly, my fever never reach 38.3 before. And the bike ride almost made me feel like fainting. and today, i woke up seeing him at my house. After much stupid jokes he made, i felt better and i spent my time with him playing badminton. hahaha.

Went home to get some shower, and we hang out under my void deck. And it almost felt to me like it was the first time we knew each other. Only difference was, we were'nt holding hands last time. I can't believe that he could actually remember how my myspace profile looked like at that point of time. That was like in 2006. Then the early 2007 he started commenting on me, When he still had a gf. -__- And then they broke up, him saying that the reason he broke up was because he had his mind on me. I felt bad, but i knew, i never did try to ruin their relationship, because i told him to hang on. Then i just knew that i can never be with a guy who wants to fool around. After months of meeting up and him giving up, he already started dating many many girls. But still he will always find means to get thru to me. So i decided to be-friends with him. But this idiot keep sugar-coating me and making me hurt. Until my 2007 birthday, he popped that question for him to be mine. At the very same spot where we were sitting this 2009, today. *looking at the countless of girls he dated* I was still was'nt ready. And he gave up again. He continued dating other girls and this time, this idiot hurt me real bad when leaving me. But everytime, when things don't go the way he wanted it to be, he find his ways back to me again. being nice, i'm always his listening ear. Not until early 2008 where i decided to finally gave this idiot up for his playing around with my feelings. I met him up for the last time, and ended the night with a goodbye sms. I started crying cuz it was just too hard. And that night after, he came over and started shedding tears. Thats when i knew, he still has a heart. And that THIS IDIOT, is that idiot whom i'll love today tommorow, the next year and the many many more years to come.

He changed a lot. After much testing and people telling me how bad i am treating the other guys. I have faith that there's always reasons why i chose him over the others.
And i think that it is fate that brought me here.

Cheesay huh?!

"Fate is building a bridge of chance for someone you love"

Birthdays

2009-05-09T03:39:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Mommy and Justin!

Was justin’s bdae. Happy 21st bdae buddy! Can’t wait to see you botak. haha.
Celebrated his bdae at balcony bar. Had Vodka shots and a jug of whisky coke and all. Haha. That boy gotten really high to the extent that he puke, his willing to open his tshirt in the bar to change to the shirt we bought and talk nonsense and all. Tho i promised baby i won’t drink anymore. I think i really got baby dissapointed. But its good that he was still okay with it.

And soon after celebrating his bdae, i went back home to surprise my mom.

Up 3 days, awake awake.

2009-05-06T00:42:00.002+08:00

I wear the biggest smile.

I had interview today. For ICA Specialist. Was’nt that bad afterall. I really really wish i could get into this one. Tho i know, i would’nt be posted to woodlands due to the fact that my bro is working there. I just have this feeling they’ll post me to Tuas. But, i’ll pray for changi. Oh wells, we have yet to wait for the letter. Have this feeling i get rejected. But, everyone said, hey, at least you tired. My first damn interview. HAH. –__-“

And terribly sorry to my friends whom i did’nt get to hang out with today.

Last week was a weekend spent with baby and family.

Esplanade with baby.

Labour Day with baby and family.

I’ve been pampered these days. Afterall, that’s just how my life is. The greatest importance in my life would definitely still be my fav ones, my family. The one whose always been by my side. Through thick and thin.

That labour day i went out with baby, mommy, sis, wan and eka. Then i saw this heels that caught my eyes. I wore and i told baby, baby im falling in love with these heels more than how im in love with you, how? haha. So Mommy bought me the heels and she bought me the kimono top i’ve always been wanting to get. Aside from that, She bought me bras and panties today which i wanted again. HAH.And they’re all so preettty pretty cute.
I just like the fact that it doesnt really look to girly. haha. You know me. ------->

Then that saturday. While my family was out and i was at esplanade with baby. Daddy bought me a dress and a new tights. And surprisingly, from what i found out from my sister, i was told that the dress cost 70 bucks. I mean, that’s so random of him to buy me an expensive dress. When he normally would complain on how much i could spent 90 over dollars on my volcom dresses.

Baby said to me, “Sayang, You like princess you know, get everything you want”
I told baby “Its good to know that you’re my prince wat. If you are’nt then too bad sayang, I need a prince to get married to me.” *laughs*

Kak Ina’s nikah

Present hunting for mommy’s bdae present.

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Caricature

2009-05-01T04:36:00.003+08:00

Made a new one. A caricature of me.

I learnt how to actually ride a bike today. hahaha.
And i learnt how to do a right turn during my practical today.
Next, U-turn.

Im getting sick.

Pretty artworks i admired.

2009-04-29T20:43:00.001+08:00

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2009-04-26T17:17:00.035+08:00

Love you more than anything

Haha. So, i had something up for love.
On friday, took my time to travel down to sembawang shopping centre, then to sun plaza, off to town, back to sunplaza and back to sembawang shopping centre and then to home again. With the thought of him booking out on fri night. But only to realise that he was'nt booking out that night due to his outfield.

That night, at about 11+ he called me up. With the thought of him, just came back from his outfield. I asked him how was it and that i was sad that he did'nt book out. And he pretend pretend he was tired luh bla bla bla. When his only under my block. -__- haha.

The next afternoon, at about 12, i was obviously sleeping. And he came to my doorstep and surprised me with rose and my favourite naan. ahahaha. My mom went like "asal kau tak cakap kau suka chapatti? dapat jugak aku makan" Hahaha. So sweet of him to actually do all this.

So it was my turn to surprise him instead. After he went home, I cabbed down to his place, bought a last min candles (which was'nt enought btw haha), left a note on his bike. Told him to meet me at the rooftop. Using the candles i wrote i love you.

and i surprised him with a cookie cake. haha.

He was a bit shock tho. haha and you'll know why later.
And oh, i made this photo for his gift. He showed his mom and she talked to me about how adorable he was when he was a baby

Baby, I know i suck at surprising. hahaha.

We went to my home again. spent some time playing psp and laptop while waiting for the evening to come. And we spent the time at east coast riding bicycle. It was what i always wanted to do actually. But i came to realise how much of a pain it was. I was sweating like hell.

That night ended at about 12+. I went home. Changed and all. and as usual love called me. This time, there were fights going on in his house. So he told me he'll call me again as soon as the fights over. At about 2, he told me he was sad and told me to meet him at my sky garden. I went up, and i saw candles on the ground. His was even bigger and i felt so touched.

He actually travelled all the way to ikea to get the candles that morning. Unlike me, who did it all last minute. and tak menjadi. -_-haha And to know that we both had the same thoughts and ideas even made me felt wonderful to have him in my life.

Like i said, we are opposite but we've got the same feelings. So that actually explain his shock face. Because he actually did'nt realise that i had the same idea as him. We lay on the rooftop with the candles till 3 or so looking at the stars. It almost felt like, BOLLYWOOD LA. hahahahaha.

