pissed

At this point of time, im officially bored.
DEAD BORED. REALLY REALLY BORED.
And im crying out(not literally of course) to get some attention.

All i did today was, staring at my lappie.
More staring... and MORE staring.
I AM SUPER FREAKING BORED LIKE I WAS NEVER BORED BEFORE.

Hate the fact that love did'nt call me much today.
He called, and then talked for a while, and then off he goes to sleep, and called again to tell me his having bbq so his calling late again and then called again to say gdnite.
Maybe im just SUPER bored today which leads to the fact that i want to be entertained by love today. BUT. i just dont get it today. SO. Im a little down today. But yea. i understand that he's tired and all. I just hate NS rite now.

IN FACT. IM EVEN GONNA HATE IT WHEN HE COME OUT THIS WEEKEND.
Because, its gonna seem like he never come out at all.
I hate the fact that i'll be having FYP this weekend + tommorrow. ARGHH! The thought of it just crushes me inside. i hate it. And then i was asked by eliane to go out this fri. But i just can't seem to make up my mind. because i want to meet love at night and i want to go out with my friends too. Im really trying my best to weigh the line between friendship and bf.

But love was nice enough to ask me to go out with my friends and not ditch my friends for him. And i appreciate that. But I just don't understand sometimes. It seems to me that i'm the only one who has always been wanting to meet him. And sacrificing all my time for him. And love just seem to not bother that his not meeting me.

Gah. maybe im just PMS-ing. And the fact that i can't meet him this week actually cause me to feel this way today. Maybe i just want to be entertained because i know i got lesser time for him tmr. i can't possibly talk with him tmr when im doing my filming tmr.

I hate it. I hate it when we are apart.
I JUST HATE THAT WEEKDAYS YOU'RE NOT EVEN HERE WITH ME.
I miss you already.

But hey. its only this week rite?!

<3

Im sitting here in school, and only one person crosses my mind.
Nick. And I know today’s gonna be the day that he books out.
But here i am, missing him.

I realise that he always took his time to meet me the moment when he books out of camp even if its in the early morning.
And even when its pouring so heavily.
I realise that he would even spend Saturday and Sunday with me without fail.
And then he would book into camp again on Sunday night.

I really hate ns. Because NS took you away from me.
I hate night-time too. Because night-time take me away from you too.
In fact i hate everything that would take you away from me.

Sometimes i wonder why our heart works in such a way that we’ll just tend to miss them so bad even for a few second after we part ways.
And we just wish that we could have them all for ourselves.
And sometimes i just wish that he is this small little toy where i could put him in my pocket
and have him for myself, everywhere, anywhere, i go. Haha.

Yes, Thats how selfish i can turn into.
And i know that it’s all because of you.
But I think, that’s just how this-thing-called love works.
It’s really complicated ain’t it?
And that’s why i love you even more.

But i know i can’t have him all for myself because he got other people who loves him too just like how i do too.

And to you b,
I should be thankful that i have a bf who would actually spend most of his days with me.
Even when his dead tired after booking out of camp.
And Even when he got no bike. Haha. He would travel all the way to sembawang by bus.
And he would jog his ass all the way from woodlands to sembawang too.
I should be thankful that my bf cares a lot about me.
And when im sick, he would force me to drink more water. Hahahaha.
I really thank you for everything.

You colour my world even brighter when you stepped into my life.
You paint me a lot of pictures in my walls.
Some happy ones and some sad ones.
But most importantly you thaught me what it is to be loved.
Hee. I love you bf.

B, i know im such a pain in the ass this few days.
And i know its hard for you to tahan me sometimes.
Im really sorry for those days where i got you mad okay?!

And i love how you always give in to me even when i feel that it’s my fault.

baby goes sun tanning

eka goes sun tanning to get rid of jontis!
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say hello to baby eka eryanna

lets say helloto baby eka eryanna
born on the 13th of october morning.






and some randoms picture i took these past few days.

updates

well not much happened lately.
hari raya was errr, boring.
its the 6th day of raya, and my family only went out for jln raya twice only.

i rebonded my hair, and now it feels like as tho i did'nt.
hah. what a waste of money.
stupid bleaching. should've never bleached my hair.
but its okay. i wanted my hair to look natural, rather than having it all too straight.

So i skipped school today, and i've got nothing better to do.
i decided to post pictures i have'nt do.
so yea.

Yesterday, ate of with love at delifrance...





i took pictures of only this 2 cuties on hari raya.