my love my love my love

Being in love, is scary at times.
You can never know what would happen.

But what i know now is that,
I love you more and more each day,
nicholas han wei xing!

hee.

baby i love you.

And so, yesterday, my sis really had to get me on my nerves.
I get so irritated sometimes.

Why can't you just get my back?
i always got your back.
grr.

I just don't get it ya know.
All i asked for, was a simple job to do.
You hide the keys somewhere, so i can get my ass back at home. Thats all.
But she had to be so sarcastic and drag me all the way to town to get the damn keys.
-___________-

Lucky i got elia to accompany me after meeting love.
Walked ard cwp, then we decided to eat rubinas
Ate a lot, chapatti, tom yum, mutton chop and satay.
Then my family called elia up due to my stupid phones batt.
Told us, they decided to join in.
My dad paid for everthing. So yea, get to eat the food for free.
ha ha.

Got back home at around 10.
can't get to talk to love. :(
elia sleep over.

now its 6:11pm. Im sleepy like hell.
and i don't know why. My body feel so restless.

i close my eyes and dream of where you are

i wanna wear my levi on with my tshirt on
and be supergirl!
i wanna save the world!

oh god.

Trading Heartbeats

I really don't like it when people judge someone like they know them for years.
I hate it especially when they kno nothing at all and they pretend like they know sooooo freaking much and they start judging on em.
And then you starts to listen.

Funny somehow. How this world goes about.
you always think you're right.
But you're not.
So how do you know you're right?

Life, leads us to choices.
And these choices had to be made.
You'll never run away from it.
No matter how hard you'll run, they'll always find their way back to ya.

Then it comes to fate.
To follow your instinct, or to listen to others.
"Trust your instinct", they said.
But, those instincts are'nt always right.
They're made believe.
So how? Listen to others?
Dammit. You're stuck. A state of confusion.
choices = a risk taker.

And then no matter what choices you've made, sooner or later, you tend to question yourself, what if i had choose otherwise, would it be for the better?
Truth is, You'll never be satisfied.

So lesson learnt, life is really complicating.
Really cruel at times. They tricked your mind, to play with your emotions.
They just don't go the way you want to.
Its either you get it, or you just don't.

As for me, i'll always trust my instinct.
And when things don't go the way i want to,
Then we'll talk about it later kay!?

-_____________________-

I know none of this make sense.
Haha. Obviously, because these words are coming from me.
So this make sense to me and only me.

But know that, im really happy with where i am now.
Really i do.
So please beings, be nice, don't stop me from being happy.

Now pretty,
GET ME THIS PLS PLS PLS!!

I've searched high and low for you dammit, but to no avail.
I used to get you at sembawang shopping centre!
But sembawang shopping centre's demolished :(
And you're not even there at your own ben & jerry store!
Where are you now huh?! huh?! huh?!

Alryte, I want to eat that!
Im thirsty.
Im feeling so darn hot now.
I miss love.
Im tired.

Adios amigos!

hmmmmmmm

So shall i Colour my hair?
Put some streaks extension to my hair.
Or shall i rebond my hair?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

holy macaronis

holy day

sup readers?!
Its holy dayyy!
yeap! holidays!

dun really know if i should be happy about it.
but yea, i should be glad that semester 1 had finally come to an end.
After so much days of skipping, and after one day of calculating my grades througout the whole year, i came to realised that i really slack in year 3 semester 1 classes.
And the grades for IT Security would really pull my gpa down.
So i promise to myself *hopefully* to really buck up in semester 2.
No more fooling around.
Its the final semester! I can do it! just one more freaking semester minah! Then everything would come to an end. I pray to god, hopefully i dun have to repeat any modules.
plsssssssss luh plssssssss luh! at least a D+ for my IT SECURITY pls pls pls pls pls!

K currently my right eye is really painful. and its so hard to close my eyes.
Its painful, and at the same time it feels so itchy.
grrr.