Baby, thank you for the tankini, the roses, the love letter, the treats, the naan, the surprises.
thank you for everything.
Tho i know im such a pain at times.
You know i love you still right.
I'm really glad to have met you.
You brought happiness to me.
You always make me feel special.
And i thank you for that.
I love you so much babylove. mwah!

2009-04-21T22:58:00.020+08:00

Today is, where your book begins. The rest is still unwritten

Its actually nice to know that love treats my family like his own.

Saturday ended up pretty late with qiss and faz. And its actually weird that my parents don't mind out of a sudden. I mean, normally they'll start nagging and all. But saturday was just weird. haha. Went to catch The Shinjuku Incident. Was'nt a bad movie afterall.

Sundayy was a bad day for both of us. Everything seem to not go our way. It seems like we've been cursed or sumthing. But we actually made it a joke. And laughed at how we know it was coming our way. Planned to go to jurong east swimming complex, but it was closed for renovation. So we decided to go anchorvale swimming complex instead. Had fun spending the time in the pool and in the jacuzzi with love. And for the fact that im actually a lifeguard's daughter and i cant swim for nuts, i had fun piggyback love and watch him drown. hahahhahaahahahahaha.

I actually receive a call for a job while i was driving. I was really excited that they called. But just to inform me to complete more forms from them. -___- So pray for me pls that i'll get that job. pls pls pls. :(

Was doing some gathering of all my certs. And i came to relise i've got pretty much a lot of nonsenscical certs. I've got a lot of dance certs tho. haha. -__-

And that actually reminds me.
Was having practical yesterday and that driving instructor asked me to check my blind spot. So i turned my head lah! And then he was like,
Driving instructor: "EH! YOU DANCE AH?"
Me: "uhhh, y?"
Driving instructor: "You a dancer rite?"
Me: "Yea la, use to."
Driving instructor: "This is not dancing ah! Wa lao, you turn your head i can tell you're a dancer you know."
Me: "HAHAHHAHA. WTH."

Had fun driving up till commonwealth.

Gossip girl on the other hand is killing me. I mean wth was nate thinking?! ARGHHHH! blair sure don't deserve him.

I've got something up for love. nyehehe.

2009-04-18T01:44:00.007+08:00

When you see my face, Hope it gives you hell, Hope it gives you hell

Spent the time with the sister today.
Catch 17 again. Was funny.

Surf the net and stuffs and we came across some pictures.

I can't help but to think.
And everything just reminds me again and again.
I kept thinking about all the beautiful things that could've been.
About how great it could be. And how thankful i would be.
But i can't. I just can't.
Just that particular scene, eats me.

Sometimes, to hear all those beautiful things from him, it hurts me even more.
But i told myself to be strong.

Tho i know, you're gone.
Forever, you'll stay with me.

Maybe i miss. I miss all that.

i wish i was superwoman.

All i know is, i have love with me now.
And who knows forever. Still, he's my joy.

2009-04-16T23:30:00.020+08:00

Ahhh.

K, forgive me if im wrong. Who knoes you'll come back again in a week or a month and you'll come telling me, why terase just like how i've done it to you. Who knows you're taking a sweet revenge haha. And for that, im gonna tell you straight PAISEH LAH KAN. haha.

But After much deciphering.. Since you blog anonymously, if that post was really meant for me to read (which i think it is), Then i have to say that... So, you actually know that after all this damn thing, it was about my boy being your friend? And that he bad mouth you about you? and that he breach your trust with the promises that he made?

K, one thing, i may not know exactly what you guys have been through. And that is VERY true. But i gladly know how the story goes about. Like i said b4, i DID'NT AND NEVER judge you b4. I did'nt say that in that relationship of yours, was your fault. AND IN FACT i said, "SHE'S A GIRL, you should've at least left her b4 you even start cheating. You are wrong, what were you thinking, you should'nt have done that." But of course, i got no right to judge your relationship. because you might be in the wrong too. I did'nt have the right to tell who's right and who's in the wrong either. and i choose not to. But i only have the right to say that, what's past has past. Because im living on his future and im his present.

Listen up, i did'nt judge you B4. so you got no right to judge on me and fuck me up just because you hated my bf. Now, thats when you are judged by me. When you wrote that entry especially for me. Dissed me like i ain't got no heart at all. And that's when i figured how nasty you are. And that it shows how true my bf words were. You showed him, You showed me and you showed the world. So know that it was'nt my bf who talk shits about you to me.

You was affected by him and "somehow" me at the time we met at the carnival. Because from what i know, You could've save the friendship. But no, you choose to turn the tables around and made it sound like I was the one who was disturbed by your presense and only to realise that dissing his gf could only made it worst. It was only then he realised how not worthy that friendship was to him either.

If its trust you are talking about, you should've seen it even sooner.
As a friend, you could've understand and you should've understand why he took whatever steps that he had made before.

It clearly shows how not happy you were for him. Like how he actually was trying to be happy for you with feeq. =D

And dun worry i'll stop here. Im already happy to know that all of it, was a confessions of an ex-gf to my bf and the hatred, to his gf.

1 more day to hear his voice. 2 more days to hug him. 3 more days to miss him again.

NATO

2009-04-15T16:33:00.053+08:00

I wake up every evening with a big smile on my face.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
here i am writing this with a smile.
I just knew you would talk about presence.
Like its a big deal, that i was disturbed.
So you wanna know why? I tell you why.

YOU DISGUST ME.
THAT'S WHY!
Just like a nasty pest crawling into my life.
Yeap, that's you.

K, speaking truth here, you're right, and you have the right to say it THIS TIME that i was rather "disturbed" by your presence. Get this right, THIS TIME not that time when you claimed i was "DISTURBED". Unlike some who actually make believe she wasnt "disturbed" by us and checked up on my blog where, i actually came to realise, i dun even know where you got it from. hmmmm. -___-

And if you are still thinking why im still reading yours, YEA, I WAS "DISTURBED". And if you dun like it, SHUT YOUR BLOG DOWN or MAKE IT PRIVATE. as simple as that.

You know why was i "disturbed"? Trust me, this is not a jealousy game. If it was, i would'nt be smiling nor i would laugh about it. I was just "disturbed" by nasty things. Like how im disturbed by my very own shit. Tell me how can i not be disturbed by what has been said by you? You DISGUST me. How can disgustings things like you not be a disturbance to me?
And anyway, the THOUGHT of that 40 TANGAN KAT GIGI AKU YG TAK LAWA NI.
I should be "disturbed" right? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
(Oh, that was only when my bf come into the picture, calling you for feeq's no, because you brought him in. You might wanna tell your friends that, my bf came into the picture only when you choose to brought yours in. I mean, what a man to say to lay their hands on a woman.)

