doctor doctor!

DOCTOR DOCTOR! PENS PRESSURE FAILING!!!
hahaha. Ok dammit! my tablet pens pressure is not working well.
dammit. dammit. dammit.
now im gonna have a hard time colouring.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
anyone have any idea wat's wrong?!
let me know if you know.

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I miss you like crazy, every minute of every day.

Hoh! another vector.
Yeap, again, me.
WTH. i know.
But since i tot the picture was'nt very detailed.
So y not kan. does'nt kill to try does it?!
haha.
urm, i was listening the song home by michael buble throughout the whole time.
really nice song to listen to at times like that.
makes you calm... *mcm paham luh kan*
Im falling in love with the song.
*I WANNA GO HOME!!!!*
oh wait, im already at home bodoh.
urr, wait, wth am i telling you guys this?!
seriously, i dunno either.
Probably cuz my brain ain't working that well right now.
Cuz u know why?!
ITS FUCKEN 6 IN THE MORNING!
and im still awake right now.
dammit.

Nurul sayang, dah kul 6 i blum tido luh! hahahhaha
besok kluar mcm mane ni?!
i dun think i can make it uh.
i'll text u tmr kay.

xoxo.

We all fall in love sometimes

I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

Sometimes, in life you just can't get what you want.
It will never go the way you want it to be.
And you have to bare with it.

You know, i learn something out of this thing called life.
Sometimes when you just love that someone so bad, you have to learn to let it go at times. Because in this world, Someday, or eventually, there comes a day where we have to learn to let go of them. Truth is, you come into this world alone and you leave exactly the same way. This love im refering to, could be anyone in your life, be it your parents, your siblings, your soulmates, your friends, your new-found love or probably even your pet! hah. But for now, whom im refering to is my sister.

As much as i love her as my sister, the great times we spent together, sometimes, we just have to end it right there. Im not saying that its gonna stop there oranything. Its just that i have to realise, the times we spent together will be a lot lesser in time to come. I've been relying on her a lot. And i mean it, A LOT. But for now, here comes a stage where she found a new life in her. A new life to share with her husband and i understand that she'll have to spend most of her time with him comparing to how she's gonna spent the time with me.

See, at times, u must'nt be selfish. U have to learn to let go. Because soon enough, you'll reached that stage too, and probably, that will be the time when your love ones feels the same way as i am right now. And then, that is the time when they'll have to learn to let go.

So, What im trying to say here is that, everyone has to learn to let go of the ones they love. because eventually, you have to. and you need to.

Now, why am i saying such things?
I overheard my sis saying about moving out. and he was saying "Kesian minah nanti kene keluar balik." and so, i asked them what's up. So, she told me she'll be moving out soon.

And omg at that moment, my tears were storing up in my errrr...... *now help me science student!* ahhaha, nak tunggu jatuh je! I tried to controlled my stupid tears from running down. And i keep telling myself, keep it back keep it back now minah! hahaha. but stupid tears came running down. I really need to control my tears well luh. sheeeeeeeeeesh.

Do you know that, my dad is the king of making my tears run down so easily?!
Once shout, it'll pour down lyk rain drops luh. haha.
No, not cengeng okay. Its a state where people call it, HURT. haha.

So yea, anyways, back to where i was,
Don't you just wish that sometimes, you could live in a house with the ones you love.
But think about it, that will be too selfish don't you think?!
Because, its only what YOU want.
And Not what everybody wants.
And if everyone wants it that way,
even a house could never fit everyone in.
grr.

Okay, so here goes todays crap.
I dun even know if im making sense. But yea.
LET GO GODDARNIT!

So, my sis is on vacation....
My friends went to cambodia, which i did'nt even know they already did, not until yest when loga's bf told me so. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmph!

Now, where am i? Where the hell am i?!
here ok.
writing shits.
watching the day pass me by.
still in singapore eh!
STILL!
at home luh noob! mane lagi!
dammit. haha.

nurul sayang, aqila sayang,
date luh i. hahhahaha!
eeeeeeeeee-yerrrrrrrrr.

I thought love was black and white

I know this is kindda late.
But lemme just update about a day before valentines.

So, the day before valentine, i was having a chalet.
It was actually a surprised chalet made especially for our dearest eliane.
Yes, it was her bdae, and my gf turned 20.
20 is a big number for you small girl.
Ey, small is cute okay chicka.
HAHAHA. stay cute and stop being such an emo kid alryte!=D

So on her birthday, we made a secret plan with her ex-bf.
We told her we was'nt free on her bdae and that she should just go out with her ex-bf instead.