Ate tom yum yum yummeh~ today.
I think so far, the best tom yum i tried was the one at changi.
So was eating today, and mom was talking about wiyah's test today.
She had psle listening comprehension today. So mom was like telling me, "eh minah wiyah hari ni ade LISS-TERR-NING COR-PO-RA-TION" HAHAHAHA. believe me or not, it took me like, a min to realise wat she was talking about.




Spent the past four days with love the other time.
Went city hall with him on ndp.
went out to shop on sun with him.
Had him up early in the morning when i skipped mon's lesson and that was the first time i tried sheesha. -________- felt really noob figuring out how to smoke sheesha. haha. Don't really think i can handle it. So girls, burn the thoughts of us going to sheesha. i bet we ALL will cough and cough like idiots. hahahaha. but its fun tho. And love was all tired at night. Sorrry to have you wake up early in the morning kays!!
Spent the tues with him again after school.
And now.... his in camp again.
not gonna meet him for weekends again.
Its kindda sad to have hols without him.

but its okay love! its okay. the other weekends will come!
i'll pray for time to pass by faster for the both of us okay?!
Then i'll pray for weekends to pass by much slowwwwwwwwwer!

Almost Here

Loga was like asking me today. how old are you uh now?
and i told her, im turning 20.

Its funny how i confidently thought that im actually turning 20 this year.
When im only turning 19. -_____-

I guess probably all my friends are turning 20+, so it kindda makes me feel like, im turning 20 this year.
That's how slow i am when im ard them.
This september nurul's turning 22.
Eliane's turning 21 2 mnths after my bdae.
Mira and mimi are turning 20 a month after eliane's bdae.
And loga's turning 20 a month after mira's and mimi's bdae.
AND ME?! IM STILL 19 BY THEN.
grrr.

But its okay right?! the younger, the better. :P

I've been trying to save money this week.
I'm trying hard to not spend so much.
Tryin to starve myself.
But it seems soooooo hard.

I need a job.
yes. I need a freaking job!

Pls sumone! Help me.
Pls aminah! Help yourself!
-______________-

okay, toodles amigos.
Time to sleep.
Darn tired.

hee =D

Dear god, the only thing i ask of you, is to hold him when im not around, when im much too far away

Hey its sunday!
A week passed.
weee~

I did'nt get to see NFG. sighhh.
And Ash is making me soo jealous rite now.
ass.

wooots! Daddy was so nice yest.
He got me a....

Samsung Omnia i900!

I loooooooooooveeeeeee it! but nick more! HAHA.
But the battery would'nt last long luh.
That sucks.
Other than that, i love everything about it.

My dad has a good taste in girls clothing too.
He got me some tops too.
And it looks prettay. hahhahaa.

Today, had jemputan. Some relatives wedding.
Got bored at exactly a min after i got there.
So bored luh. That i badly don't want to face those people down there.
Felt like running away so that i don't have to fake a smile and mingle with those people.
Luckily i had azirah and shikin by my side to socialise. haha. Stole lots and lots of grapes and eat them up!

Its always different now to have a married sis.
Jemputan's a killer especially when u got no cousins by ur side.
It'll only gets better when i have like my close cousins with me.
Else, i'll picture myself as a loner.
Yeap. A loner.

So after that, we head to amk hub to baby shop!



Daddy bought for them lots and lots of stuffs.



I chose this cute giraffe shirt for the-soon-to-be.



and this very cute tiny weeny little booties.
Daddy bought for her a cradle too.



Omg. Can't wait for her to arrive.
Then i could like play with her, dress her especially! hahahha!

Tmr's another shitty day to look forward to.
IT SECURITY!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH! I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP ALREADY.
I HATE I HATE.

I miss my all-time-favourite boy!
I wonder what in the world his doing right now.
Sleeping i guess. -___-
I hope his fine.
I hope his doing good.
I want him to be good.
I hope the trees, grass, there are friendly towards him.
Then they'll provide extra comfort for him!
I hope the mosquitoes there are bloated and full.
So they would'nt bite him.
Cuz they know, i'll get jealous if they were too. HAHA
I hope the rain will hold off this week, and be nice and only pours when he needed it to.
But i know his strong! right nick right?! hahaha.
i missssss him.