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Love you more than anything

Haha. So, i had something up for love.
On friday, took my time to travel down to sembawang shopping centre, then to sun plaza, off to town, back to sunplaza and back to sembawang shopping centre and then to home again. With the thought of him booking out on fri night. But only to realise that he was'nt booking out that night due to his outfield.

That night, at about 11+ he called me up. With the thought of him, just came back from his outfield. I asked him how was it and that i was sad that he did'nt book out. And he pretend pretend he was tired luh bla bla bla. When his only under my block. -__- haha.

The next afternoon, at about 12, i was obviously sleeping. And he came to my doorstep and surprised me with rose and my favourite naan. ahahaha. My mom went like "asal kau tak cakap kau suka chapatti? dapat jugak aku makan" Hahaha. So sweet of him to actually do all this.

So it was my turn to surprise him instead. After he went home, I cabbed down to his place, bought a last min candles (which was'nt enought btw haha), left a note on his bike. Told him to meet me at the rooftop. Using the candles i wrote i love you.

 

and i surprised him with a cookie cake. haha.




He was a bit shock tho. haha and you'll know why later.
And oh, i made this photo for his gift. He showed his mom and she talked to me about how adorable he was when he was a baby



Baby, I know i suck at surprising. hahaha.









We went to my home again. spent some time playing psp and laptop while waiting for the evening to come. And we spent the time at east coast riding bicycle. It was what i always wanted to do actually. But i came to realise how much of a pain it was. I was sweating like hell.



That night ended at about 12+. I went home. Changed and all. and as usual love called me. This time, there were fights going on in his house. So he told me he'll call me again as soon as the fights over. At about 2, he told me he was sad and told me to meet him at my sky garden. I went up, and i saw candles on the ground. His was even bigger and i felt so touched.

   
 

He actually travelled all the way to ikea to get the candles that morning. Unlike me, who did it all last minute. and tak menjadi. -_-haha And to know that we both had the same thoughts and ideas even made me felt wonderful to have him in my life.

Like i said, we are opposite but we've got the same feelings. So that actually explain his shock face. Because he actually did'nt realise that i had the same idea as him. We lay on the rooftop with the candles till 3 or so looking at the stars. It almost felt like, BOLLYWOOD LA. hahahahaha.

Baby, thank you for the tankini, the roses, the love letter, the treats, the naan, the surprises.
thank you for everything.
Tho i know im such a pain at times.
You know i love you still right.
I'm really glad to have met you.
You brought happiness to me.
You always make me feel special.
And i thank you for that.
I love you so much babylove. mwah!

Today is, where your book begins. The rest is still unwritten

Its actually nice to know that love treats my family like his own.

Saturday ended up pretty late with qiss and faz. And its actually weird that my parents don't mind out of a sudden. I mean, normally they'll start nagging and all. But saturday was just weird. haha. Went to catch The Shinjuku Incident. Was'nt a bad movie afterall.

Sundayy was a bad day for both of us. Everything seem to not go our way. It seems like we've been cursed or sumthing. But we actually made it a joke. And laughed at how we know it was coming our way. Planned to go to jurong east swimming complex, but it was closed for renovation. So we decided to go anchorvale swimming complex instead. Had fun spending the time in the pool and in the jacuzzi with love. And for the fact that im actually a lifeguard's daughter and i cant swim for nuts, i had fun piggyback love and watch him drown. hahahhahaahahahahaha.





I actually receive a call for a job while i was driving. I was really excited that they called. But just to inform me to complete more forms from them. -___- So pray for me pls that i'll get that job. pls pls pls. :(

Was doing some gathering of all my certs. And i came to relise i've got pretty much a lot of nonsenscical certs. I've got a lot of dance certs tho. haha. -__-

And that actually reminds me.
Was having practical yesterday and that driving instructor asked me to check my blind spot. So i turned my head lah! And then he was like,
Driving instructor: "EH! YOU DANCE AH?"
Me: "uhhh, y?"
Driving instructor: "You a dancer rite?"
Me: "Yea la, use to."
Driving instructor: "This is not dancing ah! Wa lao, you turn your head i can tell you're a dancer you know."
Me: "HAHAHHAHA. WTH."

Had fun driving up till commonwealth.

Gossip girl on the other hand is killing me. I mean wth was nate thinking?! ARGHHHH! blair sure don't deserve him.

I've got something up for love. nyehehe.

When you see my face, Hope it gives you hell, Hope it gives you hell

Spent the time with the sister today.
Catch 17 again. Was funny.

Surf the net and stuffs and we came across some pictures.

I can't help but to think.
And everything just reminds me again and again.
I kept thinking about all the beautiful things that could've been.
About how great it could be. And how thankful i would be.
But i can't. I just can't.
Just that particular scene, eats me.

Sometimes, to hear all those beautiful things from him, it hurts me even more.
But i told myself to be strong.

Tho i know, you're gone.
Forever, you'll stay with me.

Maybe i miss. I miss all that.

i wish i was superwoman.

All i know is, i have love with me now.
And who knows forever. Still, he's my joy.

Ahhh.

