east coast accident

morning, leasha came take all the stuff they left at my house. Me and elizabeth took train. overall, bbq was ok la. riding was tiring. the worse part was me and elizabeth riding together. And BAM!! We knocked into each other. It was with a great force sia. That my camera kemek. Hulermak itu pompan nyer badan. Tak nak kalah. My mind was totally blank after tat. We sat in the middle lyk nobody business. Lyk fuck! i was so damn scared. and she kept telling me to go fer a repair. Sorry fer your backbone btw! HAHAHAAHAHA. Who the hell ask her to stop in the middle of nowhere! aiyoyoyoyoyoi

shitty

went to follow leia buy her prom stuff.

fucking tired.

went to topshop and saw this beautiful shirt i like.

66 bucks.

love at ferst sight.

but. no size.

it was too huge for me.

fuck! i want it!

and the topshop sales assist is hot!

gosh! he's so hot.

his eyes, argh! kills me.

Im melting, Im melting, in your eyes.

hahaha.

still i want that shirt.

i want it!

but leia was bz finding her stuffs.

tat i got no tym to buy that shirt!

argh!

im too sick and tired of thinking.
i cried.
but there's no point in crying.
i feel like shit.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Haiiiii. i juz dun understand myself.

I hate to miss chances.

Letting go is what i would do the best.

I hate it!

Why do i always have to be lyk this?

I'm sick and tired of thinking!

I hate it!

Argh! i fuckin hate myself.

Maybe wat sis say is true.

But hey. i was born and being raised TOO well.

I'm so sorry to whom i hurt.

I just wish i could change the way i am.

but i can't.

Can i?