HAHAHA! CHIDISH ACT ZALIKHA. SOOOOOO CHILDISH.
Having ur bf to said that. -__-

Gigi tak lawa pun, matair lame kau jugak yg suka aku.

Come on, i've heard a lot about you. And i mean A LOT. from good, to worst.
From nick, from fareez. Even Fareez admitted how childish you can be and told me to ignore.

So terase for what.
I could just hate things easily, just like how i have the right to hate his past.
And just so you know, his past doesnt revolves around you ONLY. Why does it bother you SOOOOO much?

4 years and more, so what?
I realised how much of a pain you were to him.
How pity that pretty face was when he utter me about how sad he was by your actions.
I've always scolded him for he is disgusted by you.
But now, i just realise how much of a pain you are too. And you deserved it.

I learnt from you, and yea *hands down*, i have to thank you, for, i realise, i will try to be nothing like you at all. Trust me.

And oh, nick wanting to talk to you and all?
Why do i see you prompting him first in msn sometimes when his at my home? -___-"
Next time, don't bother askin him to sent you off somewhere or to eat out with him, or even bother to sms him or call him. Oh wait, this happens only WHEN YOU ARE FIGHTING WITH YOUR DAMN BF.

I keep you, your dirty little secrets

I quote

“And and, kindda hate any girls who tries to make any form of connection to my bf too.

Hate his past.
All of em girls.

Its either, you regret or you live with it.
What's past has past.
And i've got the right to say it.”

That much to get one to blabber on and on for say..
seven equally “eye rolling” paragraph.
answer me this: since when does the whole world revolves around you?
because the last time i check, this post was meant for a girl called amira who has been contacting him back recently.

And, what makes you think i was disturbed by your presence.
If i had, i wouldnt have bother to ask my bf
ME: "eh look its your ex gf! Shes standing there alone. Sayang, don't you wanna say hello?"
SAYANG: "Whatever fuck for. She got no friends what, don't you know? Last time all her friends left her."
ME: "haha. tak baik sia you."
Rite when you were standing behind the group of us, just before the rain started pouring.
And come on, i know him well enough now, never will he hurt me by playing behind my back when ive done nothin wrong but to make him happy.
So why would i even be disturbed about your presence. Maybe i was just curious on how you looked like, and that could be the only reason why, i would bother about your presence.

Lets just face it, you were the one who was disturbed about my presence.
And thats why you came upon my blog and even bother to write an entry about me and him. -___-

I could be vulgar just like you do, but I choose not to.
Cause I ain’t stooping that low.
I’ve never deemed myself perfect. I have my flaws
But real beauty is skin deep

Lets just say your true beauty reveals.
All your discrimations about me, just show how ugly you can be and come on, you don't even know me well enough to even start judging on me.

Said that you’re not gonna waste your time on such trivia..
Let me show you how.

.period.

That’s how.

p/s: if he really was nothing to you, why bother reaching him on his phone, asking him of his well-being? And funny that one of those times, i was there by his side, and i was actually okay with it -____-" and come on, we all know you only find him when you are quarrelling with your bf.

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DUNNO WAT THE HECK DOES THIS WORLD WANTS FROM ME ALSO.

When i said leave me alone, it sure does say,
leave my problems alone too.

You're not making me any happier, when u start talking.
I just need no one to figure out whats right for me right now.
and to conclude about what i just post.

All i wanted, was a sorry. nothing more.
So pls, if you ever want to see me again,
you better stop thinking about what i'm suffering from right now.

See, that's just what i hate.
Having me to worry about other things.

And and, kindda hate any girls who tries to make any form of connection to my bf too.

Hate his past.
All of em girls.

Its either, you regret or you live with it.
What's past has past.
And i've got the right to say it.

It sucks when it comes to sunday.

"dan aku bermohon,
maafkan aku..."

everything's messed up.
everything's not right, right now.

I feel the lowest i've ever been.
Im suffering and all i can do is hide.
Im on crisis. Im scared. Im fucking scared.
I cried myself to sleep.
I wish i coould bear with everything.
I wish i would'nt have to throw it.

Im weak. Soo weak.
Im on my mood swings.
Throwing temper at the bf is all i could do.
But i did'nt mean to, im sorry.

Pimples start showing, that shows how fucking stressed i am.
Cant believe i have to go through all of this.
But im thankful that bf and sis is going to be by my side.

Poly's life is gonna be over.
And i don't even know if i should be happy about it or sad.

But i know, that one thing is for sure after all these painful and happy life in RP, i met up with people whom i really cared about. But among all these happy happy memories, i definitely did appreciate meeting this one particular girl whom i know i can look upon too. She had always been like my sister. And she could always be trusted. I actually wish that nothing could ever break our friendship after these years. And i hope that we could stick together till forever. And i mean it. Even if something were to happen, i want this girl to know that she'll always be in my heart.

She had always lend me a listening ear when i needed the most and she had never failed to tell me that she's sick listening to my stories.
She made me cry trying to do a reverse psychology when she knew that my heart was breaking and that all she wants from me, is to be happy.
She's someone i can talk to till the wee hours in the morning.
She's always there when i needed her the most.
She's always trying to console me with the crappiest joke ever.

And she... is eliane. =D

But at the same time in my life in RP, i met people who can't be trusted. And people who seem to change through the years. And forgive me, I can't even recognize what they've turned into