Im sitting here in school, and only one person crosses my mind.
Nick. And I know today’s gonna be the day that he books out.
But here i am, missing him.
I realise that he always took his time to meet me the moment when he books out of camp even if its in the early morning.
And even when its pouring so heavily.
I realise that he would even spend Saturday and Sunday with me without fail.
And then he would book into camp again on Sunday night.
I really hate ns. Because NS took you away from me.
I hate night-time too. Because night-time take me away from you too.
In fact i hate everything that would take you away from me.
Sometimes i wonder why our heart works in such a way that we’ll just tend to miss them so bad even for a few second after we part ways.
And we just wish that we could have them all for ourselves.
And sometimes i just wish that he is this small little toy where i could put him in my pocket
and have him for myself, everywhere, anywhere, i go. Haha.
Yes, Thats how selfish i can turn into.
And i know that it’s all because of you.
But I think, that’s just how this-thing-called love works.
It’s really complicated ain’t it?
And that’s why i love you even more.
But i know i can’t have him all for myself because he got other people who loves him too just like how i do too.
And to you b,
I should be thankful that i have a bf who would actually spend most of his days with me.
Even when his dead tired after booking out of camp.
And Even when he got no bike. Haha. He would travel all the way to sembawang by bus.
And he would jog his ass all the way from woodlands to sembawang too.
I should be thankful that my bf cares a lot about me.
And when im sick, he would force me to drink more water. Hahahaha.
I really thank you for everything.
You colour my world even brighter when you stepped into my life.
You paint me a lot of pictures in my walls.
Some happy ones and some sad ones.
But most importantly you thaught me what it is to be loved.
Hee. I love you bf.
B, i know im such a pain in the ass this few days.
And i know its hard for you to tahan me sometimes.
Im really sorry for those days where i got you mad okay?!
And i love how you always give in to me even when i feel that it’s my fault.
