:'(

It hurts. And what's strange was that, all along, its what i've wanted.
and im not sure if im ever doing the right thing.

Its funny how i cried. Im crying because im losing a friend, and i guess this friend is what i call special. I hate the feeling tho, it's like, im lying to myself. But i've been thinking about it so long ago. I told myself, this would all happen, only if we were to spent our time to go out again. And we did. I thought, it was time to tell. and i did. and it definitely seems like it is the right time.

But funny that, it was'nt me who started the ending. All i did was questioning, and It was you who said everything like it was going to end. That definitely reflect, that you sumhow dun bother at all, maybe. But u said, u said, Don't cry, don't go. And a part of me wanted to stay. But i tried so hard, and i cant move on. I need to move on. I want to.

I really thought yesterday was fun, and i wanted more of that, but, i don't think we'll ever do it again. It just hurt sumtyms to look at you when u left me with all those confusion marks in my head. You need to be in my position to understand myself.

You want to be friends,We can be friends, and that is the reason why im doing all this. i need you to give me some time, to get over you.
And when that day comes, when i can really take you as a friend, and that i'll never bother about your sweet words.
then i'll talk to you. you know that.

im really gonna miss you. i do.
im gonna miss everything.
and god knoes, why the hell am i still crying rite now.