burdae

my life,
is lyk the colour of my hair.
it fades away,
loosing its vibrance.

east coast accident

morning, leasha came take all the stuff they left at my house. Me and elizabeth took train. overall, bbq was ok la. riding was tiring. the worse part was me and elizabeth riding together. And BAM!! We knocked into each other. It was with a great force sia. That my camera kemek. Hulermak itu pompan nyer badan. Tak nak kalah. My mind was totally blank after tat. We sat in the middle lyk nobody business. Lyk fuck! i was so damn scared. and she kept telling me to go fer a repair. Sorry fer your backbone btw! HAHAHAAHAHA. Who the hell ask her to stop in the middle of nowhere! aiyoyoyoyoyoi

shitty

went to follow leia buy her prom stuff.

fucking tired.

went to topshop and saw this beautiful shirt i like.

66 bucks.

love at ferst sight.

but. no size.

it was too huge for me.

fuck! i want it!

and the topshop sales assist is hot!

gosh! he's so hot.

his eyes, argh! kills me.

Im melting, Im melting, in your eyes.

hahaha.

still i want that shirt.

i want it!

but leia was bz finding her stuffs.

tat i got no tym to buy that shirt!

argh!

im too sick and tired of thinking.
i cried.
but there's no point in crying.
i feel like shit.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Haiiiii. i juz dun understand myself.

I hate to miss chances.

Letting go is what i would do the best.

I hate it!

Why do i always have to be lyk this?

I'm sick and tired of thinking!

I hate it!

Argh! i fuckin hate myself.

Maybe wat sis say is true.

But hey. i was born and being raised TOO well.

I'm so sorry to whom i hurt.

I just wish i could change the way i am.

but i can't.

Can i?

Screaming Eyes

Screaming Eyes
At first, looking at her
You’d never know
All the pain she’ll never show
The way she carries herself
The way she walks,
the way she acts
You’d never know
The joy her life lacks

Hidden in amber pools of light
There’s a sadness that comes out at night
And she’s laughing on the outside looking in
Putting on a mask to hide her sins

As she runs worn fingers through her hair
She screams out loud
For someone to take away the despair
The way she stares
You’d never know
How she has no one who cares
But she won’t let you see
Just how the world brought her to her knees

Look deeper than those amber pools of light
There’s a sadness that comes out at night
And she’s laughing on the outside looking in
Putting on a mask to hide her sins

There’s a longing for someone who gives a damn
To save her where no one else can
The tired truth rests at bay
But only when she’s busy all day

And even then
You might just see the trying times inside
You might see it in her eyes
Loneliness and pain-this is where it lies
And only she knows that this is how she dies
It shows in those screaming eyes
-Author's note- Song lyrics/poem are copyrighted: Copyright 2002 Amber Wright

k

. AstalaByeBye People!!
i won't be online fer long!

Miss you!!

f e e l

Every wall has a picture and every wall has a memory,
Every wall has a picture,
but there are no pictures of me.
I feel like there's no tomorrow and there is nothing to do today,
Canned lover,I am food for you--can't you see that it will always be this way?
It's been awhile since affection has run its course through my body..
the euphoria is coming down,Green mint tea means recovery,but it's not enough..
green mint tea on the floor and all around.
I never know the right thing to say,
but it's all crashing down on me,
anyway--this doesn't have to be real,
Empty containers strewn about all over the place and dancing lights in my face,
but I can't catch..this is how I feel.
Memories were meant to fade when friendships should last forever,
but take a picture,
And sometimes pictures dissolve in dislike when friendships fade..
don't be mad at her.
Should I speak the words,
canned lover,even though I'm not good at what I say?
I need a hug and I need a voice,
but you ignore and it's all crashing down on me, anyway.
I feel small,
my heart is always heavy,
and now it bleeds..
this doesn't have to be real,
Broken glass beneath my feet and the stars are close--so sweet,
but I can't touch..this is how I feel.

s i l e n t k i l l e r

Evrything Is All So Silent Now. Evry Soul Is Killing Me Slowly. Evry Chapter, Theres Always A Tragedy. And Evry Sentence, There's Always Meanings behind it.

O h G o s h

Owh gosh o levvel is coming.
freaking scared.

Am so fuckin sad and angry.
I just don't understand my father.
I HATE HIM I HATE HIM!
you just can see how bad he treated my sister.
Ur child shud be treated equally fucker!
I HATE HIM I HATE HIM!I do.
He will always find fault in my sister.
I HATE HIM I HATE HIM!
It's so painful to see that.
To see Your own sister being beaten up.
FUCKIN HELL!
No use of me crying when nothiing could be solved.
u lyk my sister juz for her money huh?
when ur broke u come to her?!
And tat's it ey?!?!
Tat is the only thing u love about her huh?

i love her. MORE then i love him
When I Die, Promise Me 1 Thing.
Show this to my sister.

i <3 you

I Hate You

I Hate You

I Hate You

I Hate You

I Hate You

I Hate You

I Hate You

I Hate You

I Hate You

I Miss You

h a i

Why? Why life has to be so cruel? Im so sad. ferst was my education, and then my... argh forget it!
Is dying the only solution. Bah! Tats so stooppid. After having a conversation with sumone. I just realised how harsh, Mean and cruel i was. Ok. My fault. Yea. Im just a meanie.
I never tot it will be lyk this. Gosh.

bowling.

