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DUNNO WAT THE HECK DOES THIS WORLD WANTS FROM ME ALSO.

When i said leave me alone, it sure does say,
leave my problems alone too.

You're not making me any happier, when u start talking.
I just need no one to figure out whats right for me right now.
and to conclude about what i just post.

All i wanted, was a sorry. nothing more.
So pls, if you ever want to see me again,
you better stop thinking about what i'm suffering from right now.

See, that's just what i hate.
Having me to worry about other things.

And and, kindda hate any girls who tries to make any form of connection to my bf too.

Hate his past.
All of em girls.

Its either, you regret or you live with it.
What's past has past.
And i've got the right to say it.

It sucks when it comes to sunday.

"dan aku bermohon,
maafkan aku..."

everything's messed up.
everything's not right, right now.

I feel the lowest i've ever been.
Im suffering and all i can do is hide.
Im on crisis. Im scared. Im fucking scared.
I cried myself to sleep.
I wish i coould bear with everything.
I wish i would'nt have to throw it.

Im weak. Soo weak.
Im on my mood swings.
Throwing temper at the bf is all i could do.
But i did'nt mean to, im sorry.

Pimples start showing, that shows how fucking stressed i am.
Cant believe i have to go through all of this.
But im thankful that bf and sis is going to be by my side.

Poly's life is gonna be over.
And i don't even know if i should be happy about it or sad.

But i know, that one thing is for sure after all these painful and happy life in RP, i met up with people whom i really cared about. But among all these happy happy memories, i definitely did appreciate meeting this one particular girl whom i know i can look upon too. She had always been like my sister. And she could always be trusted. I actually wish that nothing could ever break our friendship after these years. And i hope that we could stick together till forever. And i mean it. Even if something were to happen, i want this girl to know that she'll always be in my heart.

She had always lend me a listening ear when i needed the most and she had never failed to tell me that she's sick listening to my stories.
She made me cry trying to do a reverse psychology when she knew that my heart was breaking and that all she wants from me, is to be happy.
She's someone i can talk to till the wee hours in the morning.
She's always there when i needed her the most.
She's always trying to console me with the crappiest joke ever.

And she... is eliane. =D

But at the same time in my life in RP, i met people who can't be trusted. And people who seem to change through the years. And forgive me, I can't even recognize what they've turned into

Oh yea, did you know, that on the new year's morning, nick and his friend was playing thruth and dare. It happens to be, theres only me and this other girl who are the only girls down there. But i was'nt playing. i was just by nick's side to listen to most of their talkings. So, apparently it was nick's turn and this girl was like playing with my fire. I knew something horrible would utter from her mouth. 1st questions she ask was, OBVIOUSLY ABOUT LOVE'S PAST. I knew she have this cruel intention of making me, like somehow fight with him over his past, or maybe like dig in into his past, BUT com'on luh. I love my bf now, and the fact that i know he loves me deeply too, who cares about his past?! GRRRRRR-RAM AJER!

Itu takpe, i take that like first warning gitu luh kan. then i told love i felt like shoving her fan in her mouth if she were to utter about the same thing on the second round. So, apparently, it was nick's second round. His friends first question was, "wat was the sweetest thing you've said to aminah" ITU TAKPE, But apparently, while love was thinking about how to answer, that girl was like asking him, "if you can leave your ex for some other girl, what makes you think that you would'nt leave her." And then im like eh eh pompan ni. melebih pulak. Luckily love was like raising his voice at her. EEEEEE geram tau. da lah kaki mcm lidi gitu. GRR. Eh hello, the reason why im with him is because i trust my bf and i know that he wouldn't do such things to me, unless i mistreated him or something, so why bother asking.

Apparently love told me that most of the girls and guys hate her. Now i could see, why should she be hated for.

Woah. Miss me?! Its been so long since i updated this piece of junk.

So i know this is kindda belated.
But HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!

Spent my new year with love. and iza. and his friends.
Staying over, watching movie on midnight.

Nothing much really happen to me this past few weeks.
Except for the fact that i spent most of my holidays with love by he coming over to my place and me going over to his, since he's on his block leave.

Did i mention my sis and bro bought a ps3?!and guitar hero is a really addictive game.

And that aside, i manage to enroll in my class 3C. Enrolled school, because i know nuts about cars. But realise that even the lessons wont help me much. So im like, wat the heck. And Im gonna take my first BTT on the valentines day. It was fun to have love around as he'll pick me up from bbdc, wait for me. But sadly, now im starting school and he's back in camp again. :(

SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY SUCKY.

What more, it started pretty rough on me on the start of the school days. FYP trouble. Someone was pissing me off. Marketing is stressing me out again. I really wish to get over this 3 weeks as soon as possible.

I tried apply for cotton on, to get a part time job before graduating. haha. just for the retail experience sake, i think im gonna go retail as a part time job first.