The only one who could make my problem seem so far away..

Im pissed.
So pissed.
God knoes how pissed i am.

I dun geddit, one moment, im a happy chicken.
Next, Im a sappy chicken.
And then, i got so mad.
Somethings terribly wrong with me.
But im sure, i'll be okay soon.

This cheer me up now.
I laugh so bad watching this.

Mission improbable - the laundry



This two loves to buat keje bodoh.
hahahhaa.

"THE CAT!!!" hahahha. i swear that was funny.

You stay in every heaartbeat of mine. Always there.

I was crying, still crying.
To see how hurt my mom gets.
It is just too painful too see your mom's tears.
Sometimes, i don't know who to side with.
Even tho, my dad is an ass, he has a heart.
And my mom should've mind her words in saying anything.
Because sometimes, just one word could hurt someone.

Being stubborn, she refuse to sleep with my dad now.
And there she goes lying down on the ground.
And when i woke my dad up to ask him to get her on the bed,
my dad went lyk "Arghh!! don't bother! let her sleep down there"
WTF. now, that's when i would side my mom.

SHITTTTTTTY. and thanks someone fer cheering me up a lil.

Can you feel it sometimes? When you feel like someone hates you. And that they treat you oh so differently. Words from my lil cuz was that "You know, my mom thinks you're awfully rude to ur parents." I swear i fill like killing her at that point of time. I mean, plz luh eh, if i was that rude, probably my mom would've hate me at this point of time. But comm'on luh i know she loves me alryte. She hugs me everynite to sleep. She share stories with me. So dun put words in ur mouth making me look like im a bad person here. Me and my mom, we share a lot of things okay and i swear we are close. And comm'on eh! MY PARENTS INSIST ON SLEEPING IN A ROOM WITH THEM! So jgn pandai2 ckp, im bothering them luh.

I just dun like it uh, i know i may be very quiet at times, but that does'nt means im arrogant? ergh.

PMS? i dun think so.
Hah! just annoyed.

so anyways, here are some pictures of mira and mimi's bdae celebration.

FUNNNNNNNEHHHH

HAHA FUNNNNNNNEHHHH

There is more to this i know

chlorine and reddish heads dun match kay.
i went for a swim the other day and sadly my red streaks are gone.
dammmmmmmmmmmmit.

waste money only seh.
but its okay.

so yea, roadtrip was fun tho i did'nt shop a lot.
we made plenty of stops.
plenty with strange names.
so yea.
all i got was err, graphic t's and more graphic t's
i wanted to get sneakers.
but sadly, all they had down there was those chepos sneakers.

im not in the mood to blog or post pictures right now.
yea, lazy ass i know.

so yea, toodles!

Something Im Not

Something Im Not - Just Surrender

I keep thinking that there's something I'm supposed to do
I keep searching but I'll never measure up for you
I hate the way that you always have something to say
Yeah I can bend but I wont break for what you willingly pay

Maybe I'm not meant to be all the things you want from me
Isn't it enough to just believe what we've got (is enough)
Maybe I'm not meant to be
Inside all the dreams your dreaming
I can slowly feel you changing me
into something that I'm not

I'm getting tired of you playing me like a fool
I thought I'd land in the skies when I aimed for you
I find myself coming up short every time
If you can't see me standing here love, then your blind

Open your eyes

Maybe I'm not meant to be all the things you want from me
Isn't it enough just to believe what we've got (is enough)
Maybe I'm not meant to be inside all the dreams your dreaming
I can slowly feel you changing me
Into something that I'm not

I feel the pressure
In my life I feel you closing in on me
I feel you closing in on me

Maybe I'm not meant to be
All the things you want from me
Isn't it enough to just believe what we've got [is enough]
Maybe I'm not meant to be inside of all the dreams your dreaming
I can slowly feel you changing me
Into something I'm not
And I can slowly feel you changing me
Into something I'm not
Something that I'm not
And I can slowly feel you changing me
Something that I'm not
And I can slowly fell you changing me

She's searching for no one, but herself

Do you feel it sometimes?
Could you feel it sometimes?
When something just felt so wrong, that it makes you so so sad.
That sometimes you feel like crying without any reasons why?
And you just don't know why, why you're in this state of mind.

Grr, shitty is probably the right word to explains it all.

Something just feel so wrong right now,
that it makes me feel soo down right now.
and seriously, dun even bother asking me why because i have no freaking idea why.
grrrrrr. Its just bothering me right now.
and i wonder why...