OkGo. And So bowling was great. I did'nt get strike, but it sure do left us a lot of memories. HUhahaha. Anna was funni. Veri funni. just ask her wat memories she left behind. After bowling, we went to arcade play games. huaha. i spent lotts of money there, play sum games with hazi. the machine was stoopid. we did'nt knoe how it work actualli. so we just play aard with it. Had lunch at northpoint. Ok, and then, my pant was wet. Bah! i did'nt even knoe where the water came from. Huaha.So i just ignore it. and then we walk and walk at northpoint. went to shops and try out sum stuffs. And so, we went to mc d's talk crap.
And so
And so
And so.

ok

OkGo!
Exams Over!
Woohoo!
And finally i have tym to cut my hair!
Yup!
A new haircut.
But the same style tho.

bla bla bla

s a d

Im truly am fuckin sad.

Depressed.

Fuckin Exams which lost me abt 20 marks on math.

Lost lyk 8 marks on social studies.

Yup.

Fuckin Hell!

And owh.

The worst case is.

Im depress todae.

Im Fuckin Clueless.

:( Stab my heart plz.

t u r n t o d e s p a i r

im fuckin stress.

im fucking tired.

my eyes!

its covered by dark circles of fatigue.

gosh.

i wish its ending.

s l e e p l e s s

Sleepless nights...

s t r a n g e

I had a Dream.
And It Was Strange.
It Might Be You Who I Dreamt About.
HurHur.

b a h

Bah! People People! I'm fuckin petrified. About wat? Therres Just so Many things that i want to mention, but it just tat i couldnt. Haiz. But i could tell u tat i am scared abt prelims and o of coz. Hurhur. Its lyk 7 in the morning yet im not sleping. Im Studying ok. Shoo. Dun fucking disturb u arse! Hee. YEap. Guess Tat's it. Face the werld of eye-bagness fer lyk 2 month? I guess..

haha

K K. Sumthin realli stoopid happen to my sis! aghahahaha. She was using the cotton bud to dig her ears. then suddenly, the white cotton stuck on her ears! ahahahaha! So funni! my family were all laughing Lyk hell! Stoopid her! Getting it out was so hard! hhaha. we use a long tweezer and went tru the hole! hurhur. And it was as tho we are pulling a baby out from a stomach!

e r r r r r r r r r r r

Err...

Im feeling HAPPY!

Dunno Y?

Someday u'll knoe!

Hurhur!

B 4

B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4 B 4

ARGH!!!!! THAT SUX!! I HATE IT!!!!!!! I WANT AN A! AN A!

TAT'S IT! IM RETAKING!

n e r v o u s

Am soo freakin Scared. Nervous. Anxious. Terrified. Frightened. Petrified. Worried. Fearful. Alarmed. Panicky. Upset. Startled. EVRYTHING! MT o'level results is goin to be announce TOMMOROE! Argh! Another 11Hr 15min 36s 50ms! ahaha. God hear me now! Im writing this down hoping that u'll be by my side tommoroe. Haiz. plz plz plz. I dun wanna fail. I study! but yet when i do, i have no confidence at all. my essay waas short coz i can't think at that tym! God. Help me! k i knoe u can't do anithink. But i juz hope u'll be by myside. Hurhurhur! I want an A! Ergh! I hope! I wish! I expect! I look forward to! I trust! I anticipate! I'll cry tommoroe fer sure. No matter i fail or i pass!

B o w l i n g

Todae at ard 1020, leasha came my house. It was supposed to be at 1030! Ergh! Fuck! i have'nt even took a shower or even brush my teeth! Hurhur! Was soo sleepy la. can't even bare to open my eyes. K so, when leasha come, i went to take a shower, ask her to wait fer the rest to come. While i was taking a shower, azimah come and anna was late! Hurhur! We watch charlie and the chocolate factory at my house, since leasha's house is... erm... i dun exactly knoe y we can't go to her house. So after watching, Siap2 then go play bowling at safra with Anna, azimah, fanny, faizal and haleem. Was fun! Although it was embarrasing man! K there was once when i throw the ball, That fuckin ball move backwards! ARGH!! I WAS SO MALU MAN! HUMILIATING~! people were all laughing! HEY IM A BEGINNER OK! haha. the ball was too heavy ler not my fault! Hurhur! but the 1st round, i got the 4th place! 4th place was ok fer beginner! Hee. K then went for the second round. I started off wif 0's man. but at the end, i manage to get 2 strikes in a row! Woohooo~! God was by my side la. Hurhur! I love u god! So i won this round! FERST! huahahahaha. TOO BAD ANNA! I WIN U! NOT TYCO OK! hurhurhur! after playing 2 round, we went to northpoint to eat uh. eat eat eat. Then went to timezone. PLay play play. I win fannny in the car race! HURHUR! lucky day la! finally, went home at ard 8+.