So yea, be honoured, and be touched to your wide vagina. that you are a pest of someones lives. haha. BE PROUD OF IT. I know you already are right? Yea. grab that trophy and kiss it. I bet this isn't like the second blog-bitching you did ain't it? Man... you sure are honourable.

Sometimes, i wonder why luh kan you have to brought this up again, saying im "disturbed" by your presence lah *LIKE WOOOOOOOOOO YOU'RE NICK'S PAST. MAN IM SOOO SCARED IM SOO SCARED OF YOU*. Like, whatever for luh kan. Face it, we both know it was just some secondary school love. Just so you know, im just "disturbed" by how nasty you are. Nasty Nasty Nasty. Everyones disturbed by nasty things. And you, you had made me considered one yourself in my list because YOU DISGUST ME.

And if you dun find me a disturbance. Of course i can understand that. That shows how not nasty i was to you. Which is true wat kan?! did i call you shit or anything b4 this? Did i disturbed yours and feeq's lives, threatening you and dissed about your face? Because if i did was a disturbance in your life, then im sorry, it was pretty much because you've made me so. Maybe you would be disturbed by me after what i wrote, maybe not. But hell, who cares anyway. I was'nt born to disgust people in any ways. Neither would i be disturbing peoples lives. Or be proud about how someone is disturbed by my action. Funny. Funny that, you are judging someone you don't even know. Because im proud to tell my dear readers that i know im a good person. And I dun do such things like you do. because i have always been nice. And Im especially not nice to people like you. Who just barged into my life and picked a fight with the wrong reasons.

And for the fact that you choose to not use PROGNATHOUS GF this time was unbelievably nice of you.

Sometimes, i dun even know what it is that you want. You wanna win issittttt huhhh girll?!! I tell you lah okay, you win lah horr.
hahahhaha. Kasi kau happy lah kan. HAHA.

eh anyways, you said it b4, kalau tak melayan tak menjadikan?
That's a word of advice to urself too kan?
tsk tsk. You see, Im just too free now to layankan.

Come to think of it,
At least nick did'nt cause much trouble to feeq when both of you got together.
And neither did Nora caused much trouble to me.
And I, for sure did'nt caused you any trouble. -__-
But only you choose make all this happen at that point you saw me at the carnival.
And i choose to layankan your perangai.
And that's when that part of me causing you trouble came in.
Because in the end, in this whole damn thing, You are the only one who choose to make this happen with your disses. Am i right to say that? And i still dunno why you hated me that much either. I mean, at least i have my reasons to hate you. Maybe you should search deep in your heart and asked yourself why you are hating me for. And if you still think you know nick well, and that no amira existed in his past. then i have to tell you again, too bad. his past doesnt revolves around you. Amira hakiemah. Research on that. Or maybe ask her. To figure TRUTH. before you even start a fight..

I Bet you're going to tell to the whole wide world, HAHA, like you care or i made you mad. But truth is, you know you're already wrong from the start. I mean, who are you to even judge me and dissed me like you know me for 1 year? At the very start, you don't even know what's going on in my life. look deep within urself, and you know, you've got a problem to yourself and being YOU of course you would'nt admit it like how im honest enough to tell the world that, yea im disturbed by you.

Ahhh, great timing, i just received a msg from some unknown no.
"Hey, nick wants to tell you he's doing fine, and he loves you. Hope you are doing fine =)"

awww, so nice of him. i miss you love. =(

I've got a headache now.
And i've got some check up to do tmr.

2009-04-13T20:43:00.056+08:00

You've made yourself a joke

Lovey love went to war today. A dummy war. Yea, i know right. How crappy this world gets sometimes. Can't get to talk to him this week. Sighh. But i hope he'll have fun. After so much time playing call of duty virtually together, this time he'll be playing it with his friends, and its somewhat, reality. I guess, it'll be fun for him.

So anyways, good friday was spent with love and his friends at sentosa. I had fun bathing in the sea. Its been long since i stepped in the sea actually. Tho it did rain halfway and all of us had to stand and wait in the shelter. -__-

By the end of the day, i was darn tired. And i meant SUPER tired. Most probably because i had only 3 hours of sleep the day before. And because of that i realised that its affecting my health. I just had a good puke alone at home just now. haiz.

On that saturday, love woke me up to follow him pay his bike installment. The rain started pouring right when we reached the bike shop. So we had no choice but to waste our time away in the shop. The most we could do was, take pictures and bike-seeing. I feel really irritated when he start talking about bikes. Tho, i actually fancy some luh. Im annoyed especially when his planning to take his class 2A. I mean, wth, having a bike is good enough right?! I just don't understand what is it that he sees in bikes. haha. But I guess im just that girl who dun really fancy bikes but to support his interest in one.

Soon after the rain stopped, we made a move to meet fareez and ijah. On our way out, we actually bumped into the N.A.T.O's hahaha. You know, we actually had a good laugh about it. And i sure did gave em a smirk. Love was so nice, before going off to town, he actually brought me to buy that famous tutu kueh that i've wanted to try. ahaha. I know right, -__- After which fareez drove us around to kent ridge park, and then to mustafa centre. haha. yea, we ended up in mustafa believe it or not.

Something about me and nick is that, We are pretty much different. Im quiet and i always choose to be alone while he, he love to socialise. I like spicy spicy asian cuisine kindda food, whereas he, he love cheesecakes, banana prata, japanese, which i totally hate. Sometimes, when it comes to food sharing we just tend to dislike each others food. He loves all this bike bike stuffs and i love all those arty fartsy stuffs. He dislike the dress i like and i dislise the shirts he bought. He likes burger king and i love coffee shops. I cried and i told him once that we are so different. But i learn one thing out of it. Like that law of magnetism states, opposites do attract. It only matters that both our feelings are similar and that we both learn and accept each others differences. I learn to like burger king, and he learn to like mutton soup.

aww. i miss my boy already.

Oh yea, daddy bought me vodafone and a new 250gb harddisk. Hah! And i dunno why he's been nice also. -__-"

He's my dude and you better get used to things
And I don't care what you say about me

That he does it with the best, runs a lil' less
padding on his chest (uh huh)
I like it (so what), I like it
And they say (that he's gonna hurt me)
Just wait and see (but they don't know me)
'cause I am what he wants his girl and I love it

If he gets caught, it just takes one call
I'll come running, boy I promise I will be there for you
All my heart it belongs to you
I can't lose you, boy I just can't leave you alone

2009-04-09T03:09:00.008+08:00

Run baby run

Its loga's birthday today! HAPPY 20th Birthday babe! Im so sorry i could'nt make it to st james today. But anyways, hope you had fun. Was wanting to go. Haha. you know how much i've wanted to hit the dancefloor again. sighh.

