pull me up

Im drowning...

I just dun understand em.
Doing shits like they ain't got no pride.

Oh god, what have this world turned into?!

Its sad.
really sad.

No one can do anything about it.

So lets just watch, and see.

fustrating it is.
For some of us.

OMG!
PINCH ME SOMEONE.
AND TELL ME THAT THIS IS REAL.

NEW FOUND GLORY'S coming to singapore on the aug 2nd.
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
Confirm Ash will be like, "AMINAH YOU GOING?!" when he's out of camp.
And i'll go like "HELL YEA IM GOING!"
hahhaha. i wanna go i wanna go i wanna go so bad!

i will! i hope. i'll save up, and I WANT TO GO!

Not fanatic orwhut uh, but omg, my fav band stepping on this pathetic island!

I'll be the wings that keeps your heart in the clouds

I have'nt been updating much have't i?
Hmmmph.

Im surfing deviantart right now. And at the same time, im watching that 70's show.
Use to watch that 70s show till season 3, Now that i've got the complete season, i shall start watching again from now onwards.
I've realised that i stopped doing vectors. And i have'nt been using my drawing tablet. I shall start doing so when i have the time.
The last i did was for my dearest loga. A birthday card for her.


But now, im just so caught up with projects and more projects in school. I don't understand why, RP has to give us projects when they already force us to do 2 FYP's
1 of them is that stupid Animation project where all multimedia students hafta do, which i CHOOSE NOT TO, because i find it stupid and ridiculous that there's no grade given to us by doing so. So i see NO POINT in doing one. I mean, why the hell waste our effort to do one?! It was said that, by doing so, it will help us to build on our portfolio. I already got my designs now, so why worry on a portfolio?
Another project that we hafta do is that stupid filming shit we hafta do during this term break. WHATEVER FOR SIA?! I already did filming for my FYP, and now i hafta do the same shit for class project?! GOD. rp is killing me. Filming is shit okay. Imagine walking ard with that heavy stuffs around. Why can't they provide us with cars oso?! -__- And my team has only 1 guy in it. I bet my team's gonna sweat our ass of luh.

Just now i had FYP. And we manage to finish our audio recording just in time. Now that its done, we hafta start on the MTV. AGAIN. I hate it when it comes to filming. The first few times when u do it, Its fun and stuffs. But when you keep doing it for weeks and weeks, it gets really irritating. I swear. Filming,
is just not my forte in multimedia i guess.

My sis went for check up just now at hospital, but sadly i can't get to see it with them. Only my mom got to see it. And i got to see that baby in a piece of paper. hah. Its really wonderful how technology can do all this now. I really can't wait to be an aunt. I can't wait to see her. And i still can't believe that my sis would be a mom. hahhaa. i mean, it just felt like it was just yesterday she got married, and now, she's carrying a child in her. I can't wait, i can't wait. im so excited for her.

So next week, Nick is heading off to NS. How sad is that?! It seems like we have always meet each other almost every day now. And to just stop seeing you for the next 3 weeks, that's gonna be sad and i really think im gonna miss you and miss everything and im gonna learn to adapt to it. But im sure im gonna be fine with it and hope for the best for you. i hope time will be nice and make it as fast as possible. And i promise, i'll be good. I think that sometimes, maybe you would feel that i hide my feelings from you, because sometimes i just don't really know how to show it to you. but you need to know now that i really love you, And I think I have been since the moment we locked eyes. You were always someone special in my eyes. And it has always been. Im sorry i can be irritating at times. And for you to bare with that, i love ya many many, sloth. heeeeh.

cheeesayyyyyy~ haha.

sighhh

Obviously, i can't do anything about it.

always be my baby

its 12:51 pm.
Library.
Feeling so sleepy.
Listening to Angel - Sarah mclachlan.
A sudden thought of my grandma.
A thought of the journey to her wake when this particular song is heard playing in the car at that moment.
I miss her so bad. I hope she's fine now.

Last fri, a classmate of mine, syidah, introduced me to this song by david cook called Always be my baby. She was singing the song in the class like nobody's business. Performing her own version right in front of me. I swear she cracks me up real bad in class. Dancing like no one cares. Teaching me how to act. haha. The more i listen to her playing the song in her laptop, the more i got addicted to it. I really think david cook's version of always be my baby is great. Im starting to like the song luh.

Things have been pretty good lately. Except for the fact that, my parents are bugging me. -__- And that my hair seems to get uglier as days goes by. grr. I hate it. I hate my hair looking so dull and dry. I want something new to it. But no, i ain't never cut short anymore. Maybe soon. When i really feel that it isn't a waste of money.

Maple got me addicted these days. Played with nick the other day. It was fun. And now im like bugging eliane to renew her account and play with me too. Still remember those old times when i spend hours and hours in front of the comp playing that game with anna, james and all. And i remembered it was during our prelims. We were like relieving stress at the same time. And i went stealing potions from people. ahhahaha. And now, maple is like so advanced, we could even get married in the game. And imagine how much does it cost?! A BOMB. 10k messos luh! sheeeeesh. u hafta buy the ring oso. -__-

I somehow hate those people who always think that they're right and that we hafta listen to them all the time. Im tired of giving in. Im tired of playing nice at times. Theres always limitations to this situation. And I dun like it when they give that sulky face when we tend to not listen to them for once. And i dun like it when they hide em feelings to emselves and stray away from em when such small littlest things happen. And i really dun like it when these small littlest things were made out big. But from what i know, i have the right to do such things. And that its fair for everyone. Im not asking for a fight either. Im only asking for my rights.