C o u n t d o w n

Wee. Am fuckin tired. Ferst went penin to buy the used shirt. Search search but got no nice design. Got one la. But it waas medium size uh. Fuckin hell! So end up i buy my cemical romance shirt. Ergh! dun realli lyk them but heck! had to buy some shirt. wasting energy onli go to city hall without buying anithink, so end up i bought that uh. Planning to find the one i lyk in queensway lateer when i got cash! K so then We were hungry, so we went to orchard plan to eat ayam penyek eh? sumthink lyk tat la. hurhur. but have to wait feer that wan. so while waiting, we walk at far east uh. Walk walk walk. Then i saw this armwarmer. there wwere diff types ah. Unfortunately, i can onli buy 1! Bah! sad sad. Nehmind. Laater later can buy la when i got money. haha. But it was nice! argh! Patience siti! Hurhur. Owh yea, while i was searching fer the armwarmers, there waas this dude who wanted to buy sumthink. So while i was standing near the door, he waas lyk, askin me for somethink. coz he think tat i waas a fuckin sales assistant over there. Hurhur. Cute man. Then i went lyk, "erm, im not the sales assistant la. ask her!" haha. Paisey paisey. Soo funni. K so, when wan arrive, we meet him at lucky plaza uh. by the tym we reach there, the stall close oreadi la! FUCK! so then we were DAMN hungry, we head to beach road. eat satay. Wahz. the fuckin drink stall got competition man. Can see tensions grew between each other. Summore both stalls were situated next to each other plak tu. and we were sitting in between the two stall. Scarry man. both sides were lyk staring with each other seh. SCARY! I was lyk "jgn la gadoh" hhaha. Eat eat eat then when to esplanade there. watch firewerkz. hur hur. Nice nice. but quite boring. many people was there. HOT HOT HOT!~ i mean the weather la! hot. After that, heaad home.

weavey

f u c k

K fuck! i shud have go I SHUD HAVE GO! Its juz my luck IT'S JUZ MY LUCK. stoopid luck! ergh~! If not i could see him. Argh! God! WHy are u doin this to me?! Huahahaha. K FINE. dun blame god! Actualli woke up oreadi but too lazy to take a bath. then got a call from azimah, she said no need to go. So i was lyk. K FINE. i'm sleepy aniwaez. so went to sleep. Then todae found out from naj, ARGH! FUCKIN LUCK! Nehmind. forget it!

n e w v i d e o

Wooohoo.. have u dicks and pussies seen fftl new video?! Note to SelF? Erh.. it was ok la.. but i prefeer their ferst video better... much more lyk a real video. But Still, it was ok. Check it out. At http://www.fftl.net . Check out my designs too. Simplicity's da name.

b u l l e t f o r m y v a l e n t i n e

Bullet for my valentine - Cries In Vain

Lord you know I've cried a thousand tears a night.
But nothing seems to quench the thirst you keep on craving.
But now i need an answer to my prayers and you're not there.
So why I think you listen, listen.

Has no one told you, your cries are all in vain,
And everyone keeps trying to take that all away,
Has no one told you, your cries are all in vain,
Your cries.

Lord I can't disguise the look inside my eyes,
The more I try to look away the more I'm staring,
But now i need an answer to my prayers and your not there,
So why I think you listen, listen.

Your cries in vain I look away.

Has nobody told you when you look away.
The stories they told you still run through your veins.

h a i r s t y l e 2

kk a pic of mua new fucking hairstlye

h a i r s t y l e

Todae, went to sun plaza to geeet a new hairstyle. Fuck! it ain't nice. But heck cares. I dun realli care about ma hair nowadays. I have no pictures right now. but i'll post it here if i took one.

t o d a e

Wah. todae went to SOR so fuckin tired sia. stood like almost 3 fuckin hour juz now. argh. Ma legs are killing me. But it was fun. Support 3 dash 1 all da way. Wahwee and they won. they are so fuckin awesome. The bassist uh, got nice move. Their lead singer burst into tears went announcing the results. So fuckin cute. Met many people over there uh. Including some of ma netfwen.

Wah todae so kecoh sia. The most funniest part waas the incident in the toilet. Tat nabila uh. cam confident gitu tu tempat kluar. Naseb aku tak jlln tros kalao tak da langgah cermin. huahaha. siol butol.