It was funny how we actually shouted happy birthday to her.
We were standing at one corner of the room, thinking that she would actually pass the way that we thought she would.
So we stupidly stand and hide at one corner with the kanchiong acts on us.
What we did'nt know was, she actually walked from the back.
So there she goes getting a preview of how kan-chiong we were, holding a cake, getting ready with the camera and stuff.
The funny thing is that, when she walked passed us, we actually did'nt notice it was her.
SHE WAS SUPER DIFFERENT THAT DAY LUH! I SWEAR SHE WAS.
she actually looked like a minah from afar. HAAHAHA
So we was'nt sure. she looked really malay that day.

we were like err, is that eliane?! IS THAT ELIANE?!
... 5 seconds to think ...
..uh... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! hahahhaha.

So yea.
Quite a no of BBQ food were left uneaten cuz birthday girl was full.
then we played the game the king of kings.
Last king was always zhi yang. Hahahha. that gotta suck.

So anyways, here are some of the pictures.

Elia's 20th birthday

Almost lovers

Kay, today was fun.
But i'll update about that tmr.
Because, im really really tired.

So, rite now i decided to do what nurul wants me to do.

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
1) I Prefer to be called siti
2) I love cocoa cream puffs
3) I have a crush on this boy name, ryan guettler.
4) If my computer was a male, probably i'd marry him.
5) I love trying out new stuffs.
6) I have this addiction to volcom dresses.
7) My pee is yellow in colour. Urm, what's urs? HAHAHAHA

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1) INSECTS!
2) blood
3) losing someone.
4) DADDY
5) death.
6) lonely.
7) future.

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT
1) thunder - boys like girls
2) where i stood - missy higgins
3) fall for you - secondhand serenade
4) myspace girl - the afters
5) i miss you love - silverchair
6) time of your life - greenday
7) forget my name - nfg

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1) SHEEESH
2) suppp!
3) wth
4) ahahha
5) diam eh
6) aiyer
7) ey hey!

7 STUFF THAT I TREASURE THE MOST
1) olympus DSLR
2) psp
3) my phone
4) the ring on my fingers
5) my dress
6) laptop
7) drawing tablet

7 "1st time" things i ever did
1) raising my voice at my dad once.
2) pierced my tounge myself. Which eventually turn out to be a total failure.
3) stranggled a guy cuz he pisses me off, back then in primary. and i still remember his name. he was aldren. SORRY you're just a pain in the ass back then~! HAHA
4) public caning in primary school for shouting and jumping on the table during recess. WTH! I KNOW!!
5) partying.
6) drinking.
7) smoking. ONCE.


7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS
1) Aqila
2) Eliane
3) Mira
4) liana
5) nidzar
6) azimah
7) anyone kay, because i knoe no one would. so why bother?!
hahahhaahaa

something told me to run

Some how, i love the lyrics of the song.
and im starting to love the song.

I don't know what i've done
Or if i like what i've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That i should go and this should end
Oh and i found my self listening

Cause i don't know who i am, who i am without you
All i know is that i should
And i don't know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i should
Cause she will love you more then i could
She who dares to stand where i stood

See i thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you aren't leaving without a fight
And i think i am just as torn inside

Cause i don't know who i am, who i am without you
All i know is that i should
And i don't know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i should
Cause she will love you more then i could
She who dares to stand where i stood

And I wont be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me then any one i've ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself
And so i say to you, this is what i have to do.

Cause i don't know who i am, who i am without you
All i know is that i should
And i don't know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i should
Cause she will love you more then i could
She who dares to stand where i stood
She who dares to stand where i stood.

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful

Word!! just when i thought i wanted to get into msn today.
He have to scare the shit out of me.

Is it just me?
or has everyone already heard about it?
or is he just crapping.
haaaaaaaaah.


eeeee-yerrrrr!!! and he have to say it right when im sitting down in the living room alone.
sheessssssh!
im blasting the sound system so loud right now.
and i dare not look at the windows! dammit.

Skali ade whistle eh, then die ckp "hi aminah, lawanye u nye sleeping pants! mane beli?! nak kenal2 bleh?"
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
okay merepek.

Im sick of waking up late everyday.
and im sick that my fringe is getting shorter day by day.
dammit.

Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts.

Don't you find it weird sometimes?
Being able to hear 2 sides of urself talking in ur head.
And that it makes you confused, on which to listen to.
And sometimes, you just find yourself ending up with the wrong choices.

So anyways, i watched a little manhattan yesterday.
movie was really cute and funny.
It's about first love.
Go and watch!

