f e e l i n g s

My shadow's only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone

selera raye!
pOsTeD bY mINah

pakcik!
pOsTeD bY mINah

yea!! hari raye!!
pOsTeD bY mINah

nenek!
pOsTeD bY mINah

cute la tuu irah!
pOsTeD bY mINah

t o m m o r o e h a r i r a y e ! ! !

yea yea! tommoroe hari raye!! can't wait... u knoe wat i can't wait?? i can't wait to get $$$ muahahaha... not bcoz i'm money minded la... but i wanna go shoppin man... can't wait can't wait! wanna buy levi's jeans... snow cap... trucker cap... black tee's... shoes... make up accesories!! haizzzz.... if i got enough money la... haha... but wat i hate about hari raye.... the first day, nak kene mitak maaf! haizz... makes me cry onli... haha... make my make up spoil la!

f u c k e d u p

been soo fucked up... haizz... especially u knoe, with my fren(erm is she?)... dunno wat too say la... it's never too late fer a change... am i rite?! but well.. it's up to you actualli if u wanna change or not... u said we are too late fer advising u... yea... i knoe we are too late... but how the fuck are we goin to tell u if u keep dissapearing frm us... put urself in our situation... will u have the chance to tell me tat i change if i keep running away from u? maybe u feel that u do hv tymm... but do feel it's easy to tell if i am ur bestest bud?? u knoe wat? i'm juz not goin to think abt this... forget our friendship... tat's it...

f u * c k e r

hmmm... let me tell u how i feel... u knoe... it's been three year's we've become a fren... yea... i do treat u as a fren... but sumtyms... u are one hell of a gerl which i dun lyk... on the 22nd of september 2004... i realise wat kind of a fren are you... u treat us lyk a spare tyre gerl... did u realise that?! yea... fuck u... fuck u! u knoe wat... i think it's true... u do dump him fer another guy... yea maybe it's rite we are the ones who spread it but hey... it's not a fuckin rumours gerl... it's fuckin true! hey bitch... tell me who the fuck who would cuddled a guy on the ferst date... and yea... u only knew him fer lyk 1 day and the next thing we knoe... u fuckin stead with him... tell me who the fuck will do that... u even told us... u think people who are lyk this are fuckin bitches... ermmm... now ask urself... are u 1? u knoe i hate minah's well... if u are one... stop entering my life... lets pretend the 3 years did'nt happen... it's such a waste of my tym fucker... if i knew who u are... man... i dun fuckin hang out wwith u fucker! u knoe wat gerl?! the worse thing is that u wear tudong! juz wear lah fucker! u are the one who told me that u urself wanted to wear tudong... so wear la... nak bukak bukak buat per?! nak ambik gamba pon nak bukak ke... u think we realli mean it when we say ur hair looks great?! yea maybe the colour does... but that fuckin maggi u have stuck on ur hair... man! u shud see it fer ur self! u knoe... u've hurt our feelingS! sumtyms we even wait fer u after school... the next thing we knoe?! u dissapeared... do you knoe how that feel fucker! it hurts! but wadever... let's call it a quit... u and us! NOT TOGETHER! go hang ard with ur fuckin new cool frens... and ouh... if after schl.. u find out unais is goin back with fairoz and gangs... dun try to find us no more... coz we fuckin hate bitches... and we fuckin hate u! so dun fuckin treat us lyk a fuckin spare tyre's fucker! yea wadever... i knoe i use to much of the word fuck... so juz fuckin feel how we are fuckin feelin! NOVEMBER 7... I WILL REMEMBER THIS DAY... WELL IF U DUN... I DUN FUCKIN CARE! BUT U SHUD FUCKIN REALISE WAT U ARE FUCKIN DOIN! FUCKER!