SOR finish at ard 5 sumthin uh, so we plan to watch the movie the island at 0650 so we wait pat tepi the entrance uh. ma legs were killing me so we sat at the ground la. Smuer da ngantok. Skali a security guard told us to stand up coz we weren't suppose to sit there. i was lyk 'fuckin hell uh!' nak dudok pat situ pon tak bleh ker. tak pernah2 aku dgr tak bleh dudok pat shoppin centre siol. FINE.

the movie was ok la. scaarlet johanssen (however u spell it) was drop dead gorgeoous man. actualli we tot this movie finish at ard 8 sumthin skali tau tau 9+ seh. reach home at ard 10.

u p d a t e

p i e r c i n g

Argh! Im thinkin about gettin my lips pierce... do you think i should? I told ma mom but she somehow hate the idea. BUT. i dun care. I want I want!

s

Argh fuck! Have u humans watch the new video from My Chemical Romance?! GERARD! GERARD! IS SO DAMN FUCKIIN CUTE! HIS MOUTH WHEN HE'S DOIIN THE AHHHH! SWEETNESS~!! he's lyk elvis presley. Huahaha! Seriously, i find him cute when his shouting the ahh~ ahhhhhh~! hhahahha... MY OH MY. Wee. His cute. HIS CUTE. even cuter than bam is BUT! Still bam has won my heart! huahaha. Aniewaez, their new video is 'the ghost of you' My. My fav song of all songs in their album. Used to listen continuously to that song evry morning when goin to school from yew tee to sembawang. Gerard Cutest. Matt cute. Bam Cuter. Heeeeeeh...

m y o h m y

My oh my! am sooo fuckin tired. My eyes are burning! I wanna sleep badly! But.i have to study ma history! Haiz... Man im soo slacking. Evrydae go home, sleep and sleep and sleep! Go to school, Sleep and sleep and sleep! ARGH!!! I Fuckin hate school! but nehmind... Last year! Laast year! Bear with it! Aniewaez im goin to perform at canberra pri this fri! Yeee, am happy coz it's the last performance! YEAY!

A r g h

Argh!! i am suppose to be studyin rite now... but.. but.. but... IM ADDICTED! ADDICTED in designin icons! creating wallpaperS! creating icons feer fftl! ARGH!!! wad da heck! i promised myself to study todae. But BUt... i NEVER! huahaha. Creating and designing icons is fun! Aniwaez, a new updated page had been done, its in ma gallery ma gallery. I've uploaded some of ma design there. Some of them Kindda sucks. Takes tym takes tym to learn! huaha. Aniwaez, Sorry fer not updaating. huahaha. yesterdae took ma listening compre 'o's! DAamn! i got lyk 2 wrongs oreadi! Shuld have dig ma eaar b4 comin to school! huahaha! DammiT! Haiz It's been 5 months aniwaez, to what? think fer urself!

I woke up lost inside my fears,from all the things I'd done this year. And everything I said,that hurt you time and again. You spoke it soft into my ear,all the words I want to hear.And this time I'll make sureyou get them back alright.Remember when you said, you'd hold my heart instead? Well I'm letting you know now, go ahead.

WeeE

Wah wee! I got ma hp back! And Guess wat?! Miss Syakilla is the one who stole it! Wat da fook! Im kindda happy i got it back But! It was such a dissapointment that she is the one who stole it!However, part of me is sad bcoz all ma ppictures, especially BAM AND CHADMUSKA are gone!!!!!

At ferst i wanted this guy to help me check if he can acess tru her phone using ma password. But i was scared that he would help her Change the pass werd. So after the emath lesson, i went over 4e4 and find her. But at that tym, she was tokin to sulas.So i waited by the door waiting fer her conversation to end. THen, i ask her, "shakilla, i heard u got the same hp as mine last tym. Do u mind me checkin it?" So, miss syakilla took out her phone and hand it oveer to me. My hands were shakin which i had no clue why. Maybe i was nervous to check if that is my phone. I went tru the wallet. AND I CONFIRMED THAT IT WAS MINE! MMINE! So, i check again, this tym, i check the IMEI no. It was mine MINE! Wat proof does she have that it was hers?! NO PROOF! so i told her, i could'nt do anithink more and i have to take the phone becoz it was (oops grammatical error. 'IS') mine. She was lyk... "I SWEAR I FOUND IT IN THE HOSPITAL". My my shakilla, how could it posibly landed in the hospital!. When i handed her, her sim card, i dunno why i felt so sad and u could see i was shaking lyk hell! Maybe bcoz i am dissapointed that it was her, sumone who i used (owh wait, im rite this tym! Past tense!) to call a friend. So after all this, Sulas went up to me and sae if i wanna go deeply about this case. She mention wat if that phone was not mine. So i show her ma wallet which i save precious memories iinside. I HAD to let it all out. I showed her about the dae i met didi, the dae of how i regret letting ma friendship wif nabilla slip away and even how sad i waas towards fadhli. Wat more could she sae?!