So graduation was today. Hah. Was stupid. I felt like that place was filled with harry potters. Hah! including me of course. With our robe and all. But it was really excited tho. Sat with justin and all the siti's in DIT. Crack some jokes.

Took pictures with a few. Can't manage to find my classmate. Can't get to take pictures with eliane loga and nurul. -__- Stupid SAS and SEG peeps.

mommy & daddy <3
I almost gave up during my first year in RP. But thanks to my mom, i manage to pull thru the years.

Aqila larlink, My 2nd year closest bitching partner.
I miss those times when i bother her about nick 24/7. haha. I bet it was terribly annoying to you. But i know you love me. muahahaha! Its sad that we are already parting our ways now. sighhhhh.

Mira, My first year closest buddy.
Probably the one i was closest with in year 1. haha. I still remember those times when i annoyed you with that "sexay" word.

Liana, Second year close classmate. The loud girl whom i can talk to. The one who tends to skip with me too.

Syidah, My 3rd year fav miss chatterbox. I think im gonna miss syidah. She and her never-ending jokes that never failed to cheer me up.

Tino, 3rd year multimedia mate. He who always pat my head before leaving to class and entering class.

Zainab and desmond, my 2nd FYP mate.

Thomas, my 2nd and 3rd year fav person to share problems to.

And more that i could'nt find to take pictures with.

I think im gonna miss RP life especially Those friends i've made Im gonna miss waking up early in the morning, deciding to go or to skip school. Im gonna miss sitting in the lab spending the whole time doing animation. Im gonna miss solving problems. Im gonna miss that grilled chicken sandwich that i was craving for. Im gonna miss stepping into the class 2 hours late. Im gonna miss smacking people in class.

Funny that i did'nt thought i could miss at all.

eka, my most annoying alarm clock.

Love keep telling me about how much of a pain it was to be in his campp. And i realise probably what he felt was similar to what i've felt in my 3rd year poly life. I just don't understand why do people have to classify each other. And grouped themselves accordingly. I believe that all humans are equal. You know, i hate em two-faced people who pretends their way out. Thats why probably i choose to not socialise at times.
And what's the deal with ns? preparation for war luh. blablabla. i think probably even when the war started, nobody have even enuff time to prepare such things. I think NS is bullshit. seriously. Sighhh. i miss love ya kno? its okay if his like booking out 8-5 but NO, they have to keep him in for 1 week or 2 in 2 years. And most of the time, my bf is playing soccer in camp or complaining about how they've done nothing at all. What the heck?

Anyways, can't wait till he gets out later.

I'll be probably be packed this week. thurs pract, out with love at night. fri sentosa with his friends. Sat shop for his ftx. Sun out again. -__-

2009-04-05T00:52:00.030+08:00

Because you Finally Realise, that now is the time to forget.

Seeing those secondary school kids in the bus, it makes me think about how much i miss having to study for exams. I kept thinking on how much i actually sacrificed most of my secondary school life studying just for the exams. Staying up till the early morning, talking on the phone with anna to discuss and helped each other. I missed that. I miss learning. I miss sitting for examinations.

Come to think of it, that was the only thing i do during secondary school life. its either that, or i spent the times dancing after school, and hanging out with the girls under void decks and roof gardens. Oh, and hah, being attached to danial, and the didi chasing games. So much of me saying that all of the feelings was true, But to realise back on those memories, it was nothing but childish.

And now, im a step into reality. Seeking a career. Time is going so fast now that It makes me scared sometimes. To face everything. And to know that every of my decisions now matters. Am i ready?

Sigh.

You know, i find how funny human gets. When they are actually talking to others about what's good and what's not, when they are the one who seem to be needing the fix too. Maybe, that's just the whole point about life. To deal with their criticism, and to deal with yourself, and be happy with it that you realise, hey, you're not wrong and you're not alone. you have them too on the same boat. The only difference? You don't diss anyone.

Oh wells, god knoes what im talking about.

So anyways, dinner at the straits kitchen was'nt so bad. But i realised that carousel is way way better. And nothing beats their environment.

Brother bought his vespa... So you know what that means?! That means... when i finally get my license, i'll be driving his car! can't wait. can't wait. Fastterrrrrrrr!! So anyways, spent the last min friday night plan at sembawang park with love. Its sad to know that both of us are actually having problems with money. But all we did was laughed away at how poor we get this weekend and the last. Its really funny looking at our situation. Its even funnier just now when we were so hungry and we had to fill ourself up with just instant noodle. But its okay, we have to deal with it, soon, we'll be fine.

Saturday, my initial plan was, to asked him to have his jam session with his friends first then after spending time with his friends, i wanted him to spent the rest of the day at my house since we were obviously broke. But knowing that i pretty much recovered, he asked me to follow him instead. And it was a bad idea actually. We did'nt know we would actually spent a lot. And it made love even penniless due to the fact that we bowled. haha! But we sure did enjoy ourself. Been a long time since i bowled. And I sure do suck at it. I was always the last two among everyone of them. HAH! But hey, 2nd last, is not bad okayyyy. hahaha.

And oh, Just a picture i had for sit prom.
Stupid me, for deleting those in my slr. -__-

Okay's body aching now. Don't feel good. i can't move freely :(

Bagaikan Sakti

2009-04-02T02:20:00.001+08:00

practical tmr.
and dinner at hyatt hotel, straits kitchen.
cant wait.

2009-03-31T03:35:00.003+08:00

Just a lil sumthin that i forgot to upload.
did it for elianes birthday.

2009-03-28T23:42:00.006+08:00

My legs are pretty much cramping now.
BUT. Im oh-so-happy that I manage to pass my Final theory test.
No more theories any more and off i am to book for my TP.
For now, prac and more pracs. wee.

Love's playing ps3 with bro now. Ignoring me.
So, Im pretty much bored and sleepy you see.

And anyways, thanks dearest best friend for the pretty flowers.
I really appreciate it.

Now im waiting for graduation day.
A day to get over and done with.

I realise that after all of these shits that has been happening to me lately, I've became more and more slacked these days. Going out without make up was'nt a bother to me now. And worst still, i guess you all know how i've always have to be seen with my contact lens on but now, i don't even care that much about it. I just don't seem to bother about my appearance. My fringe is now longer than ever.

I need to change. Im gonna do something about my hair soon. and my eyebrows. My body. Soon.

2009-03-28T02:46:00.001+08:00

was browsing thru facebook,
and this actually helped to cheer me up a bit.

hahaha.

2009-03-27T15:05:00.003+08:00

A sudden difference.
You've gone.
I'll always miss you.
And I love you.
Always.

Im sorry.

The last thoughts i had before waking up was nick.
And I know im happy being with you.
Always and forever.

