It's too late now, babe.

It's too late

So back to school was'nt that bad afterall.
I miss a lot of them. I miss those laughters.
The ones who could make me laugh whenever im feeling down.
The ones who craps a lot with me twety four seven.
The ones who could bear all my nonsence. hahaha
Miss blusbites, Miss preetie, Mr Sicko, Mr Harry Potter and Mr tin-nies. Hahaha. yes them.

Class was okay. Lesson was confusing but okay. I like codings better than anything else. And i hate theory. So yes, mon and tues lessons are loved okay!
And when it comes to thursdays....... gosh! i hate it. kay nehmind, dun wish to talk about the fat ass over and over again.

and oh, a great day to start school today by leaving my 40 bucks in class. how careless can i get?!

So yea, you know, i've been noticing peoples hair today. Changes amongst them. Some are weird, and some are just stylish. One was like amy winehouse luh. hahaha

You know, when u had to take the bus to school every morning, there'll be some familiar faces u would come to recognise. And sometimes, you just, get sick and tired of it.
Take an example of mine...

1) Theres this chinese guy in his mid 30s, always looking down when he board the bus, then he'll find his sit sumwhere near the door, some changes was seen in him today... he's hair! He permed it and now, he looks a lil lyk ah beng uh.

2) Then there's this girl, schooling in republic poly too, she'll be sitting somewhere near my sit, sitting down, and at some moment, she'll open up her pressed powder mirror, then she'll do a lil touch up on her face. and oh, she changed her hair colour too, i envy the way she is, because she's really pretty to look at.

3)bThen at one particular bus stop, there's always this old man standing at the bus stop looking like as if he's waiting for the bus. But if u look closely, he was'nt actually standing there because he want too, and the reason he's there was to do a lil work out. yes, of all places... THE BUS STOP. weird huh?

4) Then theres this one guy who's matrep looking, and everytym he board the bus, i mean, EVERYTYM he board the bus, he'll wear the same old orange shirt, with he's cap on.

5) Then, there's this one particular girl who seems really interesting. She's always at the back of the bus... listening to her mp3, staring out the window and loves to people watch. Sometimes, she'll do the im-so-sleepy-headbang in the bus when she gets really really tired. But funny thing about her is that, she'll never miss her stop even tho how hard she banged her head in the bus. and that girl... is ME! hahahaha :D

So yea, thats probably the end of my bus trip!


So today, after school i accompanied blushbites to city hall to get her stuff then head home. Boy, im tired now. really really tired. I was telling her just now, how i wished that sometimes, or maybe just ONE day, every words i speak to her, could be heard. I just wished that you were there right by my side, like you were invinsible, listening to every word i spoke and know what i really truly feel. because i know my feelings are true and that sometimes i feel like i need you to know that but i don't have the courage to. it's just so hard being me u know. so hard. and what's worst is that, i can't figure out why the hell am i lyk this.

urrr ok nehmind, im disgusted by myself seriously. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
ok goodnight loves.

And i'll pretend my heart still beating.

I'll pretend my heart still beating.

If you know that your day is gonna be dreadful?
This is how you kill it.
Well, it goes well for me tho.
Something is really wrong tho, like i can't seem to get the shadows right.
Sheesh! Im not an art student okay! i don't know how to apply the technique of shadows here.
And oh, i took almost 10 hours doing this. yes. 10-hours!
ahaha. this show, that i've got nothing better to do. so yea.






And i still prefer the other one better. I almost give up doing this one.
But i dun like to do things halfway.
so yea, i just continue doing this one tho i know it gonna suck.

I've been craving a lot now.
First, i wanted cocoa cream puff. Then i wanted ferrero rocher. Then i wanted M&M'S.
I manage to get urm... 5 packs of m&m today! yes, and i've eaten... all of them.
hahahhhaa! Kay, m&m's is love okay.

alright! 10 hours killed, now im heading off to bed.
Sad life huh?! well yea, that is pretty much how she lives her life.