The worse thing was, All her fwen in e4 knew about this. But yet, No one did tell me about her using 6170. Aniwaez, If anione of u in e4 are reading this, Dun take it to hard coz im not putting any blamez on u guyz.

GOSH! Miss syakilla Did'nt even sae sorry and yet she dared to walk off in front of ma face lookin so fed up!

Hey gerl, thats ma phone! Yet u said u saw it in the hospital!

OWGH... I GET IT! IT MAKE SO MUCH "SENSE"!

Hey u guyz! GUESS WAT?!

MY BABY GOT LEGS TO WALK!

WOOHOO.. Of all places, ma baby wanna go to the HOSPITAL!

Wee! I THink ma baby wanna see the cute doctors over there!

NOTE TO SELF : U ARE NOT MAKIN ANY SENSE SYAKILLA! ITS GOOD THAT I DID'NT EVEN TAKE UR SIM CARD AND THROW IT AWAY! ITS GOOD THAT I DID'NT EVEN REPORT BACK TO THE POLICE! I PROMISED MYSELF I GIV U THREE DAYS FOR U TO COME APOLOGIZING TO ME AND THEN I'LL REPORT TO THE POLICE!

Have u enjoyed A MONTH AND ELEVEN DAES wif ma phone?! Sae Goodbye to All the TAO-PIG batisah pictures of urs! Sae goodbye to all ur Memories. Sae good bye to ur pictures. Last but not least, SAE GOODBYE TO MA BABY!

1. How could u erase bam margera's picture! He's way cuter than taufiq aniwwwaez! HUAHUAHUA!
2. Why did you delete the thank you for the venom polyphonic ringtone! and Otha ringtone! I COST $3.15 PER SONGS!
3. Why did you steal ma phone! (huahua. I knoe this answer. Obviously u would sae, NO! I DID'NT TOOK UR PHONE. I FOUND IT IN THE 'HOSPITAL!')

JUZ BURN THE PHOTOGRAPHS AND BURY ALL THE PICTURES THAT U KNEW!

Weee

i saw.. i saw.. abg cuties.. weehee! he was wearing the same cap. i was eating wif ma family when i see this guy in front of of the food court. i was lyk, he seem familiar. wEe.. i guess he remembered me and ma sis. Ahhh. He's cute! lost his pic i took on ma hp! coz i lost da phone! Fuck the person who steal it!!!

ggdgd

he said : "but u nvr forget me right..?"

My mind, my heart whispers "Nop. Evry Min, Evry Second."
But my ans was... "No idiot."

This goes out to fadhli and only fadhli.
I wished i could've told you sooner that, i think about you a lot.
and that i wish things between us could always remain the same.

But truth is, it can never be the same anymore.
We were friends. We were best friends. It always felt more than that.
I'd travelled an hour to meet you, even tho our distance were so far away.

And now, after a year of leaving me behind,
you're asking us to get back to where we use to be?!
Of course i do still think of you.
Of course i wanted to.
But, Y now?

You told me you promise it would never happen again.
how sure are you?
I always thought you actually made me feel loved.
In fact, you're the first person to do that.
Made me find a reason to be attached.

But you changed when u graduated and got in ITE.
Well yea, people changed dun they? I see that with my own eyes

I may have loved you.
But, sadly enough. i don't want to carry on how we were.
Like i told you, theres plenty of fishes in the sea.

Don't pine, move on. I can always be your friend.
you know that right? But, nothing more like last time.
I'll always be there like how you've been all this while for me.

WeeeEeEe

K. I started ma day with a tear on ma eyes! Wat else could it be rather then her.! When i open ma eyes, all i can hear was ma mom crying. She was tokin on the phone wif ma sis. She was quarellin abt yest. And i heard sumthink lyk is ur name end wif "bte yousop" and she was lyk quiet i think. She told ma mom that she hate ma dad. Man! Tat's harsh ok! Fuck her! I so hate her! !@#$^%^. Hey! Can u juz change ur behaviour!! I hate her i hate her!

WeeEe! Tommmmoroe goin to Kl! WeEeEeEe! But Damn. I dun even knoe how "fun" it will turn out within this family! ATTITUDE PROBLEM! tat was wat she usually tell me. Look at urselF! K la! Afteerall, i admit. i do love her as my sis. But lately, i hate her behaviour!