Ahh, don't you just hate thinking about first loves?
Come to think of it, i never had one.
But somehow, i definitely felt it.
When you can't get over it for days, even months, or even years, or even forever.
Sheeeeesh.
Crap huh.

So anyways, i did a new vector.
Boy, im getting sick of doing a vector of myself.
i wanna do a guy the next tym round.





Love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools. It'll trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor. And what does it really get you in the end? Nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake. The truth is, there's gonna be other boys out there. I mean, I hope. But I'm never gonna get another first love. That one is always gonna be him.

i tried my best.

Tonight is the night that i will fall for you..

Yey! and so GPA'S out and lucky enough, i manage to maintain it to the same level.
Its not going up, still, its not going down either.
So so pathetic! But its okay!
as long as its a passed, alhamdullilah.

I learn something throughout the year,
That no matter how much you skipped your lessons, and no matter how much you don't pay attention in class, its all worth it. hahahahha! really. This semester, i skipped almost 4 days per lesson with a 2 D's on my daily grades, but still, i manage to get a B.
Oh wow, im actually surprised.
But of course, you have to pull up your grades on your Understanding Test.
So basically kan, what imma trying to say here is that... RP's a lousy school to be at.

But now, im really scared about FYP tho.
grr.

So what if i say, my sis is pregnant?!
OMG. I can't imagine that luh.
it's like, a chopstick being taped with a ping pong ball.
HAHAHHAHHAHHAHA.
sheeeeeesh.

But no luh, she ain't okay.

Oh, currently, im watching american idol.
There's this boy name, david.
Boy, i like his voice.

GET ME A JOB SOMEONE!!!!!
Im bored. movie anyone?

Oh boy, I think im in love

Yeap, im in love with this man.
Green arrow aka quinn oliver.

boy he so hot hot hot.
Ahhh, im just glad his back in smallville.

too bad things between he and lois are'nt that good now.
TAPI TAKPE!! minah ade. dun worry =D
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA.

come to think of it, IF luh, if there's such things called superheroes.
And probably, one of ur closest friend is one of them.
Well, let's say both of you have feelings for each other.
Would you be with him?

If it was me, probably i would'nt.
i dunno eh.
Not saying that im selfish or anything.
As much as i love him, i would'nt want to share him with the world.
I would'nt wanna see him fight his life, saving the world, while all i can do is to watch.

hahahaha. okay, topic merepek.
Nitez!

i actually do... =D

Just another day (Another vector)

Just another day

i thought of doing something different, but i end up with this.
ergh.
so dull.

oooooh benny lava haha

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH

OKAY I SWEAR THIS IS FUNNY.
and the person created this video, probably got nothing better to do.



"My loony bun is fine benny lava~!" "All of them like the bun~! Now poop on them Oliver"

i owe you my heart

OH OH.
im growing cheeks.
DAMMIT.
ok minah, stop eating.
be happy.
omg. i have to stop all this nonsense.
momma says im getting fat.
sister said i look fatter.
wan said, omg u look obese.
ASS.

paranoia.

hah.

obviously im not planning to go out today.
im catching the notebook later on.

OMG. this laughter, "huhuhuhuhu"
irritates the hell out of me.
then the word... "lawa la can"
irritates the hell out of me.
when they type lyk "HeLLO How ArE YOu Doing"
irritates the hell out of me.
the word "yawwwwwwwwww"
irritates the hell out of me.

ok this video made me laugh.
stop the music. listen. watch. concentrate. analyse.

I SWEAR THIS IS DISGUSTING!! WARNING

I SWEAR THIS IS DISGUSTING!!!

WARNING : BLOOD INVOLVED!!

I WAS BITING MY TEETH REAL HARD WHILE WATCHING THESE VIDEOS.

GROSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!
okay, im not gonna try skating or bmx.
period.

Give me time. I need time

i think liana and aqila asked me b4, what do i look like without make up.
so yea, that's me without make up! huahahahaha.
obviously, i've got nothing better to do luh kan! so that explains the top pictures.
i spend almost 6 hours lying on the ground, in front of the doorway, with music blast into my ears while illustrating vector.
so yea, this is prety much how i spent my day when im bored.
i turned, me and aqila into a vector!

and so, i tot... white hair was cool. hah!
and finally, the end result
AND STILL, im not satisfied with this one.
Still working on it!

eh, to all my chinese friends, GONG XI FA CAI! hahaha.

So, tuesday, went out with the classmates to east coast.
and boy, im so tired.
and i mean, REALLY tired.
my ass hurts, my leg hurts, my toe hurts, my body aches.
daymn.
but it was fun tho.
i had fun.

i'll upload the videos soon kay.
some are on my imeem.
here