"Inside I hope you know im dying,
with my heart beside me in shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now,
you'd never be the same"

And i deny, the tears in my eyes cuz i don't want to let you see.

okay, lm writing this shit using my drawing tablet.
I need to get use to it.

So anyway, today i had to go back to school to configure my lappie . Gosh I took almost 3++. hour to do so luh. Whats worst was that I was alone after 1. Eliane was with me at first. The plan was to head school first, then accompany her later to her dental appointment. But it was rather hard to manage the time. cuz we both know that configuring the laptop will take hours. And her appointment had to be before 5. And i need to head home first before heading to queenstown then to habourfront. so yea, we decided to go on our separate ways. So I sit down there pathetically lonely, listening to music, and... sleep! I only had 4 hours of sleep before that okays. I was rather tired.

After configuring my lappie, i went straight home, then off again to vivo to meet the sister, i bought stuffs, and now, im broke. sheesh. Now Im left with only 10 bucks to survive this week. sheesh. Oh god, i really need to control my temptations. I've been spending a lot lately. K now, i have to stop.

Oh yea, PP'S result is out, and YEY! i passed! PHEW~!


Now that PP is over, All i need to worry now are my FYP's.

To end it off, cute video clips of irfan..





and oh, fyi, he's singing jinbara - kasihnya laila anyways. hahaha. which sounds, nowhere near the song at all!



"I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought I could live in your arms and spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you"

You're missed

Sup bloggers. i decided to change my blog url. heh. =D
sorry for the trouble. but i kindda hate the sound of xminah-diaryx luh. hahha.

So yea, today, i went out with elia and nurul.
Gosh i miss nurul lyk $#@$@%$@.

I went to school at first, to configue my laptop.
But time would'nt let me to.
I reached there ard 2, and IT helpdesk was closed.
Great orwhut?!
So i'm heading there tmr instead. sheeesh.

Then we head off to alexandra hospital. for elianes dental appointment.
Met nurul there.
Then we head off to city hall next.
Eat at marina square, ayam penyet is the best! hah. then chilled at esplanade where we usually were. We talked till 11+ or so before heading home.



Talk crap as usual. But 1 of the topic was interesting.
It was about, how people can open up so easily.
I mean, how do they do that? Opening up to someone you barely even know.
If they can do that so easily, then teach me. Pass me some skills. haaaaaah.
I myself, tried sooooooooooooooo hard to open up to people, but i just can't do it that easily. I mean i can, but it takes time. But im amused by those who's born lyk that. Gahhh... im jealous. seriously. Life seems a lot easier for them.

Grrrrrrr. Anyway, Im tired.

Oh yea, there's a meteor shower going on right now. And i mean now! up to 100 meteors per hour might be seen after midnight. So stand/sit/gaze/sleep/whatever by your window and watch out for the sky.
Cuz u know why? u might be able to catch shooting stars.
But sadly, the weather isn't doing pretty well in singapore tonight.
So chances of u seeing the stars is pretty much, hopeless. haha.
Awwwwwwwwwww. i've always wanted to see a shooting star. ergh.

AND OH, be careful, superman might just land in singapore tonight. hahahahhaa!
I misss smallville..
i need my hero...
clark kent. :(

You know i felt it, so strong.
That i can even feel what's right and what's wrong.
Why do i feel this way?

Could this be out of line? To say u're the only one, breaking me down like this.

"If only...."
"I should've..."
"Why did'nt i....?"
"I could've...."

Could someone please put some sense into my head.
I mean, seriously.
Why do i keep asking/questioning myself, with all this statements.
Put some sense into me, that it already happened.
And i can't change anything about it.
So, PLS, stop me from all this.

ERGH.