haiz

Haiz. Am so saad man. Todae ma sis got her salary. She went home, and give ma mom 200 bucks. She usually gave ma mom 300 and ma dad 200 (i think am not sure how much ma dad usually get). But this tym, she gave ma mom 200 and ma daad nothin. She usualli gave me 30 bucks but this tym i get NOTHIN! K. Tat's fine with me aite. I dun reealli caree tat much. It's not a big deal aniwaez. When ma sis handed ma mom the 200 bucks, ma mom waas lyk. wat?! 200 onlie? she asked her, wat abt ma dad. She say, juz share it. Then ma mom nag and nag abt the amt she have. Ma sis wwas lyk, wat da hell she's not even thankful of what she get. K at this point im siding ma sis. Yes she was rite. Summore she need her own money to spend at kl. And yes ma mom did'nt even mention thank you to her! Wad da hell! How bad was tat! if me oso i mad seh. Hmms.. kk. Then, later that night, when she's asleep, ma mom tok to me. She said lyk how rude waaas she.So, I told her my point of view, who's being rude to who! She told me tat she did'nt say thank you coz she felt pity towards ma dad. She told me how could ma sis give her the money and told ma daad nothin's fer him right in froont of his face! And ma daad get nothin?! After all her life ma dad took care of her. Give her money and this is what he get in return?! Ma mom oso had a point here! how coould she do tat! By then, i feel sad fer ma dad. I even cried thinkin of it. I saaw the look in ma daaad face. He wwas dissapointed. yea! how could she do tat. If u want to give 200 oso give la 100 to ma mom and 100 to ma dad so its fair. The point is! i felt sad fer ma dad! It's juz lyk i give sumthin unequally among ma best fwens. Haiz. I so hate it when ma mom complain things to me. I dun want to hear the stories! Sumtimes it hurts me! It made me cry when i see her crying. Lately,ma sis behaviour been changin. It's true. When i try to tell her, she's lyk "IM NOT MAKIN ANY DIFFICULTIES FER ANY ONE OF U RITE?!!". Ey, hello!?! u makin my life diffficult here! ferst, i hate ma mom complaining to me! Second, I hate it when she got beaten up by ma dad. cozit hurts me! Third, I hate it when u and me fight! Sumtimes, i think her fwwen got her influence. But who noes. I'm sad. I'm sad. Am truly sad. I dunno who to listen hear. Ma mom. Or ma sis?!

wat da hell

wad da hell! ma sis tok in her dream again. HahA. ThiS tym she asked to postpone. i ask her postpone wat she kept quiet. then i ask her kl uh? She said yea. Hahaha! Crazy women!

On my own - the used
See all those people on the ground
Wasting time
I try to hold it all inside,
But just for tonight,
The top of the world,
Sitting here wishing,
The things I've become,
That something is missing,
Maybe I...(fuck it)
But what do I know.

And now it seems that I have found,
Nothing at all,
I wanna hear your voice out loud,
Slow it down, slow it down,
Without it all,
I'm choking on nothing,
It's clear in my head,
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all.

On my own...

Without it all,
I'm choking on nothing,
It's clear in my head,
And I'm screaming for something,
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all.

On my own...

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haiyo!

Hey! Why many people go to ma blog but not eveen a single soul tag me?! Hahaha! Is there sumthink wrong with ma tagboard?! Tell me if there is though... Hmms... am hearing to H.I.M songs rite now. haha! Bam got an influence on me! nah.. actualli it all started when i watch this video called Bittersweet (apocalyptica feat ville valo) It's so nice. they sat on a table and playin A board which is sumthink lyk the ouija board. Kindda cool. Kindda Gothic. Aniwaez, apocalyptica Which i dun realli knoe who and ville valo is the lead singer fer H.I.M. Bitteersweet really made me listen to it over and oveer again. Its nice. Kindda slow though. When i find the video i'll try to put it in here aitez! heh. Well, todae, the same old thing sit at home doin nothin. Juz a few min ago ma sis talk in her dream man! she said sumthing abt the membership! Hahaha! Man! Wat is she dreamin. I ask her wat membership and she replied the club! Hahahah! *laugh my ass off*! i sae wat club.. She said " check la bodo!" Ahahaha! am too scared to ask her other question! Am scared she suddenly waalk in her sleep and stranggle me or sumthink! Huhahaha.

A l l s e t ! !

Yeeeehhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! all done! Finally it's finish. all of them! well, kindda suck ey coz i dunno wat to put fer the other two links which i consider it as ma mmmusic and quizzes page. Haha. Got Nothin else in mind. Hmm to those who went to my blog, Leave some comments ey. HEh. Well, todaae was Browsing thru the net when i came across najihah's blog. Saw a picture of lindsay lohan. Man. she look ugly in blonde! I prefer her brunette rather then blonde. Wat najihah wrote was quite true actualli. I also think it came from that paris diesease! arghhhhhhhhhh! Haha. Have u guyz watch oc seasoon 2 episode 24? Man! I cried watchin tat episode. it's the last episode actualli! Damn! Tat's wat i hate about dramas! Kindda sad ryans bro died! Merissa shoot him! Argh!! now i cannot see tat cute face of logan marshallgreen! But nehmind BAM MARGERA came to the rescue! Huahahahaha! I so loooooove bam!

• 4 more days to gooo~! Weee~!

