burdae

my life,
is lyk the colour of my hair.
it fades away,
loosing its vibrance.

east coast accident

morning, leasha came take all the stuff they left at my house. Me and elizabeth took train. overall, bbq was ok la. riding was tiring. the worse part was me and elizabeth riding together. And BAM!! We knocked into each other. It was with a great force sia. That my camera kemek. Hulermak itu pompan nyer badan. Tak nak kalah. My mind was totally blank after tat. We sat in the middle lyk nobody business. Lyk fuck! i was so damn scared. and she kept telling me to go fer a repair. Sorry fer your backbone btw! HAHAHAAHAHA. Who the hell ask her to stop in the middle of nowhere! aiyoyoyoyoyoi

shitty

went to follow leia buy her prom stuff.

fucking tired.

went to topshop and saw this beautiful shirt i like.

66 bucks.

love at ferst sight.

but. no size.

it was too huge for me.

fuck! i want it!

and the topshop sales assist is hot!

gosh! he's so hot.

his eyes, argh! kills me.

Im melting, Im melting, in your eyes.

hahaha.

still i want that shirt.

i want it!

but leia was bz finding her stuffs.

tat i got no tym to buy that shirt!

argh!

im too sick and tired of thinking.
i cried.
but there's no point in crying.
i feel like shit.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Haiiiii. i juz dun understand myself.

I hate to miss chances.

Letting go is what i would do the best.

I hate it!

Why do i always have to be lyk this?

I'm sick and tired of thinking!

I hate it!

Argh! i fuckin hate myself.

Maybe wat sis say is true.

But hey. i was born and being raised TOO well.

I'm so sorry to whom i hurt.

I just wish i could change the way i am.

but i can't.

Can i?

Screaming Eyes

Screaming Eyes
At first, looking at her
You’d never know
All the pain she’ll never show
The way she carries herself
The way she walks,
the way she acts
You’d never know
The joy her life lacks

Hidden in amber pools of light
There’s a sadness that comes out at night
And she’s laughing on the outside looking in
Putting on a mask to hide her sins

As she runs worn fingers through her hair
She screams out loud
For someone to take away the despair
The way she stares
You’d never know
How she has no one who cares
But she won’t let you see
Just how the world brought her to her knees

Look deeper than those amber pools of light
There’s a sadness that comes out at night
And she’s laughing on the outside looking in
Putting on a mask to hide her sins

There’s a longing for someone who gives a damn
To save her where no one else can
The tired truth rests at bay
But only when she’s busy all day

And even then
You might just see the trying times inside
You might see it in her eyes
Loneliness and pain-this is where it lies
And only she knows that this is how she dies
It shows in those screaming eyes
-Author's note- Song lyrics/poem are copyrighted: Copyright 2002 Amber Wright