sugar.

Look at a jar of sugar.
Can you see one tiny piece of salt in it?
No?
Look closely.
Because you might just see one.

It ain't gonna matter if you can't differentiate between what is what.
And it ain't gonna matter if you can't even count how many bits of sugars are in it.
But what matters is that, you could just sense it.
Because, no matter how perfect that sugar can be, there's always a few pieces of small particles in it that, you know, just... don't belong.

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Had FYP at 9 in the morning.
We were filming at arab st with my hottest foe, the sun.
Picture that.

Got off early, at ard 2 and met nick.
So long since we crashed town huh?!
But yea, shop ard and stuffs.
And apparently he made this new friend with a bug.
And that the bug seemed to go everywhere we go.
I swear that was funny.

First, we were outside of topman wisma when that bug first said hello to him.
And he pushes that bug away, leaving with, you know, their goodbyes. hahaha
At about 20 min or so, when we wanted to check the topman outlet at shaw house, that bug appeared again, at the same place where it stood.
It was weird that, that bug appeared again after he pushes it away.
So this time, he did the same thing, push it away again.
Then we made our way back to topman at wisma again, funny that that bug made an appearance AGAIN. This time, it was on his neck, then it crawled to his wrist again.
hahahaha! and Nick went like "I swear if you came back again, im gonna kill you next time" And so, his friend tot was sad for he said such stuffs and so, never did it came back again.
That bug, must've loved him so much.
IM... JEALOUS!! HAHAHA. -___-

Wanted to get that forever 21 dress i saw the other day.
And now, its gone.
HOW SAD! :(
should've bought it earlier. grrr.

FYP sucks

Tho today's work today was really dry, and that i almost gave it up halfway,
I had a great time with my teammates today.
We talked a lot, from family, to childhood lifes.
I think i had a great time talking rather than working on todays problem.

I hate todays faci. He was like all sarcarstic on me.
Have'nt been attending his past three lessons,
and that definitely made me left behind.
He came into my room and shouted, "AHH! NEVER COME TO MY PAST LESSONS RIGHT?! DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING?!"
and i went like "Uhhh. not really"
and he went like, "Ahhh! dun come sommore ah!"

Pls luh, like as if i wanna go your class oso.
If i dun mind failing ur class, i would've just drop your class luh.

And oh, thx to you, you actually ruined our fyp project. -__-

My parents are away right now. To JB.
i wonder wats so great travelling there.
Its lke their pasttime now.
Go JB, come home late, then sleep.
So much of them lecturing me to come home early.
Are'nt they doing the same thing too?!

Kay, FYP is killing me now.

The sweetest thang

The sweetest thing

I get irritated easily now. Somethings just have to tick me off when im feeling real good. I swear im not pms-ing.

Yesterday, was a really restless day for me. And wats worst was that, class was killing me. Not only the topic do, but some people just have to pissed me off. This you-know-who was messing with me. teasing me and stuffs, seeking attention, but he just did it in a wrong way. I know his intentions were good, but once is enough. Class ended super early yesterday, and i tot of going back home early. I actually felt like going home alone. Was about to head out, when i bumped into mad. Suddenly i realised, i had FYP meeting. dammit.
-__-

So i had my fyp meeting till 6, waited for elia and loga after that since they're having their fyp meeting too. made plans to eat after that. And they ended up finishing their stuffs at 9.

Nick called me up at 9, and we talked. He actually made my day by telling me this poem he did when he was there. awww. it was long, and sweet. me likey! ahahha. In fact, listening to his voice everyday had made my day. Can't wait to see him!

Do you really think that the world would come to an end on 21 12 2012?! it really makes me scared. But i think its bullshit. Only god knows when will it happen.

I'm melting

And So I did this in todays lesson. I hate it when it comes to actionscript.
I suck at it big time.

But here goes my so called "INTERACTIVE" game.

mr missed

its 643 and i just woke up.
early bird huh? yea rite~

I could've just sleep my ass off and not wake up this early actually.
But, i had to wake up just to do my stupid freaking RJ.
Which obviously, am still late for submission. -__-

I've been sleeping since yest when i just got back from school.
Did'nt know why, but im really dead tired yesterday.
My neck was screaming for help yest. I swear.
Lesson learnt, never carry sling bags when u're holding on to too much stuffs.

