Okay, life is pretty much a misery for me right now.

Okay, life is pretty much a misery for me right now.
Yes. i mean seeeriously.
Okay, warning this entry may be explicit.

So saturday, i thought my day was gonna be purfect.
I thought my day was gonna be normal.
but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, feeeling seeeeriously fucked up luh rite now.
And adding up to that fuckedup-ness, i had to face evil mens on earth.
Yes, I received one, two, three? huge tight slap with this beings they called... urm... heartless. and that one being is someone whom i called... my dad!
Fuck luh! January, is just a bad month to start with.
seriously. It's always january when such things happen.
I dun get it seriously, why the fuck he have to make such small little things to be soooo... big! ERGH!
I cried, and i cried, and i cried.
Im tired already.
This is the point of time in my life where i seriously think that life, is fucking meaningless.
So why live sia?!
he's getting on my fucking nerve oready.
and worst still, he have to drag it all till today luh.
I woke up early in the morning, because i had plans.
and since elia stayed over at my house, i plan to go out with her instead.
But, this ass, i did'nt know why the fuck he came barging into my bro's room and shouted at me saying "EH, YOU WANT TO RUNAWAY, YOU JUST PACK YOUR THINGS AND LEAVE! JUST LEAVE! I DUN CARE AH!"

EHHH HELLO FUCK! LISTEN TO ME EH. YOU WANT ME TO LEAVE YOU JUST SAY LUH!! I CAN LEAVE WHENEVER I WANT TOO OSO LUH! CHHEEEEEEEEEBYEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! I DON'T EVEN BOTHER LUH! IM NOT LIKE YOU OSO LUH FUCKER, I HAVE FEELINGS.. UNLIKE YOU. ERGHHHH
$@#$@#%$%#%^%$^#^$#^$%#$^#$^#%$#^%#^%$&^$&#%@$#%$#.

how i wished, my grandma is still alive. cuz i know, if she was, i would be by her side at this particular timing. I miss her. gosh, im seriously hurt now. I am. I was treated lyk an object to you!!

Now im lyk at eliane's crib writing all this shit. i can't take it luh seriously.
I had enough with him.

I know he's my dad. I know. I still love him, but i just cant take it uh seriously.
And if he felt that i've changed, then feel sorry for urself... because u made me!
YOU! made me now. asss.

So okay, angers aside, i had fun with them last night.
Tho itwas embarassing at first but it was fun later on.
With them, it felt like as if all my problems were gone.
free from everything.
So yea, i got home at ard 5 in the morning.
Eliane stayed over.
and now... im at her place.

boohooo.
fuckeduplifeihavenow.