I had a good 18 hours of sleep.
And now i hope i can study.

2009-03-24T22:52:00.007+08:00

I just don't understand why some people just have to jage tepi kain org.
Trying to spite us, thinking that I would actually bother.
When I just could'nt care any lesser.

what's the deal of "knowing" my sayang first?
I know him inside out. good bad dirty name it.
I know how he played once before.
i already did forgive him for all his past mistakes.
And now, im his present. i live for the present not the past.

Try harder.
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"It doesn't matter what they say in the jealous games people play.
Pay no mind to what they say,It doesnt matter anyway. "

All i know now, i can't wait to get paid for the designs.
I can't wait for sayang to get his off pass on thursday to visit me.
Can't wait to go for practical again.
Can't wait to own a polaroid pogo.

artworks

2009-03-23T00:24:00.000+08:00

was really glad that the first 2 illustrations was chosen for noise singapore 2009.

People

Band Banners

logos

Posters

2009-03-21T01:15:00.001+08:00

Did a brochure for makcouriers co.

2009-03-21T00:24:00.005+08:00

We all laughed.
Just too confident.
The thoughts of where you think you are, was no where near.

I think most probably, i would like to continue pursuing my studies when im above 21. One was at my interest. BSc / BSc (Honours) Multimedia Technology and Design. But for now, i think i shall just start a career and have a feel of what it is like to work. So confuse of what to do. I've thought of becoming a multimedia trainee. But somehow, im a bit reluctant to be one. Gahh. Im not sure either.

2009-03-18T22:42:00.017+08:00

She think she knows everything. But she know nothing about us at all.

Sayang, knowing you was a blessed.
From the moment i knew you, i knew we are just meant to be.
To know each other for a year before we even got together, was already a test.
Come to think of it we've been through a lot even before we even got together.
How silly of me, when i wanted to give up on you during those years, when i have'nt even tried.

I gave you time and
I've seen you changed so much for me.
You've respect me,
You've been protecting me,
you've taken care of me when i'm most needed.
You wiped my tears and told me, everything is going to be alright.

Its almost 2 years now we've known each other.
And i love you more than ever.
You told me now and said "baby, nothing's gonna stop us"
And i know its true, nothing will.

If god permits, you'll be the only one for me.
Baby, You're the best thing that has ever happen to me.

Sayang got 4 days MC, had this feeling that the han river bbq food that we ate with my family the day before he book in might have caused it. haha.

But anyhoos, had my first practical today. Was fun.
Sayang was there to watch me drive the car.
So funny.
Keep on laughing on how stupid i get changing the gears and all.
Even the instructor was laughing on how belo i was.
But after a while, i manage to get a hold of the car.
Drove around in the circuit. Im still weak at my steering tho.
Can't wait for friday again.
In fact, CANT WAIT TO DRIVE A CAR AROUND.
And this time, i don't need to worry about the rain hitting on us anymore.

Am sharing money this time with bro to buy a new car.
and his gonna get a vespa. so im gonna get to drive the car sometime.
Hospital on the 26th. Graduation preparation on the 27th. Final theory on the 28th. I wonder will i manage to be strong. sigh. But i sure do hope i'll pass my FTT.

I know i have'nt been updating any pictures at all.

Kite flying with family
Spent one of the sundays with sayang, bro's gf and family.
We went out for kite flying session.
Sayang and me was like, how lame can this be.
But when we start flying the kite. We realise how fun it was.
Especially when we are the ones that was the only one who was able to fly the kite.
Bro and sara was struggling all the way. and we just laughed at them. seeing how much they had to run just to get their kite flying.
Sis and wan's kite was the lamest ever. haha. it was made of paper. The wind was too strong to get their kite torn apart.

After so much hardwork sayang tried to fly the kite, I accidentally let it flew away. -__-

And when night came, we went to choa chu kang for dinner.

KL & Genting
Everyone surprised me with eliane for the trip. Haha. And apparently it was her bdae. After her celebration at the chalet she actually came over at my house at midnight to surprise me. and indeeed yea, it was a surprise. Head to KL and genting for some holidays and it sure is fun. I actually spent a total of almost 700RM for shopping. HAH! and i am a happy happy girl.

And im very much happy with my macbeth sneakers. Wanted to get sayang the guy version of the sneakers, but i was just short of cash. sigh. bought him shirt, tshirt and a mesh cap instead.

2009-03-17T23:52:00.018+08:00

Whatever for would i be insecure about you when i've already have myself in his heart? And to know that his feelings over you has already faded?

Did i ever mention or show that i was insecure?
I've said, for all the times you msged and called, i was there by his side. he showed me and tell me everything. And did i even try to fight with you? giving you a call and asked whats your problem? NO.

I don't know whats your damn problem zalikha. were you hurt to see me and nick together on that carnival that much till you have to brought this up on me?
If it isnt, why the cold harshness towards me? Sampai display nick smue nak maki2.

Padahal, it was a short entry and you mistook yourself as if i said i hated you that much. Its in general. And i started out with "kindda hate any girls who tries to make any form of connection to my bf too" Obviously im mad at those girls who has been contacting him recently, and apparently, amira was a girl from his past too. And that was the reason "hating his past" came in the second line.

Now tell me, Were you contacting him? were you making any connection? NO RITE?!

Gahhh... -__-" Now, FOR ALL THIS PROBLEMS, speak for yourself for the childish mindset. Like i say, i know i should'nt have to worry about who's childish, because for all i've heard, from nick, from fareez and in fact all of his woodgrove friends, i've heard enough that you are born to pick a fight over all this little little things and not give in for you know you are wrong and you fight till you've ran out of point. You just don't stop do you.

I blaber and i blaber, and all you thought about was my intention of, making you hurt. Thats all you can think about, cruelty, hatred, revenge. Where I actually blaber to make you realise and put it in your damn brains that, THAT POST WAS'NT MEANT FOR YOU. but you were too ignorant being mad and insisted that it was meant for you and wanted to dissed me even more. and ok fine then, the last time i check, I WAS ZALIKHA WRITING THAT ENTRY. -___- You are just degil arent you? Wanting the whole attention on you, and trying to seek pitiness from ur bf and friends that im somehow dissing you? having them and urself to discriminate me just to make urself feel good about urself? feel good enough?!

and come on, i read everyones blog whats the big deal. And just so you know, your link was found when i was close with herman back then. And then i figured you were nick's ex, and so i read. Isn't blogs fo sho anyway? I read jirah's blog too. i read meows blog, i read my friends blog, i read basirah's i read xiaxue i read emily's i read dina's i read anyone whom i seem to know. grr because it is FO SHO. Just like how you happen to read mine. Now, thats how i happen to read an entry about me.