Woke up only when he called me up.
haha and after talking, i crawled back to bed.
I really miss him. how much? Even when i look at the frog just now i think of him.
that's how much it is kay! ahhahahaa.

Now im loading Greek videos.
My connection only works real good in the morning.
It loads super fast. In abt 5 min, a 30 min video can be loaded.
But when its in the afternoon or evening, hell it takes about 30 min?
just to load half of the freaking show.

So now, toodles~

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

And surprisingly,



I WAS EARLY TO

SCHOOL TODAY!!

And can u believe i took like almost 10 min to do this stupid freaking rainbow wording shit?!
-___-

Its 4:06 and its raining now.
And im so bored right now, waiting for my dearest loga and eliane.
Don't feel like going home either. But i got no plans today :(
So, i guess, today, i'll just head home and sleeeeeeeeeep my ass off.
Its really a nice weather to sleep in.
weeeeee.

Im hungry tooo. But im saving my money for you know what.
I miss nick too. Talked to him last night and he seem to be loosing his voice.
Poor thang. And i've got a week or more to finally see him again.

Making memories

And so i've completed...

And now, im addicted to...

Its so fun to watch greek. Its all about life in college.
How i wish RP was a lot more like their school.
Where they have sorority and fraternity.
their own clan of brothers and sisterhood.
So fun. And wat makes it more fun is that everyones living in a house.
And they throw parties almost everyday.

Sometimes, i just wish for singapore to be an open country.
Bend all the stricts laws and all. And, just, live it up a lil!

And i just wish that someday i can just move out from my house.
Learn how to be independent, try surviving on my own, without the need of my parents to help me through. I just want... some... freedom.
I want to have a house on my own, cook for my own food, work my ass off to earn money, buy my own sets of bed sheets, have my friends over at night, go out and come back whenever i want to, just live on my own ya'kno.

Getting married, and move out, is totally different than moving out by your own. Yea, of course i want to get married also. But at least buy a house on my own b4 getting married. Living a life like an american kid, is totally different then being a singaporean kid.

Of course i'm greatful now that i have my parents to support me and stuffs. having to wake up every morning to see em, is not that bad afterall. I love them a lot for taking care of me now. But im going 19 oready. loosen up a lil! thats all im asking for.

I'll be waiting, time after time

So today is friday the 13th.


So, spend the last day with nick yesterday. The minute he saw me, he hugged me up so tight. And it makes my heart beats so fast that i don't even wish to let him go. But oh wells, no one can do anything about it. Sooner or later, he hafta leave also. So i just hafta learn to let go. Its not like as if his leaving forever rite?! Its only 3 weeks. I'll be okay i guess.

Shop for his stuffs at CWP, and i can't believe that they even had a particular colour code to watches. Its like prison in there. -__- So he got his hp, his watch, toiletries bla bla bla. Then we head off to urm, some plaza to eat KFC. Then he met his friends, and i sat there with him for a while. Talked and talked. Then he sent me off to the bus stop. He said stuffs that somehow makes me cry. And yea, I CRIED. pussy. ahhaha.

I hope his fine now. just got his msg a while ago. but didnt realise not until 20 mins later. dammit. dun think his with his phone now. its only day 1! and im already missing him.

OH, the other day, we were playing make up on each other. Head to school before that without any make up on because i was super late. So met nick after that, because the rest of my team member wanted to eat breeks. Because i was so broke, i did'nt have the mood to go to. So met him instead. So i was telling him on how lazy i am to put on make up and stuffs. So he wanted to try putting it on for me. thaught him how to, and i swear he cracks me up real bad. especially when he put me on the eyeshadow. He like macam paham luh kan! asked him "EH YOU KNOW HOW TO OR NOT!?" and he went like "YEA OF COZ AH! DIFFERENT TONE RITE? TRUST MY ARTISTIC SKILLS KAY" -___- Trusted him, and it was funny how he put em underneath my eyes. He was treating the eyeshadow like how we put concealer on our dark circles. hahhaha. i swear that was funny.

and i tot i wanted to see how would he would look like if he were to wear fake lashes.



i should've took the one with the makeup. dammit. yea, i've got nothing better to do, and so i put on him some make up too. hahaha. he really looks pretty luh! of cuz luh, i make him up wat! HAHA. But my stupid phone memory was running low low low low low.

pretttayboyyy. hee. i love you!

pull me up

Im drowning...