Would'nt it be nice

Yea yea, i have'nt been updating much.
And since im like so free right now, i shall update it now.

Right now, im like lying down on my bed touching my stupid forehead.
PIMPLE BREAKOUTS! grr. i swear i hate pimple breakouts.

Mommy was really being psychotic to me yesterday. She called me up for god knows how many time in every few min. And she sure did pissed me off. I hate it when she do so uh. I mean comm'on luh. I ain't a baby no more ya know. You don't have to control me till that serious whut. Talked to her today, tell her how irritated i was by her yesterday. Lucky enough she did'nt really take it seriously. But i just want her to know that she can't do this to me all the time. I know my limits luh. As long as i get home safely, then okay what. I just hope that someday she'll stop calling and calling... and that... would be a miracle if it were to happen.

And another issue brought up by my sis, we realised that sometimes, it isn't daddy fault that we're like this. We keep thinking that, maybe its true that my dad are sometimes cold towards us, he beats us and stuffs, but come to think of it, i dun think daddy cares at all luh. Sometimes, my mom likes to go like "DADDY ANGRY LUH LATER" "DADDY WILL GET MAD AT MOMMY LUH" She likes to make us think that my dad is a very cautious and strict person. But i know he isn't. I see that all this are coming straight from her. She complains to dad to make him get mad at us. And dad just can't take it anymore and then started throwing his temper on us.

So lately school's been okay luh. Late forever. But like they say, better late then never kan?! so whatever. ahhaha. Went to school with a torn sandals today. But lucky enough, i manage to walk from school, and then off to town and then went back home. Did'nt really want to head to town today. But my sis made a deal, that if i were to go to town on time, then she would give me 100 bucks. And thx to my wonderful sandals, I got there on time. Those sandals must've made magics man. hahaha. I was always late yaknow. Then off to meet nick at town too. eat eat eat till we grow fat kan?! hahahha. No wait, U grow fat! hahaha. :P

Kay now, i feel like shopping. I need new clothes and i really and i really feel like altering my pants. Obviously i need monaaay. Would'nt life be much easier if our life had a cheatcode osumthing. u press ctrl+shift+c and then u type "motherload" in, then KACHING$$ KACHING$$! tonnes of money in ur savings. would'nt that be nice?! Then forget about savings! Forget about working! Just laze you ass at home, and sit in front of the comp, hacking for a new cheatcode. Maybe the 2nd cheatcode i would want to use would probably be "AUDIO_OFF" orsumthink. So i can shut anyone who's really annoying to shut the hell up.

Tommorow's IT SECURITY. SHIT. I HATE.

I will be

i've been meeting nick a lot this few days.
meeting him = laughters + more laughters + more crap.
but sadly, someone's going ns soon eh. oh oh.

I walked to school today accompanied with my bad mood. I just don't know why, but my mom is really pissing me off this days. Maybe im just not in the mood luh. And it sucks, when you hafto rushed urself to school everyday, knowing that you'll be downgraded. The more you get downgraded, the more demotivated you'll get. AND YOU JUST GET SICK AND TIRED OF SCHOOLING EVERY SINGLE MORNING. and do you know what you'll do next, you just skip! But, im getting sick and tired of skipping, and i get sick and tired of schooling either. Soon enough, i'll get sick and tired of myself. So how?

I realised i came to know a lot of may babies. 4 of my cousins are born on may, my bro, my mom, aqila and justin. But today's a special day, its my bitch birthday and she turned 20 this year.

HAPPY BITHDAY AQILA!!!

hahahha. May all your wishes come true kay babe. stay cute and pretty always. i'll send you those pictures soon kay. and oh GROW BIG KAY. hahahhahahahhaha!

Her advance surprise party went well. i swear she looked stoked. hahahha. and she went lyk "OMG, I LOOK SO BACIN" ahhahahhaha. Her mom was nice and all. Cooked for us mee soto and all. Aqila got a specially made sponge cake with a volcom on it and It looks super pretty luh. She must be lucky ey. hahahahha.

Left her house at ard 7, took a looooooooong walk to yishun mrt. I swear it was tiring. And i can see that even nick got tired. haha. and the weather, god. its killing me seriously. Its been humid this few days. i've been losing and wasting a lot of sweat lately okayyy. i can't stand the weather now luhhhhhhhhh. Honestly, if you had to ask me to choose between the rain or the sun, with all my heart, i choose the snow okay. HAHAHA. kaaaaaaaay that will never happen.

I've been gaining a lot of weight lately. My tummy, is getting bigger day by day. GOOODNESSS. somebody, i need liposuction pls. from my tummy to my arm, to my thighs. EVERYWHERE. hahahhaha.

Kay im drinking hot chocolate right now, its yummmmehhh. and this faci is mumbling words i never did manage to catch. All i could hear right now is "Claass is going to end sooon..."

AND MSN IS BEING A BITCH RIGHT NOW. I SWEAR.
i 've been trying to get online from just now.
even if i could, i can't manage to send my msg.
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bla bla bla bla bla.

you know you love me.
xoxo.