W o o h o o

woohoo~! Finally a new layout fer ma blog. Been doin this fer da past 11 hours. Only 2 page are ready. The rest can do tommoroe la. Am so sleepy. The thing about me. Once i start, I will never stop. I still feel lyk doin this shit till i finishh all 6 pages but ma eyes can't take it animore! argh!! Im seeing double visions rite no. ahaha. Am so Bored nowadays. Im owaaaes at home playing computer evry single daae. Haiz. Wonder when am i goin out. Can't wait to go to KL next thursday. WOOHOO! haha. Can't wait to shop shop shop! Do u guyz knoe that this is ma ferst tym to kl? haha. tat's why im excited. Huhahahaha.. Kesian.. Namonla tak pernal gi KL kan?! Finally school's over! Yeah! now i can finally enjoy a peaaceful holidaae! thou i still need to study s o's commin! DAMN! Hate it!

F i n a l l y . . .

Yea! Finally! exams over. Darn it was So hard. The probilty of me passin the 6 subjects is lyk 1/6 haha. Finally i can Rest! Ma eyes are killin me! Erm. 1st test i took was English. man it was hard. especially the essay. which was 'returns' i have no clue wat the title is about. So i wrote abt karma. The compre, i dun understand the passage! damn! Second test was Mother tounge! I never finish!! Argh!!! If onli i finish i think i would pass. the mcq fer compre i juz put some lucky alphabets. haha. i never even read the passage in da ferst place! then the essay was ok la. third paper was social studies. It was aite. the source base err.. i did'nt finish, i think. forth paper was math. was aite too again i never finish! the fifth paper was history. was aite. again i never finish! six was chem. was so freakin hard! luckily i manage to finish! and lastly, physics... was quite ok.. Guess im a slow pest! alwaes never finish! damn! Hope i pass la... that all im hopin fer.!

b O R e d o M . . .

last sat, went to town wif mua sista. Was suppose to shop fer clothes. Ended up we shop fer nothin. Hah. It was tiring. I actualli wanted to buy this roxy cap. I knoe. I hate Roxy's but the design was cool. It cost lyk $42. Ma sis told me it's a waste of money. But heck. It was kewl. In the end i did'nt bought it. At home, i was lyk. I want that cap! So i told ma sis, eh why not we buy it tommoroe, b4 we goin to east coast (ma couz party) . She was lyk ok. So on the sundae, b4 reachin to east coast, we went to town ferst to buy tat cap. after buying, i have this feelin of regrettin buyin it. Damn. Wad the heck?! haha. $42 gone jez lyk dat?! I knoe I knoe. My fuckin fault. when we reachin to east coast, we called iza and ask the pit is near to which carpark? she told us it was near carpark d. So we took a cab and told him to stop us near carpark d. When we reach there, the taxi driver was lyk, where is carpark d? we went lyk ermm.. u are da taxi drive are'nt u?! Find fer urself. Hah. Skali we see this signboard tat show's pit 17-26. but it was at carpark c. i remembered tat taufik told me it was at pit 24. So we stop there. when we reach at pit 24, we saw this unknown peeps. So we called iza and ask which pit are they at. She told us 45! i was lyk wad the hell?! so we walk and walk till we reach pit 45. Damn it was tiring. Finally we saw them! overall, the party was ok la. Rent a bike. Was quite fun. Reach home at ard 11 +. Now am studying. Tata.

~ Thinkin of sellin da cap! who wants it?! tell me ok...

A r g h p i m p l e s !

Argh! More And more pimples growin on ma face. Damn. Too stressed i think. Heh. Beem studyin ma chemistry todae. And a lil of Emath. Learn how to do moles alreadie! So Stress. Ma room is covered with notes now. Hah. Paste all da notes on da wall, so that i can stare at it before i sleep. Well todae, school was boring. Haiz. Never been better. Was suppose to go back at 1230 todae and was supposed to study with anna at dunno where. But i made a choice to go to Mother tounge remidial. Was a regret. The class was soo boring. He keep on tokin and tokin and tokin. Bla Bla bla Bla bLa Bla. Abt this and this and that. Bla Bla bla Bla bLa Bla. Repeat and repeat. Bla Bla bla Bla bLa Bla. Sooooo boring. It was lyk hell man. So Hot! and I was sweating. All i can think was, 'When is this fuckin teacher goin to stop tokin!' . End up we went back lyk around 4. Went back home and start doin ma chemistry. And there goes the dae.

~ Sonny Sonny Sonny. Soo Cute and Adorable!

H a p p y d a y . . .

It's a happy happy dae fer me. hah. Got to chat wif man todae. Well, he has no more internet at home. No wonder he rarely was online. He's comin back to school on teachers dae. Yea! He gave me his no. but sadly it was a home no. Lyk as if i wanna call lyk tat. Haha. Never in ma life i would call a guy. Hahaha. Erm. School was quite fun todae. Lotsa laughters. Hah. Kindda feel hyper bcoz of the humidity. haha. So hot. At home, was studyin Chemistry jez now. Suddenly, fell asleep and went straight to lala land. woke up lyk around 8.30. Eat. Watch tv. Aiya! speaking of tv. American Idol. Constantine was voted out!!! Argh!!! i so hate it. I thought he will be the next american idol. Guess i was wrong. Damn! i soo love him! his chin dimple! haiz. Gonna miss him. Guess now, im voting fer bo instead. Bye constantine. Kla. Blog sum otha tym. Tata.