Dear lunalulu,

Funny that my blog was always considered low profiled. And zalikha brought her friends, her bf... into the commotion. Now isnt that childish?! *Woops* i better not say that because apparently, i'll be called childish to call her childish. =__="

Childish? Immature? Haha. Maybe you should think about your dear best friend before you start saying that to me. Did'nt she HATE random girls adding up her bf in friendster? *wait, doesnt that sound just like what i've said? for hating people in general*

Come on, everyone has their own insecurities. Are you too perfect to be said that you DON'T even have a single insecurities. And please, being insecure, doesnt literally means that you are not trusting someone. It is just a feeling that is denial. And to SHOW trust, you have to put actions to it. Instead when you start being POSSESSIVE thats when you start showing that you are not trusting your bf. Why don't you ask zalikha? isn't she the greatest?

Yea, true aint it? blogging on each other ain't helping right? I thought so too. I took your advise and I'll be glad to meet her to talk to her face to face. Just wait. I might suprise her someway somehow. Trust me, im waiting for that day too. Dun worry, no physical contacts. Just talk. Im sure she'll love to meet me and my bf. =D

And to think again, i've done nothing wrong to cause all this trouble.
All i did was posting my thoughts. And im sure, my friends, my sister, my bf, my bf's friend and even AMIRA herself know that that particular post was meant for her.
I did'nt literally hate zalikha. And why must she think its her and made a huge big deal out of it and start discriminating about someone? You've got to start realising who is heartless.

Nieways, thx for ur comment lunalulu.
Zalikha should sure thank you for ur support too. =D

And dun worry, this will be the last.
for if there's anything, we'll sure meet u up soon.
wait, dun come telling me that you're not afraid of all this, thinkin that this is some warning or whatever shit. Because my intentions is for real. This is US wanting to talk to you. Blogs are so last summer. Im sure you know that.

2009-03-17T13:31:00.006+08:00

HAHAHA! CHIDISH ACT ZALIKHA. SOOOOOO CHILDISH.
Having ur bf to said that. -__-

Gigi tak lawa pun, matair lame kau jugak yg suka aku.

Come on, i've heard a lot about you. And i mean A LOT. from good, to worst.
From nick, from fareez. Even Fareez admitted how childish you can be and told me to ignore.

So terase for what.
I could just hate things easily, just like how i have the right to hate his past.
And just so you know, his past doesnt revolves around you ONLY. Why does it bother you SOOOOO much?

4 years and more, so what?
I realised how much of a pain you were to him.
How pity that pretty face was when he utter me about how sad he was by your actions.
I've always scolded him for he is disgusted by you.
But now, i just realise how much of a pain you are too. And you deserved it.

I learnt from you, and yea *hands down*, i have to thank you, for, i realise, i will try to be nothing like you at all. Trust me.

And oh, nick wanting to talk to you and all?
Why do i see you prompting him first in msn sometimes when his at my home? -___-"
Next time, don't bother askin him to sent you off somewhere or to eat out with him, or even bother to sms him or call him. Oh wait, this happens only WHEN YOU ARE FIGHTING WITH YOUR DAMN BF.

I keep you, your dirty little secrets

2009-03-16T21:44:00.019+08:00

I quote

“And and, kindda hate any girls who tries to make any form of connection to my bf too.

Hate his past.
All of em girls.

Its either, you regret or you live with it.
What's past has past.
And i've got the right to say it.”

That much to get one to blabber on and on for say..
seven equally “eye rolling” paragraph.
answer me this: since when does the whole world revolves around you?
because the last time i check, this post was meant for a girl called amira who has been contacting him back recently.

And, what makes you think i was disturbed by your presence.
If i had, i wouldnt have bother to ask my bf
ME: "eh look its your ex gf! Shes standing there alone. Sayang, don't you wanna say hello?"
SAYANG: "Whatever fuck for. She got no friends what, don't you know? Last time all her friends left her."
ME: "haha. tak baik sia you."
Rite when you were standing behind the group of us, just before the rain started pouring.
And come on, i know him well enough now, never will he hurt me by playing behind my back when ive done nothin wrong but to make him happy.
So why would i even be disturbed about your presence. Maybe i was just curious on how you looked like, and that could be the only reason why, i would bother about your presence.

Lets just face it, you were the one who was disturbed about my presence.
And thats why you came upon my blog and even bother to write an entry about me and him. -___-

I could be vulgar just like you do, but I choose not to.
Cause I ain’t stooping that low.
I’ve never deemed myself perfect. I have my flaws
But real beauty is skin deep

Lets just say your true beauty reveals.
All your discrimations about me, just show how ugly you can be and come on, you don't even know me well enough to even start judging on me.

Said that you’re not gonna waste your time on such trivia..
Let me show you how.

.period.

That’s how.

p/s: if he really was nothing to you, why bother reaching him on his phone, asking him of his well-being? And funny that one of those times, i was there by his side, and i was actually okay with it -____-" and come on, we all know you only find him when you are quarrelling with your bf.

2009-03-16T01:15:00.005+08:00

-____________________________-

DUNNO WAT THE HECK DOES THIS WORLD WANTS FROM ME ALSO.

When i said leave me alone, it sure does say,
leave my problems alone too.

You're not making me any happier, when u start talking.
I just need no one to figure out whats right for me right now.
and to conclude about what i just post.

All i wanted, was a sorry. nothing more.
So pls, if you ever want to see me again,
you better stop thinking about what i'm suffering from right now.

See, that's just what i hate.
Having me to worry about other things.

And and, kindda hate any girls who tries to make any form of connection to my bf too.

Hate his past.
All of em girls.

Its either, you regret or you live with it.
What's past has past.
And i've got the right to say it.

It sucks when it comes to sunday.

2009-03-05T01:21:00.001+08:00

"dan aku bermohon,
maafkan aku..."

2009-03-04T00:49:00.001+08:00

everything's messed up.
everything's not right, right now.

I feel the lowest i've ever been.
Im suffering and all i can do is hide.
Im on crisis. Im scared. Im fucking scared.
I cried myself to sleep.
I wish i coould bear with everything.
I wish i would'nt have to throw it.

Im weak. Soo weak.
Im on my mood swings.
Throwing temper at the bf is all i could do.
But i did'nt mean to, im sorry.

Pimples start showing, that shows how fucking stressed i am.
Cant believe i have to go through all of this.
But im thankful that bf and sis is going to be by my side.

2009-02-05T23:35:00.002+08:00

Poly's life is gonna be over.
And i don't even know if i should be happy about it or sad.

But i know, that one thing is for sure after all these painful and happy life in RP, i met up with people whom i really cared about. But among all these happy happy memories, i definitely did appreciate meeting this one particular girl whom i know i can look upon too. She had always been like my sister. And she could always be trusted. I actually wish that nothing could ever break our friendship after these years. And i hope that we could stick together till forever. And i mean it. Even if something were to happen, i want this girl to know that she'll always be in my heart.

