Wow I haven't been blogging much have I? Well obviously, I'm too caught up with work. Working shifts is the last thing I ever imagined I would do after graduation. Looking at my family, only me and my dad is the ones who seem to be working our ass of at night. Been thinking of quiting, but every single moment I felt like it, money stop me. I kept think, my increment was heaven, my allowance was heaven, the welfare is heaven, why quit?! Worst still, they are going to ammend sergeants pay with effect of July to 2.1k and above. 3 month bonus?! Furthermore, I'm getting along well with the girls in the locker. So why leave?! Sighhhh.

Boyfie is joining aetos and we both will work shifts, sighh I kindda am happy for him but at the same time afraid of what may come.

I kindda hate thinking about careers. Sometimes, life is much simpler when u study and take exams. I think it'd be much better to study and get paid at the same time.

Anyway I love it when I have my boy arm to sleep on, because everything just goes away, and life is much peaceful that way. I just want it to remain that way can?!

i told love

"syg its so sad to see people coming back from work and WE are just gg to work"
"we are special, be proud that u are serving the goverment"

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and i just turned down CNB's offer


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selling this in BLACK




selling this in BLACK

size 37 (im normally size 36 tho but it fits well)
at $70
Very Brand New

iPhone

I got an iPhone for myself and i'm glad I can post entries anytime I want to.




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i got plans for babys mom on cny. she has been really nice to me. giving her stuffs in which she don't wear anymore. and the fact that i always crash at baby's home, she's been planning to have one of the room for me and him. thinking of buying a bed and stuffs. hahaha. she's so funny and supportive at the same time.

and i look forward for shopping on feb with baby.
ive got plans with baby for our anny.
my family got plans for a getaway this april, and tat includes my bf too.

and i can't wait!!

TP is coming so soon. and i bet i'd fail the first try.

but i pray for the best of course.

after getting the license.

im gonna get my bike license too.

hahaha. im lucky enough that after much disagreement of bf not letting me ride a bike,

he finally came to a decision that his letting me get a bike license.

Im young, and i wanna get all this experience.

today i realized something about my family.

i realized that the only person who's there willingly to help me thru my helpless times is my sister and my parents.

Today, i also realised that, theres just this one person, who just suck. He suck. He thinks he's all that. and that is, my brother. Yes, my brother. Who might be reading this. yes you. because this is the only means to reach you. you know, i just don't care anymore. i reached that point of time in my life, that i give up on you. Eat your heart out, yes, i don't care. I'll never look back upon this and apologise, i swear. because, YOU OWE ME AN APOLOGY BIG TIME.

You put people in pain, and you don't even realise. because why? you're egoistic.

I take this words that you told me "Kau ingat eh minah, bila aku susah, tak pernah aku nak carik kau!"

my say, you said it because, you got that money and of cuz being you you think you're all that. LOOK, I asked you to buy that camera because i know you're interested in buying a new one too. NOT BECAUSE I NEEDED HELP. if you hadnt buy that camera, i still would'nt struggle, im still doing good. KAU PIKIR EH, probably this is the first time i ever asked you for money, and YOU ALREADY DA START UNGKIT2. eh, da brape banyak kali aku pinjam kakak duit when I REALLY NEED HELP, and pls, never once she ungkit about the money she helped me with.

Think about it, I NEVER SAY I WOULD'NT KEEP TO MY PROMISE. But from what i see, that camera has been in your hands and out with you for so many times. MORE than i ever get to bring it out. and in that fight, you already brought up about the car! about not letting me using it.

take this analogy, your damn car is still under installment, You're only giving it to me because you know that im gonna continue the installment for you and used that car more than you do.

same goes for my camera. Im still under installment by you. But, say if you hve been using my camera more than i do, Then for what i wanna continue the installment.

BETUL TAK?!

one things for sure, you're clever. Youre clever at manipulating people. I wanted the camera as my birthday present, and i was so happy the day i saw it, and asked if it was my birthday present. BUT WAT DID YOU SAY? "Tak de ah! nanti aku beli flash, itu mak and kakak share belikan" Its obvious isnt it?! You wanted the flash and the camera for ur friends wedding photo. and u wanted to pay for that flash so that you'd only pay little and i have to pay the rest?

Doesnt that just shows how kental you are?

I've always wondered why we drifted that far. that far, that i feel so awkward sometimes being with you.

maybe that shows, you're never like a brother to me.

and i have always wished we were close like little times.

its funny,

"at least i wanted to BUY and PAY for your car... "

i really hope the best for ur future.

You already need help about your life.

but you know what? remember this words "Kau ingat eh minah, bila aku susah, tak pernah aku nak carik kau!"

trust me, you're slowly losing your family too. because why, our existense, means nothing to you.

you're just SELFISH about EVERYTHING. from your life to your car...

i paid the full amount today, and i dun care if im broke or anything because of you.

because why? youre not worth my time. you take, and you dun touch my camera like how you don't let my own sister touch your car. that's how imma play it. i play your game. because in the end, i have my sister and my mom whos nothing like you at all. who pinjam sekali je da ungkit.

YOU ARE NEVER GOING TO MAKE IT.

YOU'RE LOSING OUT.

YOU'RE A FAILURE.

2010 is gonna be a great year.
2009 was bliss.

i started out with going jb with bf in the middle of the night. in which i never had done b4, on the bike.
i wanna do crazy things this year.

i wanna take gmax!!

And most importantly, i'm gonna drive and im gonna get my bros car!