K, forgive me if im wrong. Who knoes you'll come back again in a week or a month and you'll come telling me, why terase just like how i've done it to you. Who knows you're taking a sweet revenge haha. And for that, im gonna tell you straight PAISEH LAH KAN. haha.

But After much deciphering.. Since you blog anonymously, if that post was really meant for me to read (which i think it is), Then i have to say that... So, you actually know that after all this damn thing, it was about my boy being your friend? And that he bad mouth you about you? and that he breach your trust with the promises that he made?

K, one thing, i may not know exactly what you guys have been through. And that is VERY true. But i gladly know how the story goes about. Like i said b4, i DID'NT AND NEVER judge you b4. I did'nt say that in that relationship of yours, was your fault. AND IN FACT i said, "SHE'S A GIRL, you should've at least left her b4 you even start cheating. You are wrong, what were you thinking, you should'nt have done that." But of course, i got no right to judge your relationship. because you might be in the wrong too. I did'nt have the right to tell who's right and who's in the wrong either. and i choose not to. But i only have the right to say that, what's past has past. Because im living on his future and im his present.

Listen up, i did'nt judge you B4. so you got no right to judge on me and fuck me up just because you hated my bf. Now, thats when you are judged by me. When you wrote that entry especially for me. Dissed me like i ain't got no heart at all. And that's when i figured how nasty you are. And that it shows how true my bf words were. You showed him, You showed me and you showed the world. So know that it was'nt my bf who talk shits about you to me.

You was affected by him and "somehow" me at the time we met at the carnival. Because from what i know, You could've save the friendship. But no, you choose to turn the tables around and made it sound like I was the one who was disturbed by your presense and only to realise that dissing his gf could only made it worst. It was only then he realised how not worthy that friendship was to him either.

If its trust you are talking about, you should've seen it even sooner.
As a friend, you could've understand and you should've understand why he took whatever steps that he had made before.

It clearly shows how not happy you were for him. Like how he actually was trying to be happy for you with feeq. =D

And dun worry i'll stop here. Im already happy to know that all of it, was a confessions of an ex-gf to my bf and the hatred, to his gf.

1 more day to hear his voice. 2 more days to hug him. 3 more days to miss him again.

NATO

I wake up every evening with a big smile on my face.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
here i am writing this with a smile.
I just knew you would talk about presence.
Like its a big deal, that i was disturbed.
So you wanna know why? I tell you why.

YOU DISGUST ME.
THAT'S WHY!
Just like a nasty pest crawling into my life.
Yeap, that's you.


K, speaking truth here, you're right, and you have the right to say it THIS TIME that i was rather "disturbed" by your presence. Get this right, THIS TIME not that time when you claimed i was "DISTURBED". Unlike some who actually make believe she wasnt "disturbed" by us and checked up on my blog where, i actually came to realise, i dun even know where you got it from. hmmmm. -___-

And if you are still thinking why im still reading yours, YEA, I WAS "DISTURBED". And if you dun like it, SHUT YOUR BLOG DOWN or MAKE IT PRIVATE. as simple as that.

You know why was i "disturbed"? Trust me, this is not a jealousy game. If it was, i would'nt be smiling nor i would laugh about it. I was just "disturbed" by nasty things. Like how im disturbed by my very own shit. Tell me how can i not be disturbed by what has been said by you? You DISGUST me. How can disgustings things like you not be a disturbance to me?
And anyway, the THOUGHT of that 40 TANGAN KAT GIGI AKU YG TAK LAWA NI.
I should be "disturbed" right? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
(Oh, that was only when my bf come into the picture, calling you for feeq's no, because you brought him in. You might wanna tell your friends that, my bf came into the picture only when you choose to brought yours in. I mean, what a man to say to lay their hands on a woman.)

So yea, be honoured, and be touched to your wide vagina. that you are a pest of someones lives. haha. BE PROUD OF IT. I know you already are right? Yea. grab that trophy and kiss it. I bet this isn't like the second blog-bitching you did ain't it? Man... you sure are honourable.

Sometimes, i wonder why luh kan you have to brought this up again, saying im "disturbed" by your presence lah *LIKE WOOOOOOOOOO YOU'RE NICK'S PAST. MAN IM SOOO SCARED IM SOO SCARED OF YOU*. Like, whatever for luh kan. Face it, we both know it was just some secondary school love. Just so you know, im just "disturbed" by how nasty you are. Nasty Nasty Nasty. Everyones disturbed by nasty things. And you, you had made me considered one yourself in my list because YOU DISGUST ME.

And if you dun find me a disturbance. Of course i can understand that. That shows how not nasty i was to you. Which is true wat kan?! did i call you shit or anything b4 this? Did i disturbed yours and feeq's lives, threatening you and dissed about your face? Because if i did was a disturbance in your life, then im sorry, it was pretty much because you've made me so. Maybe you would be disturbed by me after what i wrote, maybe not. But hell, who cares anyway. I was'nt born to disgust people in any ways. Neither would i be disturbing peoples lives. Or be proud about how someone is disturbed by my action. Funny. Funny that, you are judging someone you don't even know. Because im proud to tell my dear readers that i know im a good person. And I dun do such things like you do. because i have always been nice. And Im especially not nice to people like you. Who just barged into my life and picked a fight with the wrong reasons.

