Thus from my lips, by thine, my sin is purged.

Its sunday again!
gahhh. you know how it is.
Sometimes i just wish he could like put me in his huge army bag and bring me along. HAHAHA. I bet he'll give up halfway.
but, gahhh. ns a bitch. and it sucks for me. What more for him?
I bet his feeling double the suckiness in there.
I can't get to see him for 2 weeks now.
Gonna miss him a lot.
Take good care of yourself in there kay love?!
I love ya!

I think, im gonna be sick soon.
I feel the itch on the back of my throat.
And i seem to have running nose now.
My body is so restless.
I hate it when im sick.

And whats the deal with my mom now?
I don't know if she's like too damn bored.
But she keeps on calling and calling when im out.
I swear i hate it.
And now, she's like asking me where's my keys.
Im just so sick! SO SICK OF THE NAGGINGS.
Its okay to ask me 1 time, same goes as, calling me 1 time.
But she tend to repeat again and again.

You know how irritating it is when u play a music and it got stuck halfway?
Yea. that's exactly how irritating she is.
Im blasting my headphones off, and yet she keeps on yacking and yacking.

This cracks me out so bad

This cracks me out so bad.
hahhahaha.

An open heart, to let her in.

She needs to know.
just one thing.
An open heart, to let her in.

I was born to discover that im raised up with 2 talents.
A talent, and a hidden talent.

A hidden talent that has become very addictive.
A misused in it can caused me a lot of pain.
But in a way, it had somehow helped me a lot.

Its always a risk im taking.
Its either, can u bare with it? or are u going to pine on it.
Such things come unexpectedly.
And they lead you to the truth when sometimes, u had no intentions to.
Its all about feelings that somehow leads you there.

I know i should'nt pine about it neither should i bare with it.
Because there isn't any need to. The problem lies in me, myself and i.
Whether i can do it or not.
Its simple.

she cries.

She struggles a lot.
She cries. She turns to suicidal.
She's lost. She turns to no one but herself.
She pines.

He cries. She cries. He regretted the mistakes he had done.
His lost. He tries so hard to turn back time.
He tried so hard. So hard. To win that heart back.
But he just could'nt.

Both hearts felt so right together.
But both just had to end it.

Now, she's lost.
She's sad.
She envy the fact that 2 hearts are so strong together.
And that her pure heart, can't seem to break 1 of the heart free.
Because she can never be the same or anywhere near hers.
But shes trying.

She would do anything for him.
But she find it so hard to show him, his loved.
Because shes always confused. Always.
If his love for her, was it genuine or was it just a trial.
Was she just another girl to him?

She just can't do it.
She needs to know.
just one thing.
An open heart, to let her in.

It makes me sad to read up on stuffs i should'nt have.

The reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Its sunday! SUNDAY
Sunday = nick leaves = aminah bored.

Time is passing by so fast now.
And it sucks.
I wish for weekends to be slower.
And weekdays to be much faster.

And he is the only source of motivation for me to make my weekdays to pass by faster.
And that actually helps me to dread the thought of going to school someway or another. Since all i ever do on weekdays would be to go to school, then to come home and take a nap, and then wakes up at 9 to wait for his call, and then to sleep again and it goes on and on. and the only day i would look forward is the day i'll get to meet him.

I can't wait for 3 weeks to be over.
And then, it'll be hols!
yey!

I've already skipped like 6 weeks of tmr's module.
And obviously i got no mood of going to school tmr.
But, the thought of failing this module sucks.
So i HAVE to attend classes. arghhh!
i hate i hate. I hate alan the most. He looks like a pedhophile orsumthng.
Giving that nasty smirk when his looking at his laptop.
Like as tho his watching porn. ergh.
I hate him!

Oh wells, nothing change much now.
But im so glad 1st FYP is over!

now.... comes... the 2nd.
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fuck love songs

Don't you think that love songs contradict at times?
Like, chris daughtry - over you. Saying stuffs like, how his over someone after so long of loving them. But the point is, writing this song, already shows that u're not over them. instead, you're brooding over them and trying to tell them that "oh i finally move on" When the fact is, you'll never move on. and you can't. and you won't.
Another song would be neyo - sick of love song or something like that. Saying stuffs like, when he switch on the radio, all he hear are love songs. and his getting sick of love songs. When the fact is, you yourself are writing one stupid love songs too.

Im starving for you here, with my undying love.

Something, is just so wrong with me right now.
My face, i dunno what ever happen to it,
My pimples on my forehead have been popping out so badly,
My hair is always having its bad hair day,

Sometimes, i just feel like not wearing any make up at all.
But, since i've been using it for god knows how many years,
i just can't seem to stop.
It feels so awkward not wearing it.

And choosing the right foundation for my skin colour, sucks.
Its hard to get the same freaking matching color.
-__-

I think, i have this habit in me now that i just need to push it away so badly.
Its, getting really irritating for me and for others.

Its like this huge massive lots-of-thinking in me that i just can't seem to stop thinking about. And then with this on my head, i tend to get really quiet. And i'll get pissed easily.

I REALLY NEED TO QUIT THIS.