~ Pressure pressing down on me
the used & my chemical romance

n o t h i n m u c h . . .

Same day like usual. School was bored. Never been better. But todae learn sumthing fer physics. Haiz. Am so worried bout Chemistry. Also, Kindda sad coz todae teacher rearrange our tables and i cannot get to sit wif tat anna. No more fun. Haiz. But nehmind. She's still sitting bside me now. Hah. Well, finished school at 2 todae. Then at 3 went back schl again to attend physics remidial. Bought lyk 11 sweets fer me to ate in the class. End up, i ate onli 2. Ma classmates snatch it away. Stoopid Anna. Hehe. So went back lyk around 5. Wanted to go to geylang wif ma parents actualli but instead, stayed at home Singin From First to Last songs. Loves listenin to their songs man. Soo damn fuckin nice. Sonny moore is soo cute. Got to knoe he's with kelly osbourne. Kewlness. Watch american idol todae. am so supporting constantine! he sang so nice todae. But judges sae not. Wat la. Bo was not bad also. Erm well. Nothin interestin happen todae la. Not much to type in. heh.

~To u im like a flavour that would'nt last.
U took one bite and spat me out real fast.
Now this mark remains and
will never ever go away.

S o o o B o r e d . . .

Todae, School was oK. Coz there's 3 free period (history, a math, emath). Kindda fun. However, Chem was stressful. Were doin moles todae. I can't even solve one question in the ten year series. Too hard. Nothing was on ma mind after revising durin the weekends. Damn! How the hell am i gonna pass ma Chem! During A-Math, went up to cosmix with anna to study. And i have this crush on this guy who Was sittin a distance away from me. Hah! After School, which was about 3.30, was walking towards the canteen when i passed Danial and fwens. And all of them were lyk. 'Minah!' 'action tak nampak pulak'. Why can't he juz forget about me after all cruel things that i've done to him. And MOVE ON! Haiz. I'm such a meanie. Haha. He's such a strange guy though. Hah. After remedial, went straight back home with naj, anna and bing yong. At home, i slept from 5 to 10. So juz woke up rite now to blog. Hah. Currently listening to dead poetic - new medicine. Kindda cool songs they got.

New Medicines
These are the words that tear you apart.
And these are the words that take you away.
And these are just words they'll tear you apart.
When no one here will say what needs to say.

New medicines should ease this pain.
They're the only ailment for it.

It's this air and time that's bringing me home again.
A lame attempt at playing the part again now.
In a place you don't know.
And this stance as sturdy as leaves in a storm.
The premise and motive fueling blank faces.
The fool in a place you don't know.
In this place, you don't

New medicines should ease this pain.
They're the only ailment for it. All over again.

These are the words that tore me apart.
And these are the words that'll take me away.
I'm not in the business of faking to please vain opposers.
A dead legion of new, cloned followers.
You're cornered in a place you don't know.
In this world, you don't.

New medicines should ease this pain.
They're the only ailment for it. All over again.

~ Tired

mua new blog

Kk... heh... Guess this will be ma new blog.. Well been sittin here wondering abt ma fuckin hair! Planning to get it cut again... Coz it'z getting long.. Haiz... Damn, my hair grows veri fast... Hah.. I wanna let it grow long, but it's gonna be disastrous if i wait fer it to grow long.. Haiyo! Why the heck amma toking about ma hair! Well, been stuck at home doing ma Social Studies homework.. haiz... Was Plannin to Study ma chem.. But don't think there's enough tym to study... haha... Coz i'm wasting ma tym using the computer... Mid year is comin and yet i'm still playin around... Gotta stop playing da computer!! K la... will be bloggin sum otha tym..

~In LoOve With Bam Margera! Heh...

2 5 f e b r u a r y

wow.... it's been months when i last update ma blog... haha.... kindda lazy to do sooo... welll todae theres sumthin suprising happen to me.... man... it's lyk the best dae ever.. i was at school... and i saw man and him.... mannnn!! i was so shocked... i was outside the corridor of ma class, and he was goin towards the canteen... kao... never thought he's coming back to canberra sec.... my... he's cute... naj and i quickly ran downstairs and pretended lyk we are goin to buy drinks well we did actualli... after we bought our drinks... we walk out of the canteen... hopin he will see us... haha... by da tym we walk out, man tweet at me... i turn ard lookin at their view... and i saw 'he' waving at me.... i was shocked! so i wave at him back.... mannnn!!!!!! i sooo have a crush on him... and guess wat? fer lyk more then 1 year.... haiz... although he's not in da same school now... i still have a crush on him... juz dunno y...