And for the fact that you choose to not use PROGNATHOUS GF this time was unbelievably nice of you.

Sometimes, i dun even know what it is that you want. You wanna win issittttt huhhh girll?!! I tell you lah okay, you win lah horr.
hahahhaha. Kasi kau happy lah kan. HAHA.

eh anyways, you said it b4, kalau tak melayan tak menjadikan?
That's a word of advice to urself too kan?
tsk tsk. You see, Im just too free now to layankan.

Come to think of it,
At least nick did'nt cause much trouble to feeq when both of you got together.
And neither did Nora caused much trouble to me.
And I, for sure did'nt caused you any trouble. -__-
But only you choose make all this happen at that point you saw me at the carnival.
And i choose to layankan your perangai.
And that's when that part of me causing you trouble came in.
Because in the end, in this whole damn thing, You are the only one who choose to make this happen with your disses. Am i right to say that? And i still dunno why you hated me that much either. I mean, at least i have my reasons to hate you. Maybe you should search deep in your heart and asked yourself why you are hating me for. And if you still think you know nick well, and that no amira existed in his past. then i have to tell you again, too bad. his past doesnt revolves around you. Amira hakiemah. Research on that. Or maybe ask her. To figure TRUTH. before you even start a fight..

I Bet you're going to tell to the whole wide world, HAHA, like you care or i made you mad. But truth is, you know you're already wrong from the start. I mean, who are you to even judge me and dissed me like you know me for 1 year? At the very start, you don't even know what's going on in my life. look deep within urself, and you know, you've got a problem to yourself and being YOU of course you would'nt admit it like how im honest enough to tell the world that, yea im disturbed by you.



Ahhh, great timing, i just received a msg from some unknown no.
"Hey, nick wants to tell you he's doing fine, and he loves you. Hope you are doing fine =)"

awww, so nice of him. i miss you love. =(

I've got a headache now.
And i've got some check up to do tmr.

You've made yourself a joke

Lovey love went to war today. A dummy war. Yea, i know right. How crappy this world gets sometimes. Can't get to talk to him this week. Sighh. But i hope he'll have fun. After so much time playing call of duty virtually together, this time he'll be playing it with his friends, and its somewhat, reality. I guess, it'll be fun for him.

So anyways, good friday was spent with love and his friends at sentosa. I had fun bathing in the sea. Its been long since i stepped in the sea actually. Tho it did rain halfway and all of us had to stand and wait in the shelter. -__-













































By the end of the day, i was darn tired. And i meant SUPER tired. Most probably because i had only 3 hours of sleep the day before. And because of that i realised that its affecting my health. I just had a good puke alone at home just now. haiz.

On that saturday, love woke me up to follow him pay his bike installment. The rain started pouring right when we reached the bike shop. So we had no choice but to waste our time away in the shop. The most we could do was, take pictures and bike-seeing. I feel really irritated when he start talking about bikes. Tho, i actually fancy some luh. Im annoyed especially when his planning to take his class 2A. I mean, wth, having a bike is good enough right?! I just don't understand what is it that he sees in bikes. haha. But I guess im just that girl who dun really fancy bikes but to support his interest in one.






Soon after the rain stopped, we made a move to meet fareez and ijah. On our way out, we actually bumped into the N.A.T.O's hahaha. You know, we actually had a good laugh about it. And i sure did gave em a smirk. Love was so nice, before going off to town, he actually brought me to buy that famous tutu kueh that i've wanted to try. ahaha. I know right, -__- After which fareez drove us around to kent ridge park, and then to mustafa centre. haha. yea, we ended up in mustafa believe it or not.

Something about me and nick is that, We are pretty much different. Im quiet and i always choose to be alone while he, he love to socialise. I like spicy spicy asian cuisine kindda food, whereas he, he love cheesecakes, banana prata, japanese, which i totally hate. Sometimes, when it comes to food sharing we just tend to dislike each others food. He loves all this bike bike stuffs and i love all those arty fartsy stuffs. He dislike the dress i like and i dislise the shirts he bought. He likes burger king and i love coffee shops. I cried and i told him once that we are so different. But i learn one thing out of it. Like that law of magnetism states, opposites do attract. It only matters that both our feelings are similar and that we both learn and accept each others differences. I learn to like burger king, and he learn to like mutton soup.

aww. i miss my boy already.

Oh yea, daddy bought me vodafone and a new 250gb harddisk. Hah! And i dunno why he's been nice also. -__-"

He's my dude and you better get used to things
And I don't care what you say about me

That he does it with the best, runs a lil' less
padding on his chest (uh huh)
I like it (so what), I like it
And they say (that he's gonna hurt me)
Just wait and see (but they don't know me)
'cause I am what he wants his girl and I love it

If he gets caught, it just takes one call
I'll come running, boy I promise I will be there for you
All my heart it belongs to you
I can't lose you, boy I just can't leave you alone