7 a m

woah... it's 7 am sia and yet i'm still not sleepin... haha.... all becoz i chatted with donkey's fren... fun seh chat with him... can tok craps... we even tok about sex... haha... but not too open la... tok tok tok... then play games... play checkers at first and he's so damn good in it... so i ask him to play pool... i win all da tym... muakhahahaha!! hafiz kalah! hmmm... after we played like ermm 5 or 7 times, he said he wanna take a shower... so i told him i'm gonna sleep fer a while... skali... i sleep till 3 pm... hahaha.... watever... at night, i went to causeway point with my sister to buy hair dye... i buy the colour medium intense golden blonde hahaha... at ard 1, i use the dye la... can't wait wat... and it turns out... perfectly nothin! not nothin la... got colour... but not that obvious...

D o w n . . .

todae, after my malay dance practice... i and azimah lepak kat mua block... we were tokin bout sum bitch... then i tok about what i'm gonna buy wen i got my money after hari raye... we oso tok bout donkey and garfield... haizz... i'm madly in love... haha... while tokin, i heard the sound of a skateboard... i was shocked! i ask azi if she heard it to? she said yea... but she say it was a scooter... coz there's a kid playin scooter sumwhere... i was lyk... haiz... if onli it was him... so we continued tokin... suddenly, pakistan pass us... OMG... pakistan is donkey's fren... i was lyk is he there? but sadly he's not... there's ilham, pakistan and two of their frens... "when will i see him next?" i ask azi... then we started tokin bout donkey... tok tok tok till 6.30pm... went up to my home and my mom told me we are goin to break our fast at mc d's... i quickly get ready... but i did use the computer fer a while... and i chatted with donkey's fren fer a while... i was actually goin to wear my vans shirt, but to think back i'm onli goin to sun plaza... fer what i'm gonna dress up... so i wore my pe shirt... after eating at mc d's, my mom wanted to buy things at the cake shop... as the shop was at the mrt station, we went to the mrt station la... skali... i saw this cute guy wearin a snowcap... from far, i thought it was a gerl, but lookin closer, it was a guy... and this guy, was actually with donkey... man, my heart was melting over DONKEY... although his fren were much more cuter... i dunno why i'm so attracted to him... there's sumthing abt him... when i was lookin at him, he was lookin at me... so i turn away coz i was shy... i did'nt have a chance to see him fer long... i was so freakin shocked at that tym... i told my mom that tat's donkey! tat's donkey! so my mom turn back and look at him... and my mom told me tat he was lookin at my direction... i was lyk... haizz... sumtyms, it hurts me to see him... sumtyms, i pray fer a miracle to happen... sumtyms, i even cry at night... but nothing seems to be happening...

s h o p p i n

todae, went to orchard with ila and azi after skool... haizz... tiring... coz i end up with emptyy hands... i juz could'nt find a thing to buy... went to far east and heeren... while goin towards heeren, i asw this guy with his gal... and his sooooo familiar lookin.... hmmm... still could'nt figure out who he was.... then went goin back from orchard... i told ila and azi theres sumthing on my mind which i could'nt tell themm... haha... i give them clue which was 'it ends with di... it's before a lady... and it's rolling...' haha... they were trying damn hard to guess it... but they could'nt.... so i give them no. to break the code... but stilll they could'nt get the answer... hahaha... keciann... i'm soo crazy todae.... crazy about sumthing... haha... then went to northpoint to meet my parents to break my fast...

S i d e w a l k

Sidewalk - story of the year

The bridges are crumbled,
The water soaks into rocks,
That fell at the bottom of the road. (At the end the town)
The town that we lived in.
The memories shakin apart from the weeds that grow.

Over the sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
Oh

Out on the front porch,
watching the cars as they go by,
Eighteen blue, twenty one grey,
Looking ahead for the first time that we could drive,
Out on our own,
To speed away

From the sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
Oh

All of days that past us by,
All of the sun is gone...
Away

Sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,

Sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
(Sidewalks)
The bridges are crumbled,
The water soaks into rocks,
(Sidewalks)
That fell at the bottom of the road.