And god knoes, i hate thinking.
i hate thinking about anything right now.
my brain cells is pretty much deflating right now.
and i swear to god, i've been wasting so much these past few days.
and that the only ones left are probably eating up my brains right now.
so right now, im sad, and i dun even wanna think about it.

maybe izuan's rite, maybe im just spending too much time listening to sappy songs.
but i dunno, somehow, i just feel, something is just not right.

I never meant it to be this way, im sorry

remember that pain i was telling ya'll about?
it was my eyelash extensions.
but its getting better now.
cuz i manage to pull out those few strands at the corner.
and dammit, that sure is freaking painful.
but luckily, the pain subsides.
and now my eye is back to how it use to be.
tho i find it a bit irritating when i shower,
i can't even manage to open my eyes when i shower.
because somehow, water keeps going into my eye once its open.
and when i try to rub it off, its painful.
so yea, i probably think this would be my last extensions ever.
and probably stick to the normal lash i've used.



grr, i feel shitty right now.

Hush

This is as quiet as it gets
Hush down now, go to sleep
We were once perfect me and you
Will never leave this room

H H H Hush
You color my eyes red
Your loves not live its dead
This letters written itself inside out again
When rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends H H H Hush this is where it ends

This is the calming before the storm
This absolution is always incomplete
It's always bittersweet

H H H Hush
You color my eyes red
Your loves not live its dead
This letters written itself inside out again
When rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends
H H H Hush this is where it ends

I won't make a sound so you don't wake
Don't wake, don't wake, you don't wake

H H H Hush
You color my eyes red
Your loves not live its dead
This letters written itself inside out again
When rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends
H H H Hush this is where it ends
You color my eyes red
Your loves not live its dead
This letters written itself inside out again
When rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends
H H H Hush this is where it ends
This is where it ends

Blessed are the hearts that can bend

Albert Camus once wrote, "Blessed are the hearts that can bend; they shall never be broken." But I wonder if there's no breaking then there's no healing, and if there's no healing then there's no learning. And if there's no learning then there's no struggle. But struggle is a part of life. So must all hearts be broken?

Im in painnnnnnnnnnnnn.

so much painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
terribly. sadly. grrrrrrrrrr.
SAKITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT SEKALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.
i feel like crying, but i can't.

because, im trying my best to hold it back.
and it has got nothing to do with the heart or anywhere in my system.
hah. bare with it ass!

wake me up in april can?

boredom

presenting 2 of my very nonsensical friends.



HAHAHAHA DGR DGR, CANVAS TU CONVERSE PE AQILA.
oh comm'on aqila, YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME.
=x



thx fer that babe, i'll keep that in mind.
HAHAHA.

NONSENSE.
i know. im nonsense too. haha

Tonight i hate this fucking town

I still remember.
it was a late night. like today, it was pouring heavily.
and it makes me felt that it was a part in my life,
where i actually felt, oh how romantic.

and now... im heading to orchard...
walking in the rain alone.
LAGI ROMANTIC KAN?!
hahhaha.

meeting the girls today.
its been ages since i meet them.
as usual, im late.
hopefully, i manage to erase my home phone no. from their phones.
asses. I SWEAR I HATE YOU GUYS FOR CALLING ME IN MY SLEEP.
hahhahahaha.
dammit.

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i swear my dad was hilarious just now.
we were watching the news,
and apparently, it was about a hippo name charlie.

dad "Eh eh minah? name badak ni charlie?! ALAMAK. kesian luh si charlie tu, name die dapat dari badak rupe rupe nye. tsk tsk."

haha!
anyways, charlie is my cousin anyway.
meaaaaaaaaaaaaaanie

Yesterday, you were something. Today, you are nothing.

sup bloggger!
its 10:53 AM right now. Surprise Surprise!
Wonder wth am i doing early this morning?
Well, i can't sleep today. Not that i can't sleep because im not tired. I told myself, that i shall not sleep today. I keep staring at the damn clock, thinking, shall i get to bed?! Gosh. Seriously, my eyes can't barely open any longer. And i don't think my brains are functioning well either. But im forcing myself real hard to stay awake. Reason behind all this, is obviously, im thinking of breaking my unhealthy habits. I've been waking up late this days. And strangely enough, sometimes i would wake up when the day turns to dusk. PIG ain't i?! grr. But hey, yesterday im a pig, today, im a dead zombie, tommorrow im a princess. HEE :D

Mom was all weird just now. She woke up and asked, u wanted a dress did'nt you? *which obviously i've been wanting it since months ago* I swear that was freaky. Since when have she ever thought of buying me a dress. So i told her, yea. And then she went like "Where is it? vivo rite? okay lets go!" Freakish ain't it? hah. Its good that she's in a good mood, but at the very wrong timing luh. i told her i can't go out today. So i told her to go out tmr instead. i can't go out not having any sleep at all! else, i'll get cranky.