She had always lend me a listening ear when i needed the most and she had never failed to tell me that she's sick listening to my stories.
She made me cry trying to do a reverse psychology when she knew that my heart was breaking and that all she wants from me, is to be happy.
She's someone i can talk to till the wee hours in the morning.
She's always there when i needed her the most.
She's always trying to console me with the crappiest joke ever.

And she... is eliane. =D

But at the same time in my life in RP, i met people who can't be trusted. And people who seem to change through the years. And forgive me, I can't even recognize what they've turned into

2009-01-08T11:28:00.003+08:00

Oh yea, did you know, that on the new year's morning, nick and his friend was playing thruth and dare. It happens to be, theres only me and this other girl who are the only girls down there. But i was'nt playing. i was just by nick's side to listen to most of their talkings. So, apparently it was nick's turn and this girl was like playing with my fire. I knew something horrible would utter from her mouth. 1st questions she ask was, OBVIOUSLY ABOUT LOVE'S PAST. I knew she have this cruel intention of making me, like somehow fight with him over his past, or maybe like dig in into his past, BUT com'on luh. I love my bf now, and the fact that i know he loves me deeply too, who cares about his past?! GRRRRRR-RAM AJER!

Itu takpe, i take that like first warning gitu luh kan. then i told love i felt like shoving her fan in her mouth if she were to utter about the same thing on the second round. So, apparently, it was nick's second round. His friends first question was, "wat was the sweetest thing you've said to aminah" ITU TAKPE, But apparently, while love was thinking about how to answer, that girl was like asking him, "if you can leave your ex for some other girl, what makes you think that you would'nt leave her." And then im like eh eh pompan ni. melebih pulak. Luckily love was like raising his voice at her. EEEEEE geram tau. da lah kaki mcm lidi gitu. GRR. Eh hello, the reason why im with him is because i trust my bf and i know that he wouldn't do such things to me, unless i mistreated him or something, so why bother asking.

Apparently love told me that most of the girls and guys hate her. Now i could see, why should she be hated for.

2009-01-06T12:04:00.001+08:00

Woah. Miss me?! Its been so long since i updated this piece of junk.

So i know this is kindda belated.
But HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!

Spent my new year with love. and iza. and his friends.
Staying over, watching movie on midnight.

Nothing much really happen to me this past few weeks.
Except for the fact that i spent most of my holidays with love by he coming over to my place and me going over to his, since he's on his block leave.

Did i mention my sis and bro bought a ps3?!and guitar hero is a really addictive game.

And that aside, i manage to enroll in my class 3C. Enrolled school, because i know nuts about cars. But realise that even the lessons wont help me much. So im like, wat the heck. And Im gonna take my first BTT on the valentines day. It was fun to have love around as he'll pick me up from bbdc, wait for me. But sadly, now im starting school and he's back in camp again. :(

SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY.

What more, it started pretty rough on me on the start of the school days. FYP trouble. Someone was pissing me off. Marketing is stressing me out again. I really wish to get over this 3 weeks as soon as possible.

I tried apply for cotton on, to get a part time job before graduating. haha. just for the retail experience sake, i think im gonna go retail as a part time job first.

my 19th

2008-12-09T07:04:00.001+08:00

Just so you guys know, i've set up a multiply account so that i can upload all the pictures easily. I blog down there too. http://burnheartmemoirs.multiply.com =D

Hey hello!

So here are my birthday pictures.

Exactly at midnight, i was staying up till 12 with love. He was there to wished me happy birthday on midnight on the dot. Sorry for the weird looking face, i was really sleepy and my hair kindda look like amy winehouse. ahhaha. My family bought me 2 pair of vans pumps and a volcom dress.

And then after school. i went out with my lovelys to fish market restaurant to celebrate my 19th. they bought me a guess handbag. hee. thxxxx =D

walked around clark quay and took pictures together

And then nurul and mira left.at around 9.

then on the sat, i spent the time with love. Initially we had plans to go to marina barrage, but somehow, it was kindda too late to head down to marina. We watched his friends perform instead.

9/16/2007

2008-11-30T01:30:00.002+08:00

9/16/2007

Cuppycakes <3

2008-11-27T15:28:00.008+08:00

made cupcakes again =D
this time with sister.

made for nicky baby.
hee

STRESS PERIOD

2008-11-24T20:30:00.004+08:00

im so fucking stressed up with school.
Im stressed up with my freaking fyp.
Stressed up with clearing up my damn CE point.
Stressed up with my fucking marketing module.
Stressed up with my daily grades.

Stress up with my damn pimples.
Stress up with what to do after this semester.
Stress up thinking on how to graduate on time.
Stress up thinking what's my grade.

Stress up of studying for my marketing test *where it did'nt help me at all*

Stress up thinking of what this week is filled for me.
Stress up knowing that i have little time to spent with love this month.

Im just fucking stressed now.
I need some peace.
I need some holidays where i don't need to think about any school-related stuff.

I want to pack my bags up and leave singapore right now.

I JUST WANT TO BE SCHOOL-FREE. DAMMIT.

Cutie

2008-11-23T01:01:00.003+08:00

So lets play the guessing game.

Who do you think this faty cutesy bomsy baby is?!

It isssssssssssssss......
My sayang sayang nicky sayang.

ADORABLE AIN'T HE?!
but too bad he isnt as adorable as he is right now.
MUAHAHHAHAHA =P
*you know you love me. xoxo =D*

Sayang, you need to grow some fats kay. pls pls pls!
Then i'll keep pinching you 24/7. haha.

Went over his house, and browse through his baby pictures.
Found out how chubby and how fair he was last tym. haha.

And then...
I Was looking through his report book.
AND BOY, I FOUND THIS MILLION DOLLAR PICTURE THAT I WOULD BE MOST GLADLY TO SHARE.

HAHAHA. And he was cool about it. He said, he was trynna be one of those ah-beng with the hair cut like that.

COOL LUH TU KIREKAN.

ahhahahah

Okay, so yea, he had to book in tonight. I kindda hate when he books in, because, god knows i hate free times. Because this is the time where i would choose to think about things that are pretty much negative. Like, School for example.

Im starting to hate school more and more, knowing the fact that school's gonna be over soon. I was so happy thinking about graduating, that i realise that I might be repeating modules next semester. Like, MARKETING. -_- I skipped like 7 times already. So i have only 5 lessons to pull my grade to a D. And if i fail my UTs, and my daily grades remain consistent through out. Then probably, i'll get an E. But i still can pull my grades. And its only up to me if i'll put in more effort to come to school.

SIGH.

i love it when love is around. Because, nothing else matters when im with him. *CHEY CHEESAY* But strangely, true.