I just dun understand em.
Doing shits like they ain't got no pride.

Oh god, what have this world turned into?!

Its sad.
really sad.

No one can do anything about it.

So lets just watch, and see.

fustrating it is.
For some of us.

OMG!
PINCH ME SOMEONE.
AND TELL ME THAT THIS IS REAL.

NEW FOUND GLORY'S coming to singapore on the aug 2nd.
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
Confirm Ash will be like, "AMINAH YOU GOING?!" when he's out of camp.
And i'll go like "HELL YEA IM GOING!"
hahhaha. i wanna go i wanna go i wanna go so bad!

i will! i hope. i'll save up, and I WANT TO GO!

Not fanatic orwhut uh, but omg, my fav band stepping on this pathetic island!

I'll be the wings that keeps your heart in the clouds

I have'nt been updating much have't i?
Hmmmph.

Im surfing deviantart right now. And at the same time, im watching that 70's show.
Use to watch that 70s show till season 3, Now that i've got the complete season, i shall start watching again from now onwards.
I've realised that i stopped doing vectors. And i have'nt been using my drawing tablet. I shall start doing so when i have the time.
The last i did was for my dearest loga. A birthday card for her.


But now, im just so caught up with projects and more projects in school. I don't understand why, RP has to give us projects when they already force us to do 2 FYP's
1 of them is that stupid Animation project where all multimedia students hafta do, which i CHOOSE NOT TO, because i find it stupid and ridiculous that there's no grade given to us by doing so. So i see NO POINT in doing one. I mean, why the hell waste our effort to do one?! It was said that, by doing so, it will help us to build on our portfolio. I already got my designs now, so why worry on a portfolio?
Another project that we hafta do is that stupid filming shit we hafta do during this term break. WHATEVER FOR SIA?! I already did filming for my FYP, and now i hafta do the same shit for class project?! GOD. rp is killing me. Filming is shit okay. Imagine walking ard with that heavy stuffs around. Why can't they provide us with cars oso?! -__- And my team has only 1 guy in it. I bet my team's gonna sweat our ass of luh.

Just now i had FYP. And we manage to finish our audio recording just in time. Now that its done, we hafta start on the MTV. AGAIN. I hate it when it comes to filming. The first few times when u do it, Its fun and stuffs. But when you keep doing it for weeks and weeks, it gets really irritating. I swear. Filming,
is just not my forte in multimedia i guess.

My sis went for check up just now at hospital, but sadly i can't get to see it with them. Only my mom got to see it. And i got to see that baby in a piece of paper. hah. Its really wonderful how technology can do all this now. I really can't wait to be an aunt. I can't wait to see her. And i still can't believe that my sis would be a mom. hahhaa. i mean, it just felt like it was just yesterday she got married, and now, she's carrying a child in her. I can't wait, i can't wait. im so excited for her.

So next week, Nick is heading off to NS. How sad is that?! It seems like we have always meet each other almost every day now. And to just stop seeing you for the next 3 weeks, that's gonna be sad and i really think im gonna miss you and miss everything and im gonna learn to adapt to it. But im sure im gonna be fine with it and hope for the best for you. i hope time will be nice and make it as fast as possible. And i promise, i'll be good. I think that sometimes, maybe you would feel that i hide my feelings from you, because sometimes i just don't really know how to show it to you. but you need to know now that i really love you, And I think I have been since the moment we locked eyes. You were always someone special in my eyes. And it has always been. Im sorry i can be irritating at times. And for you to bare with that, i love ya many many, sloth. heeeeh.

cheeesayyyyyy~ haha.