touched.

you know, probably no one is reading this. so yea, here i am updating this.
you know, i go crazy about someone who could make me fall for his fav song.
you know, when a girl got addicted and play the song over and over and over again.
yea, so far, theres only 3 dudes who made me feel tat way.
i dunnno why im crapping. but i juz feel lyk i shuld write this on my blog.
so yea, the ferst song was mimpi. i listen to it over and over again tat i never get sick and tired of it. i shuld'nt be telling you who it is. so jgn prasan la. hahahahahahaha. well, he got me addicted to all ska songs. in fact, mimpi waas the first ska song i listen to. sheeesh. and yea, i got crazy over him. i soo miss those days. going out with him. it was rather awdward as he was the first netfwen i met! its funni the way we met fer the ferst tym. he even change the way i like him fer being a fren into the 'like like'. But it was kindda sad to know that i wasn't meant fer him. In fact i was depressed. but i still do have feelings fer him till now. CONFIRM his not reading this. so yea. the
2nd song i fall fer was poison apple. Lyk omg. tat song is sooooooo awesome tat i listen to it evrywhere. Even my brother and sister got addicted bcoz they heard me listen to it lyk almost evrytym! yea i juz have a crush on him and tat's it. and i dun even have any freaking idea why did i even xchange no. with him. lol he got a gerlfren anyways but that was after la. and probably i was nnobody to him but heck! that song is so awesome.
3rd song was bila engkau. sheeesh. tat dude dun even knoe my blog. so yea, he would'nt be reading this. i listen to it b4 i sleep most of the tym. lol. tat song is lyk my lullaby. gosh. seriously its a nice song tat could make u sleep. but the lyrics are so damn meaningful. ahh... tat song is just too sweet. and he is the kind of guy im looking for. someone who is shy yet talkative, sumone who is secretive, sumone who is outstanding. yea he is. he's sumone who understands me. he's just diff. lyk i say it's just a lyk. a crush i guess. =D
i knoe i sounds lyk a fag! but heck care! im bored anyways.

woooooowaaaaah

k. i knoe i have been not updating my blog since ever. sorie bout that. too lazy la. actually i wanted to change the layout but got 1 stupid error uh. then forget it! im not changing. Im bored actually, that's y here i am updating. so yea, nothing much happen to me lately. BORED BORED BORED sey. sit at home 24 hours is lyk hell. especially, when my mom start nagging. arghh! so fucking hate it.

burdae

my life,
is lyk the colour of my hair.
it fades away,
loosing its vibrance.

east coast accident

morning, leasha came take all the stuff they left at my house. Me and elizabeth took train. overall, bbq was ok la. riding was tiring. the worse part was me and elizabeth riding together. And BAM!! We knocked into each other. It was with a great force sia. That my camera kemek. Hulermak itu pompan nyer badan. Tak nak kalah. My mind was totally blank after tat. We sat in the middle lyk nobody business. Lyk fuck! i was so damn scared. and she kept telling me to go fer a repair. Sorry fer your backbone btw! HAHAHAAHAHA. Who the hell ask her to stop in the middle of nowhere! aiyoyoyoyoyoi

shitty

went to follow leia buy her prom stuff.

fucking tired.

went to topshop and saw this beautiful shirt i like.

66 bucks.

love at ferst sight.

but. no size.

it was too huge for me.

fuck! i want it!

and the topshop sales assist is hot!

gosh! he's so hot.

his eyes, argh! kills me.

Im melting, Im melting, in your eyes.

hahaha.

still i want that shirt.

i want it!

but leia was bz finding her stuffs.

tat i got no tym to buy that shirt!

argh!

im too sick and tired of thinking.
i cried.
but there's no point in crying.
i feel like shit.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Haiiiii. i juz dun understand myself.

I hate to miss chances.

Letting go is what i would do the best.

I hate it!

Why do i always have to be lyk this?

I'm sick and tired of thinking!

I hate it!

Argh! i fuckin hate myself.

Maybe wat sis say is true.

But hey. i was born and being raised TOO well.

I'm so sorry to whom i hurt.

I just wish i could change the way i am.

but i can't.

Can i?