Its been rainy these days. I love it when it rains. It keeps me cold. I love the streets when its all wet. If i could paint, probably, i would paint the streets.

Oh i've been thinking of continuing dancing.
But, the thought of going kallang every weekend... sheesh... kills me.
So yea, still thinking..

ORYTEYS MATES! im gonna try making my very own, ice mocha for now.
till then, toodles!

You know you love me. xoxo.

You know, i woke up today, had stomach cramps.
i hate it when i had stomach cramps.
worst still i had headaches.
dammit. but im okay luh now.

Lets see, fauzi's bike went missing.
He said, he wanted to go work just like any other normal day.
So he went to the carpark to search his bike.
And strangely his bike was'nt there.
and so he thought... he might have parked his bike sumwhere else.
so he searched the whole carpark.
but, to no avail.. it was'nt there.
SO WHERE IS IT PEOPLE?!
HMMMMMM....
you know what detective aminah thinks?!
MAS SELAMAT MIGHT HAVE TOOK IT!
AHHAHAHHAHHA.
ok i shall not make jokes on him, poor guy.

So anyways, MAS SELAMAT is getting really popular huh?!
the other day, went to watch the leap years at yishun golden village.
the moment i stood outside the theatre, queing up to get some nachos, i stood in the middle of all the theathers. and guess whut?!
all around they pasted mas selamat pictures. and all of them is lyk 2 metres away from each other. So in total probably they wasted lyk ard 20 papers.
i stood there, and laugh.
I mean, comm'on luh. they paste the pictures in GV.
mcm luh mas selamat nak gi tgk wayang kan. wth
maybe its good luh that their main idea was to aware people, but takkan sampai 20++ papers kan. hahhaa.
sheeeeeeeesh.

And while researching on mas selamat over the net the other tym...
i came across this website, where people talked about him.
Some were pointing out some of the possibilities of how this guy managed to escaped.
Some were funny. one said, that he might have escaped through the toilet bowl.
hahahahhaha wth. i swear that was crappy and funny.

So enough abt him. anyways, i was watching tv3 just now.
Elite music videos were on the screen. hah.
And i remember, i used to perform that particular song in canberra last time, for talentime. I remember how we used to practice in my house every time after school.
and Sometimes during breaktime, then kak michelle, kak erma, kak erni, and i-forgot-the-rest-of-their-names will be there.
We were like spice girls okay!
HUAHAHHAHAHA.

this is the music video.



hahahha come to think of it, OMG! WTH DID WE EVEN THOUGHT OF DANCING LYK THAT IN FRONT OF THE SCHOOL?!
But i swear it was fun, we asked baraks and his gang to sing along the part "HAAA-AHH" with us.
And shockingly, by the 2nd verse almost the whole crowd was singing with us.

haha.
SO KANAK KANAK.

okay goodbye loves.
epok2 time + gilmore girls.
=D

You could tell that i was nervous so you held my hand

OMG. i swear i have weird dreams all the time!

Its weird, And i mean it. This is the fourth time i dreamt about her. and im lyk, *weirdddddd~*. HAH! nah-uh~! what are u guys thinking eh?! i swear im straight okay! . And funny thing is that, in my dream, i was alighting the train to go home. She, on the other hand, was at the same train station where i was with her school uniform on. She tooked the train i just alighted. So yea, we kindda passed by each other. YEA, THAT'S IT. weird dream ain't it?! I SEE NO POINT!! gosh.

and quite recently, i dreamt that i was a superhero. yes! believe it or not!! hahaa. well actually, not really a superhero luh. Just that, in my dream, someone gave me a power. A power to fly. Cool shit ain't it?! that was a nice dream afterall. It almost made me feel like im watching a movie. really. i was trying to control my powers, i was at the roof of apartment buildings, flying like i was super-woman! i was with 2 friends who could fly. But i couldnt remember who it was.

Then there was the other time, i dreamt that i went to the toilet to pee. Then sumhow, my phone dropped into the toilet bowl. and then i woke up.

funny how we could dream about someone we barely even know.

I heard from someone, saying that, when we dream, our soul tends to move around and that is why we could actually dream. So its actually our soul that is in our dream.

But u know what? i think thats bullshit. If that is it, probably my soul went to new york b4. and guess what? i dun even need a passport for that. HAH! -__________-

But why are there cases that people could just die in their sleep? hmmmmmmmmmm.

OH OH! I'VE GOT A HUGE SECRET!
as much as i want to share it with ya'll.
i'll wait till its the right time.
oooooooooooooooooohhh im lovin it!
huahaha

=D

xoxo