So, i sent my beloved laptop for servicing.
And i can't believe they stripped her open in front of my eyes.
What's worst was that, they stripped her open so roughly. yes!
i was shocked. because, the man did it in an unhappy manner okay.
In my heart i was lyk "Gentle la oi!"
He knocked it with a screwdriver to get it open.
I was lyk.... *urmmm???*
Even acer service was'nt that rough and was even friendlier.
This man, he's just, PMS-ING.
haaah. well we'll see hows my lappie condition will be like in 1 week time.

oh check this out,



k crap. hahahahahaha. i actually tot they were like, promoting condominiums.
and when i see the "i"... i went lyk "AHAHHAHAHHAHA".

Then it reminded me about the mcr concert.
Gosh, how disgusting can people get seeriously?
they were lyk blowing condoms and throwing it in mid air, thinking that, they're balloons. And they went lyk "WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!" And im lyk, EWWWWWWWWWWWWW. disgusting okay. the one who blows it was right in front on me summore. Grooossss okay. It was all slimy2 summore. eww ok. sheesh.

so yea, back to today, i got back pretty early.. ard 5 or so?
So me and elia planned to meet up at 7 to chill at civic's starbucks.
But apparently, we obviously took our own sweet time and meet at 8 instead.
We walked ard cwp, then we decided to catch the movie, i am legend.
So b4 the movie, we went to starbucks, and oh i have a crush on java chip frap.
Yes, a crush. Was'nt that bad luh. Im falling deep for it, but it's just a crush okay? hahahhaha! ok mere.

I am legend was... good. It got me freaked out ok! I was lyk jumping off my sit at one of the scene. Seriously shocking luh. hahaha. But it was funny how both of us reacted. elia got pack-nick kan eliane?! hahhahahha!
It was sad also, we both cried lyk nobody's business.
and i ended up leaving the theatre with a panda eyes. Yea-uh! my eyeliner smudged. Luckily the whole trip back home was'nt that bad, since there was'nt much people ard to stare at my stupid freaking black eye.

hahhhhhhhhh. so yea. that's about it for today! my lame-old-boring-stupid day.

ok i seeeeeeeee-riously need to do sumthing to my stupid hair.

How could it be nothing at all?

Okay, HAPPY NEW YEARRRR lovelies! =D

I was looking up the sky today, it was raining, i saw a bird, it was flying, trying to get beneath the mrt tracks. Then i saw a flock of birds still flying... then it got me thinking, what if, what if they could'nt find a shelter? where would they go?

It was just yest when i had the sweetest dream ever.
I guess, that dreamt meant something sweet to end 2007 with.
awwww.

Happy happppppppppppppppppy new year!
I watched the fireworks yest, near fullerton.
Supposedly, we wanted to stay near esplanade, but it was darn packed.
And since we got nothing better to do, we walk down to fullerton.
Oh yea, i was supposed to meet elia, but we could'nt get thru each other.
So we ended up not meeting each other. aww. how sad.

It was a lil sad this year tho. But its okay, i should be happy that its a new year.
Thats when im going to start a new beginning. Today, marks the 19th season, the 1st episode of my life. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

So today.... Was probably my luckiest day.
A great day to start new year with.
Dad bought me a new lappie! YEY! tho, the design suck badly, but its okay, the best thing is that, it's light! and it fits my tote bag. Now i can go tote to school!
Hah. cuz, i've always wore backpacks to school.

Not only that! he bought me a 160 gb harddisk. Yes! the last one crashed, so yea, at least this time, i can save up space again for my new lappie.

ANNNNNDDDDDDDDDD..... He bought me graphire drawing tablet!! yey!!! I've been wanting that for so loooong. And finally, i got my very first drawing tablet.
Now i've got the mood to start designing. sheeeesh.
talking about designing, i lost all my draft works of my designs. how sad.

k check this out,


hahahha. okay, i've got nothing better to do.

yey! i love my dad. th he always gets me cranky. But oh wells.

Here are some videos i took from the new camcorder. now i can upload videos on my blog. tho i know, no one sees it. OH, how great.