Sometimes i miss those hugs and kisses when i have to wait for A WEEK to see him again. And to see him for sometimes a day, or 3 isn't that fair to me. But it's better to see then to not meet at all. And i guess i have to be patient. And bare with this for another 1 1/2 years.

nurul's 21st birthday.

2008-11-21T10:54:00.008+08:00

NURUL'S 21ST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

After a day of puking, we look like this. -_-

This was the day before. It was loga's elia's and minah's baking session.

And we ended everything at 1 am.

family day with love

2008-11-17T09:56:00.010+08:00

Had family day at love's camp on sat morning. It started at 8. And i promised love that i'll reach there on time. He woke me up at 5. And i manage to wake up. But like usual, i took my time, thinking that i could get there in time. But ended up, i dissapoint him big time. IM REALLY REALLLY SORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYY OKAY :( i'll try my best to be early next time.

SUPRISINGLY! eliane was early. hahah. she even woke up without me calling her and stuffs. And that was like, a miracle! hahahahhahhaa. She was there to acompany my loneliness. And i really really thank her for that. Like i said, i owe u big time.

Took the taxi from choa chu kang, and i was rushing the apek to drive faster. My heart beats so fast thinking that i would miss the parade. But luckily i manage to catch the parade.

IM TERRIBLY SORRY OKAY?!!! :(

Marketing sucks

2008-11-13T14:05:00.004+08:00

Can't wait for school to be over. Really.
Tmr would probably be my worst nightmare. MARKETING.
believe me or not, of all the 9 week lesson, i only turn up for only 4 weeks.
And im actually intending to come at least for 4 more lessons.

I was lucky yesterday because i get to meet love after dinner.
Been a loong time since i stepped into lot 1. Things sure do have changed a lot.
I actually think that lot 1 is really a good neighbourhood shopping centre unlike sun plaza -__-
But lucky enough i'm not living in choa chu kang. else i would've spent a lot every single day.

Im currently broke right now. Spend a lot on food. I got not much money to spend in school either. I realise something, i rarely post up pictures of me and the girls nowadays. Kindda miss those times when i always bring my SLR everywhere i go and then snap pictures of us doing silly things.

I feel like going to the beach suddenly.
grrrrrrrrrr. hollidays. faster!

Pls pls pls :(

2008-11-09T21:26:00.004+08:00

oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.
oh god, lemme sleep and wake up only on the weekends.

BECAUSE I GOT NO MOOD AND NO MOTIVATION TO GO TO SCHOOL ANYMORE.
I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP.

I hate it when sun night come.
because i have to let go of my happiness
and when the sun starts shining, thats when i start feeling the boredomness, the tiredness, the pain, the pain of schooling.

pissed

2008-10-29T22:42:00.004+08:00

At this point of time, im officially bored.
DEAD BORED. REALLY REALLY BORED.
And im crying out(not literally of course) to get some attention.

All i did today was, staring at my lappie.
More staring... and MORE staring.
I AM SUPER FREAKING BORED LIKE I WAS NEVER BORED BEFORE.

Hate the fact that love did'nt call me much today.
He called, and then talked for a while, and then off he goes to sleep, and called again to tell me his having bbq so his calling late again and then called again to say gdnite.
Maybe im just SUPER bored today which leads to the fact that i want to be entertained by love today. BUT. i just dont get it today. SO. Im a little down today. But yea. i understand that he's tired and all. I just hate NS rite now.

IN FACT. IM EVEN GONNA HATE IT WHEN HE COME OUT THIS WEEKEND.
Because, its gonna seem like he never come out at all.
I hate the fact that i'll be having FYP this weekend + tommorrow. ARGHH! The thought of it just crushes me inside. i hate it. And then i was asked by eliane to go out this fri. But i just can't seem to make up my mind. because i want to meet love at night and i want to go out with my friends too. Im really trying my best to weigh the line between friendship and bf.

But love was nice enough to ask me to go out with my friends and not ditch my friends for him. And i appreciate that. But I just don't understand sometimes. It seems to me that i'm the only one who has always been wanting to meet him. And sacrificing all my time for him. And love just seem to not bother that his not meeting me.

Gah. maybe im just PMS-ing. And the fact that i can't meet him this week actually cause me to feel this way today. Maybe i just want to be entertained because i know i got lesser time for him tmr. i can't possibly talk with him tmr when im doing my filming tmr.

I hate it. I hate it when we are apart.
I JUST HATE THAT WEEKDAYS YOU'RE NOT EVEN HERE WITH ME.
I miss you already.

But hey. its only this week rite?!

<3

2008-10-24T10:56:00.006+08:00

Im sitting here in school, and only one person crosses my mind.
Nick. And I know today’s gonna be the day that he books out.
But here i am, missing him.

I realise that he always took his time to meet me the moment when he books out of camp even if its in the early morning.
And even when its pouring so heavily.
I realise that he would even spend Saturday and Sunday with me without fail.
And then he would book into camp again on Sunday night.

I really hate ns. Because NS took you away from me.
I hate night-time too. Because night-time take me away from you too.
In fact i hate everything that would take you away from me.

Sometimes i wonder why our heart works in such a way that we’ll just tend to miss them so bad even for a few second after we part ways.
And we just wish that we could have them all for ourselves.
And sometimes i just wish that he is this small little toy where i could put him in my pocket
and have him for myself, everywhere, anywhere, i go. Haha.

Yes, Thats how selfish i can turn into.
And i know that it’s all because of you.
But I think, that’s just how this-thing-called love works.
It’s really complicated ain’t it?
And that’s why i love you even more.

But i know i can’t have him all for myself because he got other people who loves him too just like how i do too.

And to you b,
I should be thankful that i have a bf who would actually spend most of his days with me.
Even when his dead tired after booking out of camp.
And Even when he got no bike. Haha. He would travel all the way to sembawang by bus.
And he would jog his ass all the way from woodlands to sembawang too.
I should be thankful that my bf cares a lot about me.
And when im sick, he would force me to drink more water. Hahahaha.
I really thank you for everything.

You colour my world even brighter when you stepped into my life.
You paint me a lot of pictures in my walls.
Some happy ones and some sad ones.
But most importantly you thaught me what it is to be loved.
Hee. I love you bf.

B, i know im such a pain in the ass this few days.
And i know its hard for you to tahan me sometimes.
Im really sorry for those days where i got you mad okay?!

And i love how you always give in to me even when i feel that it’s my fault.

baby goes sun tanning

2008-10-17T12:21:00.005+08:00

eka goes sun tanning to get rid of jontis!
-__________-

say hello to baby eka eryanna

2008-10-14T22:51:00.008+08:00

lets say helloto baby eka eryanna
born on the 13th of october morning.

and some randoms picture i took these past few days.