erm, so okay. im depressed people. i hate my family. so yea, i went funan juz now with my family. searching fer a laptop. and my dad was so argh! fed up sia. he was angry, and shouted in the shop sey. fucked up sia. he only believe in wat he says. and he dun trust in other people. including his children. tell me how do u feel?!and yet he could humiliate me and my sis at the shop he saes that evry laptop shud comes with microsoft office itself. HELLO?! he dun even knoe wat is tat btw! and he was agueing with the assist manager there?! and then, i started crying. they saw i was crying, but yet i laugh. i dunno ah. i just can't control my tears ah. so i told my sis and my bro i dun even knoe why im crying. but i sure DO myself.
i waas crying because, im not proud of having a father lyk him.
i was crying because i dun think my family is even wat we call a 'family'
i was crying becos my sis and my bro shouted at my dad. and yet i pitied him.
i was crying because he dun trust me.
yes, i pity him... i really do. i really hate him, but deep down, i knoe theres some things which makes him a special dad. Adding up to the fucked-up-ness, i was posted to IT in republic! ARGH! another reason to be mad aat my dad again.
4 years ago
